Me and A-O have been friends for as long as I can remember this meant that our families naturally knew each other very well we always spent Friday nights together at my home this is an activity they've always enjoyed but one that I've always hated, I hated everything about it the loud voices the ear-piercing cheers and shouts as our fathers watched Friday night wrestling for these reasons I've always stayed in the safety in my room to get away from all the action A-O on the other hand always loved to be a part of this and she was always the loudest of them all but today was different she had recently got in an intense argument with her parents about whether or not she should find a boyfriend I too have had this argument several times with my parents. For that reason A-O decided to spend her time in my room have I always felt this awkward and stiff around her? What is this! Why am I sweating right now! Why am I feeling this way? I can hear my heartbeat in my ears it sounds as If it's going to explode! Damn it!
"Jiro."
"Y-YES!" I exclaimed as I flew from my seat at my desk now standing up.
"Can you come over here for a sec?"
"S-Sure!" Why was I so nervous I just wasn't like myself today!
"Are you ok Jiro? You don't look so good."
"Y-Yea I'm doing fine! Perfectly fine! OH, You wanted to tell me something right?! I'll head over there right now!" I said as I quickly turned around tripping over my feet.
" Watch out!" Exclaimed A-O,
"Ow ow ow!" HUH! What's this? I felt something squishy in my right hand? It was round and soft what was it? Oh, it was probably that thing that A-O was playing with earlier. Oh well, guess it won't hurt to have a squeeze.
"J-Jiro !"
Huh? I said as I looked just to find myself on top of A-O! But if A-O was here then that means that the thing in my hand was h-her! No, It couldn't be I probably just grabbed the stress ball she had earlier nothing else, I said to myself as I looked at my hand to realize that there was no stress ball. The thing in my hand was her chest!
" S-Sorry!" A said as I tried to get up slipping on a magazine under my foot just to end up in an even more awkward position than before. Her face was too close! MY heart was pounding as if it were to burst out of my chest if I got any closer.
"Jiro!" called my mother as she opened the door.
"Oh my!" She exclaimed, "Honey come to take a look at this!"
"What is it?" "OH my god! What's going on here?!"
"It's not what it looks like!"
"Never did in my wildest dream did I imagine my son being so bold!" He said wiping the tear that ran down from his cheek. "I couldn't be more proud of you son! I'll get out you two just continue your business we'll be in the living room eating diner," he said still crying.
"Dad! I told you it's not what it looks like!"
"Shush! It's ok to be embarrassed I still remember my first time with your mother."
"Dad it's not!"
"No it's ok I get it you want me to get out as soon as possible so I'll be on my way right away! Oh, and Jiro tries to keep it down a bit ok," he said with a smirk on his face as he left the room.
"S-sorry about that," I said too embarrassed to look at her.
" Don't be!" She exclaimed. "I'm glad you did all those things to me now I know that you love me more than that old nurse!" she said in a playful tone
" What do you mean! All of that was an accident!"
"S-so you don't love me?" she said in a quiet yet suspicious tone.
" N-no don't get the wrong idea that's not it like I don't hate you or anything.
"Yay!" She exclaimed as she threw herself on me pinning me against the ground. " Well, are you ready?!" She asked in a playful tone,
" Ready for what!"
" Are you ready for round two of course! What else would I be asking you!".
" What do you mean a-round two we didn't do anything in the first place!" I said as I picked her up ready to throw her out of my room,
"Oh my, You're so bold picking me up like I'm some kind of princess! If you keep spoiling me like this I'll fall for you for sure!" She squealed in excitement.
"Oh really?!" I said irritated by her immature annoying behavior,
" How about you try not to fall down the stairs first!" I said dropping her off at the staircase.
"NO! Jiro don't be like that!" She yelled from where she landed at the bottom of the stairs.
"Shut up!" I said as I slammed my door locking it behind me. " That A-O! Always making the weirdest situations out of things!" I hate how she always does this so why, Why do I feel this weird sensation in my chest every time I'm around her? Why does my heart always skip a beat every time I see her face? I thought to myself as I checked the time, 11:00 pm already! That's gotta be it, that's why I haven't felt like my self today I was tired.
"I guess a good night's sleep is all I needed!" I said to myself as I got into bed ready to sleep, And just as I started to drift away into my dream I heard my door open slamming against the wall.
"Jiro!" Exclaimed A-O, "Your parents said I'm sleeping in your room today!". Why did this have to happen to me of all times why today!
"Wait wheres your futon!"
"Oh, my dad's using it." "So where are you going to sleep?"
"With you of course!" she said flinging herself onto me.
"What are you doing?!" I exclaimed as she started to move closer to my face slowly "Getting comfortable!" she said in an energetic tone.
" well get comfortable somewhere else because I'm not comfortable!" " Oh, would you rather be the one on top of me?!" She said in a playful tone
" NO!"
" Oh so you do prefer this position?!" She said leaning in closer and whispering into my ear
"I would prefer if you were on top of me," she said leaning closer to me,
"I would be more careful if I was you," I said pushing her away from me.
"What do you mean?"
"You don't know?! You're so clueless A-O.," I said pushing her down pinning her wrists against the bed, "I'm a guy so you need to be careful, or else something like this might happen to you." I said leaning closer to her as I felt my body losing control and my mind going blank.
"Jiro!" - "Jiro!" - " JIRO!"
"HUH, what, yes!" I exclaimed, snapping out of my daydream
"are you ok you spaced out a while did something happen?"
"N-NO! Nothing at all!"
"Are you sure? Your face is bright red do you have a fever?"
That because of you dumbass I thought to myself.
"Oh my! You're burning up! You need to get some rest right now!"
"I'm fine it's nothing," I said trying to get A-O to drop it.
" No, it's not fine! You are burning up with a fever you need rest!"
"No, I'm doing just fine."
"Just shut up and lie down!" she said smacking me against the side of my head.
"I'll go make you some tea so don't you dare move an inch out of that bed!"
"Y-yes ma'am..." I said in a weak defeated tone knowing that resisting won't do a thing, but has she always been this caring I thought to myself. I've never seen her so serious or worried about something before." "she would make a great wife someday." I chuckled, wait no what am I thinking A-O is A-O, and A-O is a nuisance! So why? Why am I thinking this way?
"I'm finished Jiro and by the time I'm up there you better be in bed!" Said A-O coming up the stairs, as she opened the door I panicked. For some strange reason, I felt this strange sensation spreading through my chest, a tight sensation that made me feel heavy, a sensation that made my heart beat faster than ever but why? Why did I feel this only when A-O was around? Mabey it was A-O that was the problem and not this feeling I always had and if I couldn't bring myself to kill her then Mabey at least ill be able to t get her to stay away from me.
"Ok, Jiro can you sit up for me so I can feed you?" she asked,
" I can feed myself just fine."
" Are you sure?"
"I'm positive I don't need any help."
"Oh, ok well if you need anything just call me ill be ver there at your desk."
"Leave."
"What?"
"Leave! Get out!"
"what do you mean?" asked A-O in a confused tone.
"Don't you get it I need you to get away from me! I need you out of my life! You are the reason I'm like this" I shouted with tears running down my face but why was I crying? I had no reason too I'm just doing what has to be done so why am I crying! This means nothing to me yet tears are flowing from my eyes as if there were no end to them.
" I need you out of my life! You are the reason I'm so miserable! You do nothing but make me this way you do nothing but bring misfortune and disappointment to my life! So do me a favor and get away from me forever before you end up regretting it!" Even though I'm doing what I needed to do each word came with a price for word after word I felt a pain in my chest followed by tears this was a sensation I never felt before. This unbearable pain that came from words was like nothing I ever felt before but this would soon be gone and so would A-O. "what?" she said with tears running down her face.
" What?... Your joking right?" she said her voice shaking.
"No, so please just get out," I said gripping onto my bedsheets turning away hiding the tears that were falling from my face.
" You want me gone that bad huh? Fine if you want me gone I'll go. I hope that one day you will realize that this world doesn't revolve around you and that people have feelings. I truly did love you but it seems that it's the things we want most that we don't get right? Or mabey it just wasn't enough. So goodbye Jiro I'll always remember the times we spent together even if all I did was bother you." she said forcing a smile upon herself running out of the room.
"Wait!" I called from the top of the stairs instantly regretting what I have done.
" Goodbye, Jiro!"
she said slamming the door behind her. Damn it why did I do this! Was I nothing more than a heartless monster?! No this had to happen sooner or later! That's when I realized that A-O wasn't the cause of my problems nor was this sensation I felt around her but what I truly felt love the sensation I felt was love. This meant that I pushed away the one I loved not because of this hate for the sensation but because I was nothing more than a boy who was scared to love.