BELLA
I wake up around noon feeling very hungry, this is the first time in all my life that I have slept in, but I feel unnecessarily Happy, like something big happened to me the night before, 'oh shit, something big did happen, what was that in my room last night, or was it just a bad dream, probably one of those night meres, just way creepier'
I go downstairs and see Micheal frying eggs, "can I get some too, I'm starving" I say rubbing my eyes and yawning simultaneously, he turns to face me giving me one of those intensely irresistible smiles, "they're for you sleepyhead" he says, his blue eyes are brighter than they were yesterday, his skin looked less pale like someone shook him until there was proper blood flow to the surface of his skin, his hair was messy too, like he also just woke up, his seductive smile was a little bit strained, "here you go" he says placing a plate of food before me, I smile at him as I dig into my food, I wasn't exaggerating when I said I was starving.
I spent everyday assuring myself that all Micheal needed was time and support to deal with whatever he had going on, but the more time I gave him, the farther apart we drifted away from each other, we still spent our days together, playing video games, and generally messing around but it wasn't the same, there are times he'd just distance himself from me like I suddenly became repulsive to him, and I also noticed he didn't eat much mostly always saying he'd get something later, his temper was another thing, the Micheal I knew before all this didn't have a temper, sometimes I even wondered if he was capable of getting angry, he was easy going and very carefree living each day as it came, this Micheal on the other hand was always losing it over every little thing, his mood is also never stable, this minute he's mad as fuck and the next minute he's loved up or sad.
Everything is just becoming too much, but how do I talk to him about any of this, I already tried twice, and both times he wanted time, time, fucking time.
"Hey"
"Hmm" I reply looking up at him, sitting across from me on a dinning chair
"Are you okay? What's wrong?"
'What's wrong?, How about everything' I scream in my head
"Nothing" I say
He walks up to me, and lifts my chin with his one hand while his other hand snake around my waist pulling me close to him "everything will be fine, I promise, I won't let anything happen to you"
' the only thing that was threatening to happen to me right now, is a heartbreak, did he know that? Did he have any idea how much his evasiveness was hurting me? All the secrets, since his friend Jason came to visit, I realize afresh how very little I know about him'
I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding in
"I have to go shower, thanks for the meal" I murmur as I push my way out of his hold and almost run upstairs.
I step out of my clothes immediately my room door close behind me, the shower is one place I can let out all my pent up frustrations, somehow the hot water helps to ease the tension and clear my mind, even cold water sometimes helped just fine. I stepped under the running hot water and sigh in relief, I run my hands through my hair enjoying the feel of the water on my face, I sigh out again, with my eyes closed, I see a couple sitting in a beautiful garden, hands around each other, staring at the setting sun, the smell of flowers asaulted my nose as I open my eyes vaguely remembering I am still in the bathroom, the water had gone cold so I step out of the shower and wrap a big towel around my chest
'the couple again', I dreamt of them all through the night, same scenario, nothing changes, nothing moves, like every thing was frozen in time in that exact moment, the woman with the white flowing hair, who the fuck is she?
I sit on my bed pulling on a pink crop top matching it with black pants and a pair of sneakers, I pick up a jean jacket as an after thought and walk out of my room.
I could feel it in my bones, something was happening or about to happen, something big, I need to figure out what is happening with Micheal and with me, something was happening to me, I didn't know how, but I was changing.
"We going somewhere?, Holdon lemme get my keys" Micheal says from the hallway
" I'm going for a walk" I say over my shoulders
"I won't stay out late" I add to make it clear that I intended to go alone, when I didn't get any reply back I open the front door and step into the midday sun closing the door behind me.