Mu Dishi stared at Ma Jingguo; he was surprised. Under normal circumstances, Ma Jingguo will talk non-stop. Xiao shushu this, xiao shushu that, but tonight, Ma Jingguo was eating quietly.
Mu Dishi, "You normally talks a lot. What is the occasion tonight?"
Ma Jingguo put the bowl and chopsticks on the table and looked angrily at Mu Dishi. On the other hand, Mu Dishi had never seen Ma Jingguo angry, so he was little amused by Ma Jingguo's grumpy face.
Mu Dishi blushed it off with a scoff, "Tomorrow it might snow because today, I am honor to see the happy puppy get angry."
Ma Jingguo said grumbly, "Xiao shushu, it's not funny at all."
Mu Dishi, "I found it quite amusing actually."
Ma Jingguo, "I don't find it funny. Why would you say that to someone you don't even know?"
Mu Dishi, "Say what?"
Ma Jingguo madly repeated, "If you want him. You must go through me."
Mu Dishi, "You are not happy because of those two phrases?"
Ma Jingguo was being very serious, "Since we met until now, you have never said anything like that to me. What make Fu Yuanjun so special for you to stand in front of him, protecting him, and even says those two phrases?"
Mu Dishi, "It's because he...never mind. I am full."
Mu Dishi stood up and walked toward their booked room. Ma Jingguo angrily chased after Mu Dishi. Ma Jingguo shut the door with a loud bang. He grabbed a stool from under the table and sat right in front of Mu Dishi.
Ma Jingguo, "Xiao shushu, I don't like it when you speak halfway and stop in the middle of a sentence. How am I supposed to know what you are thinking?"
Mu Dishi, "I already told you to never mind it."
Ma Jingguo, "Never minded it...fine, answer my question."
Mu Dishi, "Let it go."
Ma Jingguo, "Since we've known each other you always chase me away. Other than 'go away' or 'you can leave now' you never said anything like that to me." He was angry and grabbed both Mu Dishi's wrists and squeezed it hard. "In your opinion, Fu Yuanjun is better than me to deserve such caring words from you?"
Mu Dishi pulled his hands away from Ma Jingguo, "If you feel like you don't want to stay in this same room with me. Go away and booked a different room or sleep at a different inn."
Ma Jingguo scoffed, "There you again, chasing me away." He looked Mu Dishi in the eyes, "Xiao shushu, do you even love me or is just me whose one-sided love you?" He looked down on the floor. "In your heart, am I not as important as a dead man or a stranger?"
Ma Jingguo question made Mu Dishi very angry, "You can go away now before I send you out through that door." He knew Ma Jingguo was angry and upset. He doesn't want to continue this conversation because it is pointless to continue the conversation when the two of them were equally angry.
At this point, Ma Jingguo could no longer able to look at Mu Dishi. He felt if he met Mu Dishi's eyes, he would lose it and will start crying, which would make Mu Dishi look down on him even more. He lowered down his head and asked, "Xiao shushu, Am I important to you at all?"
Mu Dishi yelled, "Scram!"
Ma Jingguo yelled back, "Fine!"
Ma Jingguo angrily stood up and walked out of room leaving the door wide open.
Mu Dishi got up and closed the door. He needs to calm himself down. Mu Dishi is also angry at Ma Jingguo. Why would Ma Jingguo ask such stupid ridiculous questions? Who in this world will be more important to him than Ma Jingguo? If he doesn't love Ma Jingguo, why would he do all those shameless things with Ma Jingguo. If he is unwilling to let Ma Jingguo touch his body, then Ma Jingguo cannot touch him, which is why he is very angry at Ma Jingguo, and became offended when Ma Jingguo questioned his love and trust.
After laying down on the bed for some times, Mu Dishi finally calmed himself down. He realized that he hadn't said anything nice to Ma Jingguo since they knew each other. When they first met, he addressed Ma Jingguo as little dog. He refused to let Ma Jingguo call him by his name. He refused to help Ma Jingguo when Ma Jingguo was in pain from the fire palm strike knowing that Ma Jingguo might not make it through the night. He was so heartless; he even tossed that knife for Ma Jingguo to kill himself which he did. Everything that he had given Ma Jingguo, Ma Jingguo never throws them away included that knife. Ma Jingguo carried that knife with him all the time. Even before Ma Jingguo go to bed, he will put that knife under his pillow. Five years later, when they met again, he told Ma Jingguo to leave and get marry. Ma Jingguo obediently followed his orders. Ma Jingguo is right, why do he always hurt Ma Jingguo before he cares for him. Why can't he just open his mouth and tell Ma Jingguo how he feels?
There were people walking everywhere in the street, but the only voice Ma Jingguo heard was his own voice asking 'why'. Ma Jingguo sat down at a small roadside table. He ordered some food and four jars of rice wine. Suddenly, a young teen about fifteen or sixteen years old sat next to him and put his head on Ma Jingguo's shoulder.
Young teen, "This da ge, please help me out."
Ma Jingguo looked at the young teen. The young teen looks pretty handsome, but when compared to Mu Dishi, they are like Heaven and Earth. Mu Dishi might be older by age, but by looks, Mu Dishi suppresses every men Ma Jingguo saw in the past.
Ten men nicely dressed rushed into the street.
Man one, "He was just right here."
Man two, "Let us spreads out and look for him."
The ten men spreads out and despaired into the night street.
The young teen sighed deeply, "This da ge, thank you so much." The young teen moved to sit across from Ma Jingguo.
Ma Jingguo poured him a cup of rice wine. The young teen took a sip and quoted, "People think that getting drunk can relieve their pain, but they don't realize that the pain of yesterday will never disappear."'
Ma Jingguo looked at the young teen, "You are right. Such a talent young teen."
The young teen, "Oh, so sorry for my rudeness. I am Batu Bazar."
Ma Jingguo, "Batu Baza...You are not Chinese. What are you doing in Central Plains?"
Bazar Batu proudly said, "I am a proud Mongol, and I will never claim myself to be Chinese regardless in any situation." He smiled at Ma Jingguo. "Actually, I am running away from home."
Ma Jingguo, "How old are you?"
Bazar Batu, "I am fifteen."
Ma Jingguo, "Why are you running away from home?"
Bazar Batu sipped his wine, "My father is forcing me to marry some lady I don't even know. I always believed; love comes naturally between two people. I don't want to be force into something I don't want to do." He sipped his wine. "What about you? Why are you drinking by yourself?"
Ma Jingguo, "I've always thought that actions speak louder than words, but I was wrong. I can't accept when my wife talks nicely to other people, but never speak a single nice word to me."
Bazar Batu laughed, "My mother yelled at my father all the time. Sometimes even cursed at him, but when my father was a little sick, my mother will pamper him like a baby. Da ge, I guess your problem is over jealous. Sometime, when you are too protected and too jealous, it can cause disasters and even your wife might be tired of you."
Ma Jingguo, "Really?"
Bazar Batu, "Jealousy will make your wife question your trust in her. In a relationship, if your partner keeps questioning you about every little thing, won't it be boring and annoying. I know I would be."
Ma Jingguo, "What if my wife praised other people but not me? What should I do?"
Bazar Batu, "Why do need your wife to praise you?"
Ma Jingguo, "I don't like it when my wife praised about other people in front of me. I want all of her attentions toward me."
Bazar Batu, "Let me ask you. Why do you choose her in the first place?"
Ma Jingguo, "I chose her because of her personality and beauty."
Bazar Batu, "When you first met her does she praise you?"
Ma Jingguo, "No."
Bazar Batu, "If one day she came to you as a changed person. Praising you for every little thing that you did, what would you think?"
Ma Jingguo, "I would think she had another lover."
Bazar Batu, "There you go, question answered. Da ge, praising only coaxing words to show face to another person. Only in front of you, the person she loves, she can truly be herself because she trusts that you will never leave her behind even when she shown you her ugliest personality. There was an old saying 'only a wife can undress before her husband without feeling embarrassed'."
Ma Jingguo asked, "What if another person like my wife? What should I do?"
Bazar Batu choked on his wine, "Da ge, you should be very happy that other people like your wife. It means that she is perfect. If it was me, I will definitely be very happy and proud of myself. The more people liked her, the happier I will become because it means that I picked someone who is worthy."
Ma Jingguo stared at this little, tiny teen who look more like a young girl than a young boy. The little teen is very smart indeed. He made Ma Jingguo realized that when he first fell in love with Mu Dishi, Mu Dishi had always been this way. He loves Mu Dishi wholeheartedly from the third day inside that cave until now and he will continue to love Mu Dishi until he takes his last breath. The words from this little teen also reminded him that sometime, when you love someone so much, you have to learn how to give them their personal space. Ma Jingguo put ten liangs on the table and stood up.
Bazar Batu, "Da ge, are you leaving?"
Ma Jingguo, "Mm..., I left my angry wife at home. I am going back."
Bazar Batu smiled at Ma Jingguo.
Ma Jingguo, "Thanks for your words."
Bazar Batu stood up, "No problem."
Ma Jingguo, "You are a smart fifteen years old." He looked at the young Mongol teen. "By the way, my wife, he always has a short temper with a very thin face who get embarrassed easily, that is what I love about him."
Bazar Batu mouth was wide opened, "Say what? Your wife is a man."
Ma Jingguo smiled, "A very beautiful handsome man that no other men or women can compare to." Ma Jingguo walked away leaving the Mongol teen with his mouth wide open in the middle of the street. Ma Jingguo waved at the young teen, "Enjoy the food."
Ma Jingguo stood in front of their room and the light was out. He slowly opened the door as slowly and swiftly as he could, trying not to disturb Mu Dishi. He took off his outer layer of clothes, put his knife under his pillow, and climbed into bed. He moved closer to Mu Dishi and held Mu Dishi inside his arms.
Mu Dishi, "Did I told you to scram?"
Ma Jingguo, "You did, but I refuse." He kissed Mu Dishi on the back of his head. "Xiao shushu, I am sorry. I should've known better that I am the most important person in xiao shushu's life. I shouldn't have question xiao shushu's trust, for that, I am sorry."
Mu Dishi, "I...I..." Mu Dishi sighed deeply. "I am sorry for never say a single nice word about you." Mu Dishi turned around facing Ma Jingguo. "From now on, I will try."
Ma Jingguo, "If xiao shushu think it is too difficult then don't do it. I love xiao shushu the way you are."
Mu Dishi looked up at Ma Jingguo and kissed him. Ma Jingguo was in shock because every times it was always Ma Jingguo who made the first move. Mu Dishi started to undress Ma Jingguo while kissing him, then suddenly for no apparent reason, Mu Dishi stops, and he rolled back sleeping on his side facing the wall.
Ma Jingguo, "Why stop?"
Mu Dishi said coldly, "Your wine smell is too strong. I refuse to continue."
Ma Jingguo screamed inside his head 'What the hack? I shouldn't drink that strong rice wine. If I didn't drink it, right now xiao shushu will be inside my arms. My favorite lotus position. Lotus position. Ah.....'.