Luke is trying to calm me down but it doesn't work because the more his telling me it's going to be okay the more I'm thinking it's not being and that is why I'm still crying. Luke wraps his arms around me trying to comfort me and surprisingly it works. My crying stops and all there is a sniffle here and there to break the silence.
"Luke" I finally say and he looks at me with sadness in his eyes. "Do you think he will make it, you know that he'll still be with us" I ask and I begin to cry again but not that bad. "Sofia I wish I could answer you but honestly I have no idea, it breaks my heart to hear that I'm losing a friend but it breaks my heart even more to see how much you are hurting right now" he says still with his arms around me.
After a while we head back into the room to find smiling faces and it confuses me as to why they are smiling when my brother is on his death bed. "Sof, do you remember the time when mum and dad took us ice skating and you would fall the whole time because you were so bad at it" he says and I can't help but laugh a little.
A few minutes later the doctor tells us that visiting hours are over so we have to leave. I hug my brother one last time in case it is the last time I get to hug and I leave the room.
I walk out to my car. My parents arrived before me because I took the long way home. I had told them that I wasn't going to be home immediately and they said that I should take as long as I want so that's just what I did. I went to the hill where Kyle and I would always run away to when we were younger, then I went for a walk on the beach just to clear my mind a bit and look at the beautiful sunset. Then I went to the ice cream parlor where we'd always get English toffee frozen yogurt. After that I decided it was time for me to head home. When I got home it was a little after 8 because I still drove around a bit before actually heading home.
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The next morning I'm woken up by my mother crying and the only thought that comes to my mind was that Kyle went to sleep. I rush down stairs going over to my mum and tears ate coming down my cheeks. "Mum, please say his ok, please mum answer me" I practically beg her and when she doesn't answer me I know that I just lost my brother as well. I knew I should've hugged him longer last night. I wish I could've spent more time with him and I wish my parents wouldn't have split because it was of their selfish actions that I hardly ever saw my brother in the last two years, in those two years we could've done so much together but no.
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I'm at the hospital now asking them when it happened but they said they can't tell me because I'm still a minor and if i want answers I need parents by my side. So I call them and in less than ten minutes they were there. The doctor told us that it has happened this morning around 04:30am but my question was why didn't they call us immediately. Doctor Nicole called me aside and gave me a letter from Kyle. I didn't want to read it because I knew I would end up crying.
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Later that day Josh, Michael, Noah and Luke came over, I don't think anyone told them because they all looked happy. But when they came up to my room and saw me their mood instantly changed from happy to sad. Luke ran up to me and comforted me and i continued crying into his chest. Their was a long silence it wasn't awkward or anything it was just unbearable until Josh decided to speak. "Sofia when did you, you know um... well when did you find out that he um... well when he you know..." he trails off and I stay silent for a moment before answering him. "I well.. I woke up to my mum cry and immediately I thought it had to be about Kyle... um so we went to the hospital and doctor Nicole said he passed on this morning around 04:30. Umm she have me a letter but I haven't read it yet and I well I've been here since I came back from the hospital crying"i say and all the boys come over to give me a hug and it calms me down knowing that they are here for me even though I don't know them.