Ryan's POV:
I took Cassidy in my arms to the truck and she sat against me as we watched the stars. She was exhausted though so I took her back ta tha house. "Hey sssshhh, it's me Ryan," I told her lifting her from the truck.
She woke with a start an I think she was gonna scream an fight but relaxed when she heard me. Lord I wanted ta take that away, she was so scared an so fragile. Tough bitch when she was wide awake an faced everything else. This was her nightmare though, an it made my heart hurt ta see her go threw it.
I held her tight climbing the stairs to tha loft, opened the door an kicked it shut. Walked ta tha bed moved the blankets back an set her down. She was watching me, her eyes soft an still half asleep. "It's ok" I said
Sitting down beside her ta run my hand over her cheek. She let her hand drop ta my chest and she ran it up ta my shoulder. Hesitating for a few moments before she pulled me over. Our lips met that feeling again driving threw me.
If she wanted me I'd let her make that decision, I thought putting my arms on either side of her. My hands holding her shoulders as her hands ran into my hair. Her soft touch and heated kisses were driving me crazy, I wanted her. Wanted to show her not all guys are abusive and angered.
She pulled at my hair making our kiss deepen, tongues dancing together. It made fire run threw me and I never wanted it to end. Just as before though she stopped the kiss, making me regret wanting to be a nice guy. "I should put PJs on" she said drowsily.
"Sure uh, yer bags right over here" I said an moved to get it.
I set her suitcase by the bed and walk to tha bathroom ta cool off an give her privacy. Grabbing my pyjamas on the way by, I stock in and close tha door leaning against tha sink. Hooooo, she's gonna kill me with all this back an forth. First she's hot for me then completely cold and pushes away. I really didn't wanna scare her though so I was letting her come ta me first.
She could make tha decision of what happened between us. I was just letting her know how I feel fer her, at the moment I was horny. Shit, this wasn't going to be easy an she was wracking my emotions an nerves. I was gonna have to do something about this if I were gonna make it with out excreting my self on her.I stepped in the shower and started it, washed and took care of it my self.
Tip toeing out not wanting ta wake her but found her on her phone texting. She looked up as I walked out and pulled my shirt down over my abs. "I uh, don't have any girl stuff in there but, it's a shower, if ya want" I said noticing she hadn't changed yet.
"Ok, thanks, hm, I don't really like the girly stuff anyway" she said with a small smile.
I shouldn't but as she went in ta the bathroom I couldn't help but peek. The name said Shannon and she was typing, the dots ran across the screen as it went dim. I touched the screen an leaned over as I read her words scrolling up a bit. She told her all about the day, and how she felt. My heart clenched when I read the words.
"I don't know Shannon it seams like a dream, I don't want it to end but I know he'll get sick of me, I don't know what I'm doing here, to be honest I think I should just come home an take the heat for running, my heart don't wanna but, I can't keep doing this to my self I keep hopping he'll be Prince Charming but I know he's not a miracle worker. I'm tainted and broken, and I just can't wrap my head around why he likes me, could be just for sex but he hasn't advanced on me, which I'm glad but come on, a little notification on it would be nice" she had typed.
I watched as the bubble with the dots disappeared an Shannons response came.
"Don't be an idiot Cassidy, he likes you, he knows y'all been hurt and he's holding back cause you were, I think he's smart and he maybe good for ya, just relax honey and go with the flow, and for god sake let go of your damn defence, let him have sex with you, that's how guys show affection, and even if that's all he wants I mean fuck come on the boys hotter than the dessert, or a damn fire cracker, you'd have to be blind not to see that. You just need to chill and let him take you to a different place which that's what it sounds like he's trying to do, he's simply cute an sweet, but if he's only wanting sex, give er babe, and you might feel better, and I'm here if ya need me, text or at home" Shannon typed.
Shannons response made me wanna laugh but most was true. I really didn't want to take advantage of her, I only wanted to be near her. I left her phone, took my pillow and grabbed a blanket out of the closet. Maybe if I show her I'm not just trying to sleep with her she'll come around an trust me, I lay on the couch an close my eyes drifting.
Waking a few moments later with lips on mine, taunting me. My god she must have read her text an took it ta heart. I never even heard her come outta the shower though. Setting my hand on her hip to try an coax her onto tha couch with me. To my surprise she did, crawled right on top of me her hands hungrily running over my chest. Then she trailed down my cheek, to my neck. "Mmmmm Cassidy" I moaned.
The door on the bathroom opened just as I groaned an I knew this was wrong. Pushing her off she fell on the floor and I jumped up turning the light on. "FUCK APRIL" I yelled.
I heard the bathroom door shut an I reached for April grabbing her up pulling her to the door. I pushed her out and slammed it shut. The last thing on her face was her wicked she devil smile. Fuck I hate her, she was pissing me off more and more and I couldn't take it anymore.
I stocked over to the bathroom an took a deep breath trying to calm down before I knocked. "Cassidy, please come out, I'm sorry for her stupidity" I said.
She opened the door smirking, "did you really think that was me" she asked.
"I, uh" I couldn't even deny that one, in fact I wanted it to be badly.
"You did didn't you, thought I was comin on to ya, that's pretty arrogant, I heard you moan my name," she said.
"Huuu" I ran my hand threw my hair breathing out.
Walked over to tha couch and sat down, then fell over crossing my arms. Fuck this wasn't gonna be good. I was sure she was gonna see my perverted side and criticize me for it, I mean come on I'm a guy, an she wasn't ugly by far. I couldn't deny at all that I wanted her, wanted ta make love to her.
She came out and sat on the edge of the bed braiding her hair and tied it. She turned her phone on and started reading her message from Shannon. "Huuu, I don't wanna hurt you that way Cassidy, I just," I started looking over at her.
She looked back over at me, her lips twitching, "what ya just wanna fuck me don't ya," she said.
I sat up shaking my head, setting my elbows on my knees. "No, that's not," I started again my head spinning.
"I mean yes I, I would be so happy ta," I started again but stopped.
The look on her face told me I was treading thin ice. "Damn it Cassidy I like you, I don't wanna hurt you, yes I wanna make love to ya but not if yer not ready," I puffed out.
She sat for a second looking back at her phone and then shut it off setting it on the table. She plugged it in and laid down on the pillow covering up. "Night Ryan," was all she said.
I couldn't tell if she was mad at me or what, I felt my heart sink. Standing up I turned the light off an walked back to tha couch an laid down. "Huuuuuuuuuu, night Cassidy,"
I swallowed hard waiting for her ta say something else but it was silent for a long while. "Ryan," she said quietly.
"Ya," I whispered out.
"Come sleep with me," she said.
"Uhhh, alright," I said confused.
"When I slept with ya the other night, I didn't have nightmares," she confessed to me.
I closed my eyes feeling it hit me like a ton of bricks. The thought that I could do that for her elated me. I stood up taking the blanket and pillow ta the bed with me, an sat down. I laid the pillow down, and laid down covering up in the blanket, on top of the one she had on.
She tossed and turned over towards me, this time I wasn't gonna do anything till she told me too. She pulled on the blanket and huffed, "Ryan," she said.
"Mmm," I groaned.
"Yer on the blanket," she said.
I moved back a bit and she pulled, and huffed again. "Yer still on it," she said.
I moved back more, to the edge and she pulled. I balanced my self trying not to fall off. "Huuuu," she huffed and sat up.
"What now," I said.
"Yer still on the blanket," she said.
"I'm almost falling off tha bed woman what ya want me ta do," I said smirking.
I didn't think she could see me but she may have and I got a pillow to tha face. I grabbed it an yanked it from her causing us both ta fall off tha bed.
She got up huffing again and hit me with tha pillow again. I started ta laugh and tried ta grab her, but she dodged me. Jumping on tha bed with the pillow. I got up an she hit me again, that was it I tackled her to the bed. She struggled screaming, trying ta get loose and it reminded me of behind the diner so I let go.
Rolling to my back on the bed, just when I thought she was done she hit me again and I grabbed her wrists. The laughing erupted from her an I started ta tickle her. She fought back straddling me, jabbing me in the ribs an abs, hands an arms flying.
This continued till I sat up gripping her arms tight at her sides with my arms. I kissed her lips hard an rough and she wiggled to get out laughing into my mouth. Her struggling against me was not good, her bottom rubbing against my lap. I groaned in ta her mouth an she lifted her arms poking me in the armpits. I let go of her and she attacked me, pushing me to tha bed.
Her hands caught mine as our lips crashed and tongues swirled together. She locked our fingers together pinning me in place but when she sat back down she gasped. Breaking the kiss she sat up lookin down at me, moving back.
She jumped off and laid down pulling the covers up curling her legs up ta her chest. In a huff she threw the covers over me an moved back against me. I laid still knowing why she got off, I wasn't the smallest of men, got that from my daddy too. Both of us laid there panting from our wrestling match an she finally spoke taking a deep shuttering breath in. "Huuu, night," she said.
I waited to see if that was all she was doin and she finally turned around grabbing my arm furthest away and pulled it over. She rolled back over an took my arm with her so I rolled with her. Finally she settled and put her hand under mine locking our fingers together.
"Hooooooo, night," I said.
Her breathing slowed and her body relaxed leaning in ta me. I was careful ta only press my chest against her as I pulled her tight. Laying there breathing in her hair, smelling like my shampoo. God it smelled good, I drifted my mind wandering dangerously.
Cassidy's POV:
I woke to the sunlight coming from open loft doors and tha smell off coffee. Peeking my eyes open to see if Ryan was around. Not seeing him I frowned an sat up the smell of the coffee calling me. I got up and saw the coffee machine on tha counter and walked to it. Pouring some in a cup that was sitting there, then looked in tha little fridge. I found flavoured creamer an poured it in then stirred it.
Hearing the sound of boards creaking I walked towards them. Ryan was standing on tha little rustic patio outside tha loft doors of tha barn. Leaning against tha railing with coffee in one hand over his chest. His other wrapped around his ribs supported his arm with the cup.
His long legs crossed at tha ankle as he stood watching somethin. His perfect chiseled features and cleft chin made me kinda sigh. He was definitely tall dark an handsome mixed up with some strong. Last night was insane feelin him get all excited under me. He's insanely, big, I thought runnin my eyes down his chest an abs.
He looked over an caught me just as my eyes landed on it, an it made me heat from head ta toe. How bloody embarrassing gees Cassidy quit that, he's not technically yers ta ogle an undress with yer eyes what tha hell ya thinkin my conscious screamed at me.
His legs uncrossed as he caught me an he stood up tall setting his cup on tha rail. "Mornin," he said as he stretched up letting his shirt rise up.
"Mornin," I tried ta say but succeeding in whimpering.
He yawned and put his hands ta gether stretching ta the side. My god look away, my conscious yelled but I couldn't, his PJ bottoms hung on his hips like sin showing off that v cut. Suddenly my mind went out ta left field an in my head my tongue was doin all tha talkin. Runnin over that muscle veerin ta tha South Pole, my god damn Santa, I thought.
"Did ya sleep good," he breathed out his eyes watering from yawning an stretching.
"Uhhhhh, wha," I said unconsciously.
"Thuuuu, did ya sleep good," he puffed out in a chuckle.
I shook my head an looked up at his eyes as he rubbed them. "Oh uh, ya I, it was fine," I breathed out.
Oh my fucking god get yer shit ta gether Cassidy, you dummy yer attracting attention ta yer hormones. Do we really care anymore my devil side argues, of corse we do, he can't get too close. Oh but he's so dammmmn yummy.
I blinked an stepped over ta tha railing needin somethin ta hold on to. My conscious and subconscious were arguing them selves. Shit this is not good, but holy shit he was waring on me. I looked out over the yard an watched as a deer walked threw. "Hey, there's a deer," I said tryin ta regain my whits.
He sauntered over, his feet padding on tha decking of tha patio an I looked down at them. Shit there big too, oh my god ok, we need ta walk away from this. "Ya, I've been watchin her fer the past hour or so," he said standin next ta me.
His arm brushed mine an made me dizzy, suddenly my conscious gave me a mental shot of being shook an hit. "Um, so I guess we gotta get my car out today," I said snapping out of it.
"Ya, I guess we should get that outta there," he said.
"Yup, maybe we could go get it now," I asked.
I was so embarrassed from my thoughts goin the way they were I'd do anything ta change it right now. "Woah now, gotta eat breakfast first, then will talk," he said chucking.
"Oh right, ha," I answered.
"Well, let's get dressed an go up to tha house an eat then," he said.
"Ok," I said.
He turned around walking in, setting his cup in tha little sink. I watched him walkin an then his shirt came off slowly, I think purposefully ta drive me insane. He tossed it in tha basket an then went ta tha closet pullin out a black tshirt and jeans. He walked ta the bathroom an looked at me. "Do you wanna change first or?" he asked.
"Naw that's ok I gotta finish my coffee first," I answered.
I moved as I answered, an he moved in ta tha bathroom just before he closed the door his PJ's hit the floor showin off his butt. My eyes flew open wide an I gulped down tha rest of my coffee. "Dear god bless me," I whispered crossin my chest.