I regretted holding resentful thoughts to my unborn child. I was growing it, even if it's life was not what I chose, it will still be my child.
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I awoke in a large room, I had many tubes strung into me, and there was a man sitting in next to the large bed I lay on. When I stirred the man in the chair stood up and caressed my face. I whipped my head away and the man just grabbed it and stared into my eyes. I felt that his eyes where familiar and that I felt the need to poke them out. I could feel my own resent huold as this man simply held my face. Without my memories I simply assumed he was going to ruin my quite, happy, and balanced life.
"So you thought of killing our child? But you underestimated both the child and the fact that I want the child to survive? Then you proceed to allow MY CHILD to be stripped of its Demonic properties!" the man shouts thinking I'm hearing him but I'm still contemplating how to best dig out his eyes. I finally realize he said kill and our child in the same sentence, I rebuke myself for poor choice in people as thos man carries an insufferable aura. The man gets angry scaring me and his power overwhelms me, I curl into a ball try to escape his menacing power and then as I begin to run out of energy a pair of wings makes themselves a shield around me. The man looks disgusted and in utter disbelief.
"Leave me alone!" I scream as his awful expressions make me feel even more uneasy than I already was, all of this confusion made me feel plagued and cursed.
"This is not what should happen to my child! Choosing to protect an unwilling mother before you are even born!" The man screams. An icy fire seems to seep from the man and I still try to process that this man thinks I'm pregnant and by him of all people. He looks at me and seems to assess that I truly do not grasp who or what he is. I stare at him wishing I could defend myself better and I sit up a bit and attempt to get a crouching position. Seeing me moving the man grabs me by my neck. "You think you can get away?!" the man yells griping my neck tightly. I struggle against his grip trying to pry his hands from my around my neck. His eyes glowed a bright burning blue and he seemed to break a seal I didn't know was on me. A blinding pain filled my body and I tried to escape to no avail.
I screamed out in pain and a whoosh of power managed to loosen the man's grip on me. I slid back down to the bed and my mind filled with fragments of my full memory. I tried to leave but the man grabbed me again.
"Your in the Demon Realm now! You can't leave unless I allow it!" The man yelled. I remembered the feather stashed in my hair that somehow managed to stay there and I panicked shutting my eyes and calling out 'Cloud, Cloud, Cloud, Cloud' repetitively in my mind. I remembered I could teleport but that in the Demon Realm my power could only take me so far. I envisioned the border of Zheng Zhi and the Demon Realm divided by the Qing River. I concentrated and then I felt Cloud's presence. I opened my eyes and watched as Cloud knocked the man to the side and then I jumped on Cloud's back.
'You have some of your memories back and your power is almost fully returned,' Cloud said as we flew towards the border or the Realms. 'I felt your emotions when you said my name and I used the image you had in mind to be teleported to you,' Cloud said half giving me credit for her rescue, half telling me it was okay to help. I laid down on her soft back as she flew us further and further from the demon realm.
Instead of returning me to the mountain, Cloud took to the Heavens in the space above the Mortal Realm and the Mountain that had given me shelter for many months in a mortal realm time. The time I was missing was barely a couple of weeks in the Heavenly Realm, but it was still noticeable that I had gone missing. 'I need the bag I had when I fell to the Mortal Realm,' I thought to Cloud.
'I'm on it,' She answered shaking her head and offering to get it. I watched as she flew away and then I went for a swim in the lake. While I was swimming I was trying to piece my memories back together, I pressed on remembering making my head hurt and finally the memories flooded my head and the seal of my powers was lifted. I was raised above the lake as my power surged into me and I was dried and redressed as my transformation to High Immortal completed. I was left on the shore of the lake under the pear blossom tree where I had began my trial.
I hadn't noticed that Cloud had returned with my bag and I smiled at her and crossed the distance between us. I hugged her head and thanked her for her care. I regretted holding resentful thoughts to my unborn child. I was growing it, even if it's life was not what I chose, it will still be my child. Being cared for someone who had no need to shaked my views of myself. I had thought of myself as a kind person, I thought even with tragedy I could still be kind and true, I lied to myself but I can still return to being the kind of person I believe I should be.
In passing my Heavenly Trial I would need to present myself to my parents. 'Great I need not only tell them I have transcended and that I was raped twice, I also must tell them that suck a vile thing has left them a grandchild. Grandparents I almost laughed, my brothers made them grandparents a long time ago, It was at least a millennia ago that they had their first great great grandchild, why it was even before they had me,' I nervously thought to myself. In my thoughts I walked from the lake to the Gardens of the Heavens. When I realized I had reached the gardens I teleported myself to the Ninth Heavens garden. I couldn't help but begin hoping things were going as smoothly as I had left them, and then as I departed the Ninth Heavens gardens I was greeted by a horde of other Immortals.
"Oh Sister you finally appear!" I hear one of my brothers shout. I travel inward of the crowd of Immortals and they respectfully part a pathway for me. "The parents have been waiting for you. They were so close to giving power to that old fox Uncle Ye!" My second brother Nian Song Zhu complained. I looked at him and realized it had been some time since I seen him. His eyes were the emerald of his mother's, his hair was like flames closer to father's hair than mine, and his face was that of a statue. He was always smiling, even when he cried, and even when he was pain he would have some form of a smile on his face. Even through all his smiles I could read him and right now his expression was one of relief and also I sensed that there was something he wasn't telling me.