Tranquillity and bliss are two words that perfectly describe my state of mind this morning. We're both awake, here, in my kitchen. Him sipping from his cup of coffee and me trying to tell him a funny story.
"...and then, after he dropped his towel he said with a smirk on his face: Like what you see? And I just rolled my eyes and went inside the room." I end the story. He laughs. "So, that's why you don't go to pools anymore?" He asked, smiling. I nod. "Also because I don't know how to swim. I tried to learn and it didn't end well...but that's a story for another time." I say blushing while taking a sip of water from my cup.
He looks at me with an already familiar smile as we continue our conversation for about another 30 minutes. 'I like this.' A feeling of calmness takes over me.
"Alright, I should go." He says in the end, breaking my thought. "This is amazing, perfect, really! I came to London to do a job but I met a wonderful distraction. And as much as I like it." He says pulling me in his arms. "I need to work too." I can see how his eyes saddened as he spoke those words.
We kissed sweetly for a while. I get up and lead him to the door. I let go of his hand and used it to touch his head, his hair. "So soft. "I almost whispered. He pulls me into a hug. Our bodies were perfectly sculpted into each other. "Write to me this time, ok?" He pleads. "Aham." I managed to pull him closer, trying desperately not to let him go. 'Ah, he smells so good.' I think before I break the hug.
"Have a great day!" I say and wave him goodbye. "Bye." He says but I see he is reluctant to leave me alone. I open the door and as he is about to leave he turns and gives me one last kiss on my cheek and says." I had a really great morning!" And walks away.
I close the door and start laughing like a maniac. I know what he meant by that. It was a great morning indeed. I go and have my breakfast, a bacon sandwich. "So yummy!'' I praise myself for making such good food. I love cooking but I just don't have the time to do it that often here.
I spent the day listening to music and cleaning up the house. While I was dancing to I.O.I's "Very,very,very" my cramps came back. I knew this was it. My period started. 'Painkillers and chocolate here I come.' I think while I mentally prepare myself for the next few days.
Late afternoon I text Jay. "Hi. I'm texting you as promised. What's up?" I sent it. 'This is a normal text, right?' I wonder about it myself while comfortably on the bed. A reply came in less than a minute. "Hey. I'm glad you wrote. I'm having a late lunch with the team." I smile. "I'm eating too...well, eating chocolate.'' I write. "It's technically food, right!?" I send a wink. "Yes, it is but don't forget to eat some real food too." He replies. "Such a gentleman, caring for my well being." I reply and end up laughing. "You bet." He writes back with a wink and emoticon.
I get ready to ask him when we can meet again but I get startled by the arrival of a different message. It was from Gary. "Let's meet." He wrote. 'I guess I should meet him and end this once and for all.' I think and sight.
"Sure. Stop by my place. You still have a few things left here." I write. I looked in the corner where the box with Gary's things was. I contemplated whether I should just throw it out or not but I just realised I'm not that kind of person. I couldn't even get mad at him, the proper way, when we broke up. I remember just telling him to get his things and leave.
Honestly I barely remember the whole event, I don't even remember that girl's face. But I remember how I felt. Betrayed. Angry. In pain. I have always been a romantic and maybe a bit delusional about the perfect love and relationship. But now I am no longer sure what to feel or believe. I know one thing though, this impulsiveness that I had in the past few days will have to stop soon. 'As soon as he leaves.' I think and feel slightly saddened.
Looking at my phone I quickly sent a message to Jay. "I'm a little busy. There's something I have to do. Sorry. Have fun. Talk later!' And end it with a kiss emote. I get in return hearts and hugs emoticons. 'Such a sweetie.'
5 minutes before the time Gary said would stop by, I gave Mary a quick call to check on her and her boy. I forgot to do it last night. They are alright, thank goodness. 'I should stop by the cafe later.' I make a mental note while I end the call. Doorbell rings. 'Just in time.' I sight, ready myself mentally, and open the door.