Tears come to my eyes. And he control he's Angr and again wanted to say somthing but I didn't give him chance to said..
" How dare you to talk to me like that.. I am sleeping with you that doesn't mean that I am sult or somthing. And like said before this is none of your business whom to i kiss or whom with I hangout and what to I wear. Now grab your things and get out from my house. I don't want see your fucking face. And never try to contact me again. i am done with you. " I yelled at him. And getting out of my bed. And than throw he's clothes in him. And than he did want to said. Apologize to me. But I didn't give him chance and than he wear he's clothes and leave..
He didn't try to apologise to me.. monther fucker..
Tears can't stop to my eyes. How he can't think about me like this. What he think himself that he can't insult me anytime any where he want to.. than he is wrong. Maybe he think that I am like other girls who can hear shits and do nothing. No i am not. Thank god this happen. Now I will never ever want him to come near me. Not matter how much I want him.
I will stay far far away from him. I did mistake to make this bullshit deal. And he got point to pointed to my character. This is first time that he said. And I don't want him to be do that. It's better to be stay away from him..
I walk to my bathroom and take long shower again. I know that this is last that we never going to be meet and fuck eachother and have good sex. And do things that I never do in my life.
I never thought that he will say somthing like this. We both are fuck buddy's that doesn't mean that he can insult me and i do nothing.
It's better that it's finished everything between us. Now there is no way i feel guilty looking at Lily. I don't know why he is so Angry. Did he Angry that I kiss another guy and not him. He did tell me he leave everything for me and I kissing other boy. Did he mean.. no way in hell he can feel like this. He just phycho.
He like Lily. he is serious about her. I hope that he know it. And he don't do thinks that make he's life leaving hell.
I have to stay away from him. I don't want to involve in this. I have to stay away from Jacob. I still want to think about him. But not now. I am in mess. And I need time. I can't jump one guy to another. Not that fast. I take medicine and than did eat my food. Jump on my bed and sleep.. closing my eys.. fuck all of this..
Today is sunday. And there is nothing to intersting. I am feeling bored. I am thinking about last night movement. How we both had wild and rough and dominant sex. He know how to fuck me. He know how to turn me on. He know how to give me pleasure.
Lily is one lucky girl she didn't even have any idea that what will Tony do when she agree with sleeping with him. Did he do same thing with her too. I don't like it thinking about it. I mean it's only me that he have to do wild sex. Not others. He can't do some thing with Lily. I don't EVEN think that Lily will be prefer that type of sex. She is one goody two shoes. I don't think she will ever agree to like thought type of sex or she will..
What if she did agree. Tony still do this things which he did with me. That make me jealous. Why I am jealous about it. I and he both know that one day we both are part away. He stop fucking each other. We both are move with our life partner. Than why I still feel so insecure. Damn it..
Stop fucking think about it.. I grab book and started to reading book. But i don't feel to read book. I get up and started to prepare to food for me. That one is weird one but its help it to Divert my mind but again I still thinking about it.
I can't be feel like this to him. I can think like this. And he is nothing to me. He is nothing important to my life. I have to stay away from him. If I want to save myself I have to stay the fuck away from him. Avoid him. Don't go near him. I don't want to be sad jealous bitch. And I am not that. I better be off without him.
Next day in Monday morning. I told Jake to pick me up. For my good luck that Zoe and Becca also getting ride with Jake. So we all are go together.
" So what happened that night. You didn't pick our phone. We are worried for you.. " Jake said to me. And I look at him and than girls. I did having distance with girls my friends because of him than basterd. No I can't make it this. i can't win him. And make me weak.
" Jacob drop me home. I feel tired nothing happen. He drop me and than he drive away.. " i tell them. And Becca look at me with smrike I know she know. Why the hell she always know it .
" What happened Madeline.." she said. And when she said my full name we know that she get it that I am laying.. I don't want to answer it but I know they will not going to late me go.
" We.. ummm.. we makeout in he's car." I Brun out and they all look at me with shock .
" You give your first kiss to him.. I mean it's him wow. It's seems like he is lucky.. but how was it is.. did you like it.. " hearing all this I feel hot. I do like it but still my mind are thinking about Tony that how he kiss me evry fucking time.
" Omg mad I never thought that.. lucky basterd.. " Jake said. And he laugh and we all join him..
We reach the our hight school. And than enter together. Jacob see us and than he's eyes landed on me and than walk to us.
" G morning everyone. Good morning Madeline.." i like it when he call me to my full name. I like my name when someone call me by my full name. ughhh not again.. my friends..
" Oohhooo mmmmm" Becca and Zoe tease him. And I smile looking at Jacob how he blush.
" You are one lucky basterd man. Don't hurt her. If you did I will kill you.." Jake said to him slapping he's arm. And he smile and looking at me. I to blushing like hell. Not even look at him. Now I feel how Zoe feel other night.
" Guys let's go we are going to be late for our class ." Zoe said. And we all are agree with her. Jacob and me both are walk together. He hold my hand and that is first time someone do this in publicly and not hiding. I look at him when he already looking at me. And we both smile to each other. it's feels good..
" I hate you Tony.. I hate you so much.. go fuck whoever you want to fuck.. don't come to me ever.. " i hear fimiler voice and everyone is stop whatever they are doing and look at there where this voice come for..
I turn around and look at Lilly full of red eyes with tears. Looking at her I feel hurt. She don't deserve it. No one deserve it..
I see that Tony is walking to behind her try to stop her. But she jerk he's hand. He never do things go to the girl. Not even me.. But he did try one but she didn't listen than he let it go.. it's look like he also don't want it. Than why you with her if you don't want it.. such basterd..
He is Angry. I know. He still like her. He don't want to lose her. Because of her he leave all he's damn night stands to spend time with her. And now she ditch him. He running he's hand to he's hair frustratedly. I like he's hair. I evrytime play with him. Whenever we both are kissing each other. He too like it when I do it. He never stop me to that.
Fucking hell why the hell i am thinking about him.. I have to stay away from him. Whatever going on there or them that is not my business. I about to turn away that our eyes meet.
I look at him how he look lonly and hurt and Angry. He look at me up to down than he's eyes landed to my hand with Jacob.. than he get Angry more. I feel scared. I never scared of him. Or I ever see him like this condition ever..
But I did hear about it that how much dangerous badboy he is. He always get what he want. He never give up. And I know he not going to give up on Lily.
He punch he's hand to the wall hard. And Murmured somthing to he's breath. I hold tight to Jacob hand. I never see him like this.. Jacob pull me toward him. I don't want to see this. I don't want to see him like this.
Other side my mind tell me to go to him. He is hurt. He will hurt himself more if i didn't go.. I don't know I am stuck in there. What to do.. blood are coming in he's hand. How hard he punch the wall.. damn this boy is..
I let go to Jacob. And he proteste me. To stop me. Even my friend's also stop me. But I didn't listen to them. I walk where he run away.
I hope he don't do any more damages. I am scared. I never feel this ever. I know he is Angry. We both are broke our deal. There is no relationship between us. We don't even friend's. But still i can't look at him like this. I search him.
End of the corridor he is standing there. And smoking cigarette. With he's bloody hand. Is he psycho or what. Didn't that hurt..
He hear my footsteps and look at my way. He throw the cigarette and grab my arm and kiss me.. this is never happened before. He never do this in public. I try to push him away but he did let me go. I getting worried if anyone know this.. I give up.
I did give him to do whatever he want to do.. he press my breast to tight.. tears coming out to my eyes. He still don't let me go.. he do feel that i am crying he did hurting me but still he never let me go..
I never feel this ever. I do sacred but I don't want to leave him in that state. He needed me. And i am here for him.
After he feel that I didn't kiss him back. And I am crying. He pull away. And looking at me. I didn't look at him. I don't want to look at he's face I feel weak front of him. This is second time he made me cry. First he's words. And second this time he's actions. That is look like he hate me. He hate me so much. And he is giving me punishment. And I didn't even said to him. Why i feel like this..
Using he's bloody hand he touch my chin and make me to look at him.. he did pull my face but I still didn't look at him. I close my eyes. And try to not to cry. He did wipe my tears to using he's other hand. And rub my checks.
" Look at me.." he said in low voice that I can only hear it.. I didn't look at him.. no I don't want too..
" Look at me Madeline.." he said to me this time dangerously. And my eyes meet he's. And he see that how much he hurt me. And he feel guilty.. he let go me. pull away me from him..