After the dinner disaster I caused, Morgan threatened me. She forbid me to visit Jadis at the hospital and I know she is serious about it.
How can a lively, jolly and sweet lady punched this hard? I forgot, she is a National Taekwondo Champion. It hurts like hell.
I woke up with an aching eye bruise. But my heart is the most painful of all. After all that stunt I did, I know I can never have her still. What's with that guy? He isn't too amazing. Why does she like him? Should I just stop? I can't. Not without giving my all.
I stayed home so I can mend this bruise and also to think things through. I don't want to hurt her anymore.
MONDAY
Breakfast, Exercise, Listen to Spofify for songs that the band can practice, something to match Dylan's voice. Play games, Eat. Drink. Sleep.
TUESDAY
Breakfast. Exercise. Play games. Eat. Drink. Sleep.
WEDNESDAY
Breakfast. Exercise. Play games. Eat. Drink. Sleep.
THURSDAY
Breakfast. Exercise. Play games. Eat. Drink. Sleep.
FRIDAY
"AAAARRRRGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!! This is fucking boring! I'll go out!" I have to scream it out or else I'll explode. I can't stay at home knowing that I can see Jadis at school but I can't get close to her because I'm scared that she hates me more now.
I grabbed my keys, and my shades then head out for a drive around town. I went to my favorite restaurant for some lunch and shop for new clothes. As I was going around the shop, I saw Heleina, alone. I guess I also ruined their friendship now.
I don't want to feel guilty coz for me, I did nothing wrong but looking at her now, and thinking about how happy they were before together with her friends, it somehow makes me pity her.
I walked towards her and heard her conversation on the phone.
"WHAT?! I said to threaten her not to beat her up! Morons! Are you only good in Taekwondo but your brain cells are fried? Never mind, just let her be. you better do
it----" I grabbed her phone when I suddenly understand what they were talking about.
"WHAT DID YOU DO TO HER?" I shouted at the person on the phone. The other hanged up and so I looked at Heleina who seemed surprised.
"What do you think you're doing with my phone? That's mine! " She snatched her phone from me and put it immediately in her bag.
"What did you do with your friend? I thought Jadis is your friend? Why did you do that?"
She made a serious face and stayed quiet. My rage is piling up and I don't think I can control it now. I grabbed her arm.
"Ouch, Jaz. You're hurting me."
"Yes I will hurt you more if you don't tell me what you did!"
"WHY DO YOU FUCKING CARE?! She's not even that great! She's not smart, she's just average! Why do you keep on chasing her when there's a lot more people who deserves you more!" she pushed me away and held her arm close. I must've grabbed her too tight.
So she's finally showing her true colors. Just because an average girl is chosen over her.
"I will say who deserves my love. Not anyone else!" I exclaimed.
"Yeah. It's all your fault that she's in pain right now. She lost her friends and now she is the target. It's because you chose someone we think you don't deserve." Heleina was furious. I can see jealousy and anger in her eyes.
" And you think YOU deserve me?" I was stern. I looked into her eyes and waited for her response.
" Choose anyone else but her." Heleina sounded desperate.
"Oh I see now. So this is about getting dumped over your friend. You don't like to be defeated and you don't like that she is better than you are. In my eyes specially". I think I annoyed her even more when I said that.
'FUCK YOU!" she slapped me and walked away.
I guessed it right, I think. Her reaction says it all.
I went back to my car and drove to the school. I was rushing like an ambulance with a dying passenger. I didn't care about tickets or whatever. I need to get to her fast.
When I arrived at school, I saw Will in the parking lot.
"WILL!!!!!!!!" I shouted loud enough that he got surprised and dropped his keys.
"What the hell, man. You don't need to shout" He threw his things inside his car.
"Have you seen Jadis?" I was panicking. I know she is hurt and I can't waste my time.
"Yeah, she's at the gym. she looks beaten up. I ----" The rest of his words faded while I was running towards the gym. I need to save her this time.
I saw her on the gym floor lying down. She has a lot of bruises and cuts from the beating. I am enraged by what I saw but she is my priority right now. I will deal with those bitches later.
I tried waking her up. She was unconscious. I shook her lightly to wake her up but she didn't. Will followed me and called an ambulance already. I grabbed her stuff and gave it to Will to keep. I checked her pulse and made sure that she keeps breathing. My heart is going to burst by the sight of her bruised arms and bleeding cuts. She tried to hold her ground and made sure that none of the girls will see her like this.
When the ambulance arrived, I watched them patch her up and rode the ambulance. I gave Will my car keys. I need to contact her mom but luckily, the hospital where her mom is, is the same hospital where they brought her in. Her mom was so angry at me and I didn't dodge any of her slaps and punches. Maybe Heleina was right. I caused this to happen to her.
I explained to her what happened and I can see how heartbroken she is for Jadis.
I asked her mom if I could stay to take care of her. She didn't protest. Morgan called me and was furious as well. I told her what Heleina did and she was furious. She wasn't able to come to the hospital because of their show schedule. I assured her that I won't leave until she is ok.
A day passed and Jadis was still unconscious. Her mom was starting to get worried even though her results seems clear. maybe she just needs more time to rest.
I called the security of the school and reported to the disciplinary committee. They will be conducting investigation and I told them about Heleina.
Chloe visited upon knowing what happened to Jadis. She was not expecting Heleina to do this to her friend. Because they have been friends for a long time. Because of me, she got hurt. Because I cannot stop liking her, loving her.
"I can't fathom how Heleina can do this to Jadis. I know how Heleina feels but still, Jadis is our friend. We're all friends. Why?"
" I'm sorry I caused this rift between them. I will do my best to stop Heleina from doing this again."
When Chloe left I went out to buy food when I saw Jadis' mom resting in the cafeteria. I think she didn't go home yet.
"Here, have some tea. To help you relax." I handed her some drinks from the vendo machine.
"Thanks." she sat quietly but I can see the worry and tiredness in her eyes.
"I'm sorry Mrs. Chrysler. " I want to console her but I can't find the words to help me express my sincerity .
"I can see that you like my daughter. But you see, she is already committed to someone else. You make the other girls jealous of her. Jadis never wanted any attention like this. I don't hate you, it's just that she gets into trouble because of your attention. I also know that it's not easy to forget about your feelings for someone you really like. But you also need to know when to stop so that person will not get hurt any further." she tapped my shoulder and went to make her rounds again.
Is it the universe already telling me to stop? Should I just leave her now and watch from afar?
I walked back to her room thinking about the things I heard from today. I don't know if what I'll be doing is right. Should I leave now while she's asleep so I won't have to see her reactions anymore. I am torn.
As I was walking towards her room, I heard this conversation that would change my perspective about things.