~NILMANI P.O.V~
A WEEK LATER
"Hey is something wrong? You haven't been replying or answering any of our calls," Ally asked with concern laced throughout her voice. I didn't sleep well the past week nor last night, my mind was all over the place thinking about Micah. It's around 7 in the morning which leaves us an hour before classes start. Reggie was at practice while I'm here in the library with the girls.
"I am conflicted with these strange feelings at the moment." I sat on the bench with determination on scrambling one hundred ways to approach him when classes were over. He won't be enrolling here until next week or the week after but still, things between us are pure, strange, and awkward.
Damnit if Nila was here she would give me some tips on this stuff, she's the expert.
"So are you going to just sit there as if you're scrambling something in your thoughts or are you gonna tell us so we can at least help you?" Ally asked while taking off her glasses. I looked toward Elly who was also wondering the same thing.
"Ok fine," I sighed before mentally preparing myself for the conversation. "It's about a certain person, I won't say we knew each other for long. Instead about eleven years ago when I was eight we met on Christmas eve through our moms. I'll admit the person was cute with breathtaking eyes but as time flew by that same person came back into my life which is now a mess and I don't know how to approach that person." I put my soul in that statement as I let out a miserable groan.
"From what you just said it seems like it was love at first sight but at a young age, it also seems you guys didn't know much about each other so the connection is strained. Eleven years is a long time so in most cases, you'll forget the memories." She voices her opinions but then continues.
"Still if this person came back, don't you think if you're trying not to remember the person, your feelings will become conflicted and you will also hurt that special someone in the process?" She points the pen at me with a warm smile.
She read through me well, indeed she was great with counseling people. She just knows how to say the right words I wanted to hear. This is the reason why I appreciate good people because they're hard to come by.
"As your best friend and motherly figure, talk to that person." After that talk with the girls but mostly Ally. I let what she said to sink into my thoughts. Of course, they were curious about who I'm talking about but they decided to wait for a bit until I'm ready.
Girls are so noisy. The time was spent well with me having to help the girls with their Business reports when the bell rang it was off to class.
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A long time ago when Nila wasn't born dad would tell me that every color makes a great combination; Purple and Pink, Black and White, Yellow and Green even Blue and Grey. I always wonder why my eyes have to be a rare color of crystal blue, why they can't be like others' brown or black. That was what I have always thought until I saw that amazing shade of grey in that boy's eyes.
The color was so dull and lifeless but I assume behind those eyes held a story worth exploring.
"Mani! Mani!" Huh, I looked at Krissy, the head cheerleader who was standing next to me with her green eyes looking straight at my blue ones. I looked around the classroom noticing the place was already empty.
"I was looking for you, last period over five mins ago instead you were sitting here looking out the window lost in wonderland." She told me while creasing my cheek.
Krissy was the first girl I've hooked up with, our relationship could have lasted long if she wasn't such an bitch towards my friends. It was really comforting when toxic people stopped talking to me, it felt like trash took itself out.
"Why are you searching for me? I thought when I dumped you, I made it clear I don't want to see you and your nasty attitude ever again." I barked, removing her hand.
Standing up to leave when she grabbed my wrist staring at me with her pouting face and pleading eyes. She is pretty I'll admit to that, tall with fair skin dressed in her usual mini skirt and crop top with her fake boobs as her prize and pride. Her hair is styled in pigtails, and her face is in makeup creating the perfect innocent face guys can't resist.
"Please I miss you, I miss us." It was five years ago and now she's telling me this. I grabbed her hand with my free one and pushed her against the wall. Then cupped her cheeks and brought my face near her ear.
"Well sweetheart if you really missed us, you should have fought to get me, or is it that you miss being the queen of the campus next to the king which is me." I blew hot breath against her neck feeling her body shiver. I lean up seeing her flustered face then grab my things with a smirk on my face.
Pain changes people, it makes them trust less, overthink more and shut people out. If I could count on my fingers how many people I've hurt with my words...I would.
"You'll be mine, babe!"
"You'll regret dumping me," Was the last thing I heard from her as I left the classroom. Once I dump someone I won't be returning back to them no matter what because I dumped them for a good ass reason.
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"Wait hold up, I'm seeing right, Is this real?" Julie joked when I walked into the kitchen. Yes, I'm home and it is that person drawing me here so I couldn't resist. I place my bag on the couch deciding to help her with the lunch she's preparing.
"I'm sorry I haven't been home lately," I confess feeling guilty that I gave the responsibility of taking care of my hyper sister to Julie. She looked at me and then put down the knife she was using to cut the apples.
"Don't feel sorry. I'm happy that I'm able to watch her grow plus taking care of you was stressful." She teases going back to cutting the apples once she took out some containers from the cupboard. It wasn't 2:00 so Nila was still at school, after helping with the lunch I took a plate then sat on the couch munching on the fruit salad still thinking.
I noticed the place was extremely calm when Nila was not around too.
"I'm going to check on Micah for a moment," I told Julie, placing the plate on the counter knowing she would place it in the fridge for me.
I walked up the stairs and then turned left to where his room was. Stopping at the door I knocked twice then my heart was beating when I heard footsteps on the other side. The door opens showing Micah who was dressed in a long-sleeve oversize shirt that reaches down to his knees showing his smooth legs. I shook my head at the dirty thought and looked at his face. He was surprised to see me but I was more than surprised when I noticed his grey eyes.
My eyes widened, so the brown eyes were just contact lenses. "Let us talk for a bit," I said, breaking the awkwardness between us.
He steps aside so I can come in then closes the door, his scent was all over the room making it hard to focus on my purpose here. I sat on the edge of the bed while he sat around the study table. He seems nervous like I'm some type of predator ready to eat my prey.
"I don't know how you may feel during those years of me not caring to keep in touch with you, but honestly your whole existence slipped through my mind so when I saw you at the airport I started reading back all the letters. I feel a mixture of emotions I have never felt before--it reminded me of the first time we met in the library." I stop feeling as if my heart is ready to jump out. This is the first time it's acting this way.
"I don't know if you're ready but if you are I want us to start over again and maybe get to know more about each other. Maybe we can also learn and grow from each other's different lifestyles." I stop waiting for his answer or maybe he wouldn't want that.
"I-I would really like that." I heard his soft voice crack. Was he crying? I look towards him to see tears. Shit, I jump off the bed and wrap him in my embrace afraid if I let go I'll lose him again. I didn't say anything, I kept my arms around him listening to his cries.
"It's unusual of me to cry like this. I thought you hate me and never want to see me again. Back then I wanted to burn the letters but I couldn't bring myself to do so." He looked up at me with watery eyes. I use my thumbs to dry them away from hurt from seeing Micah like this.
"Let's start over but this time I promise to be by your side". I kiss him on the cheeks in which he blushes.