Arslan's heartbeats quickened at her question. She would forgive him if he would tell her the reason. He was in dilemma if he should tell her or not?
On one side he would get her apology but on the other side he would lose her forever!
As he knew that whatever he told to Aaban was in fit of rage but would he really disclose it to her,about his love? Would she accept him? What if he she hate him after knowing about his love?Then what will he do?
His mind went in haywire as both the sides were all about taking risks but which one will cause him more damage? He was still in his own world which got broke due to her repeated questions!
"Tell me the reason?" She demanded as she paid all the attention to him.
"I can't tell you!" He said without even sparing her glance with hard expressions.
"Why? Let me tell you why! Because you went to pursue your dreams and ambitions which you thought were more important than me! Right?" She smirked at him in mocking way.
But her accusations made him angry! Does she think that low of me that i would leave everything and everyone behind just for my dreams? His rational mind went out of the window the moment anger took over his senses.
He stopped his car with a jerk,putting all pressure on breaks making car to halt on its place with screeching sound of tires against the road.
"You want to know why,right?" He looked at her with rage filled eyes which now turned darker in shade with almost disappearance of blue specs in his pupils.
"Then listen carefully,i left because i freaking love you! I love you so much that it hurts to see you with that Aaban!" He shouted in anger while taking Aaban's name he said it like taking something bitter on his tongue.
"I love you so fu**ing much damn it!" He yelled and punched the steering wheel in anger.
He started panting due to his shouting and looked at her who was looking at him with wide eyes and unbelievable expressions on her face.
"Arsh bhai, i am asking you something??" She yelled at him bringing him out of his day dreaming.
He looked straight at road realizing that he was imagining the situation that just happened. He released a sigh knowing that he can't just tell her yet!
He put his feet on brakes applying pressure bringing the car to stop at it's location. He still looked ahead not having enough courage to look at her.
"We have reached!" He said in small whisper making her look at her surroundings by averting her eyes from him.
She felt enraged by his behavior,what the hell is his problem? She opened her side of the door and made sure to close it with hard push.
When she closed the door harshly,he got amused at her antics,he just shook his head looking at her retreating back.
"Trust me Liya, i am the very desperate to let you know about the reason but I know that you won't be able to handle it well!" He mumbled to himself still looking at her retreating back.
What does he think of himself? In morning he apologized to me and now he didn't even looked at me? Why the hell is he so bipolar? She was thinking about all these things while walking towards the entrance door.
She entered in her office with hard expressions on her face but halted on her place when Receptionist came running towards her calling her.
She stopped in her tracks and closed her eyes to lessen the irritation and to not lash out her anger on poor Receptionist!
She turned to her and raised her eyebrows in questioning manner with usual cold expressions on her face.
"Ma'm Arslan sir has came here asking about you in morning!" She said in hurry as she doesn't wanted to be the target of her anger.
"When?" She asked with a scowl on her face.
"Ma'm in morning,he looked really worried as soon as i told him that you have not came yet,he ran out of the office with distressed expressions on his face!" She quickly told her everything that happened.
Aaliya thought something and nodded at her,continuing her journey towards her cabin. She asked for Espresso as she already saw the headache coming to her due to her brain's overworking.
She took a sip of an Espresso and started putting every incident from morning in a sequence. First his apology,then her mother's talk about marriage topic, her confrontation with Aaban, her driver's hospitalization, Arslan's disheveled state,his worry and his silence on the answer for disappearance of past years.
It was too much to take in that too in morning only.Her mind wandered over all the things. What happened that he was so worried? Why did he looked so distressed? He is definitely hiding something!But he cried,why for me? He never cried for anyone or anything? He cried for ME? Do i matter to him still? If yes then why he left?
Her brain was rummaging through all the possibilities but it was not coming on any conclusion. After thinking about this matter a long time she got back to her work trying to distract herself from his thoughts. But it seemed be a futile attempt as it didn't work out.
She finally let out a sigh of annoyance as she accepted the fact after few hours of unproductive work that today is not a day she could do any work.
She went back to her home instructing her PA to send files to her at home. She reached home hailing company's cab.
She entered in lounge to meet with her Raziya Appi, as she was sitting with an ice cream tub in her hand. She smiled looking at her Glowing face and went to her study room.
She was going through her work mails when door of the study opened revealing Raziya Appi behind her was a house helper holding a tray in her hands which consisted of two cups of tea and a plate of her favorite biscuits and milk cakes.
Raziya entered and sat down on couch while cradling her little baby bump which was now started showing a little. She stood up and sat beside her on couch while house helper settled everything on coffee table before leaving two Siddique sisters alone.
"I was getting bored so thought to do a tea time with you like old times. Hope you are not busy!" Raziya said and looked at her with hopeful eyes.
"Appi,i can't be ever busy for our tea time!" She said with a smile on her face on which Raziya's face brightened up with grin.
They were talking about anything and everything about their lives, how everything is going on and what are the future plans as well as relishing their past memories.
"That was the best time,no worries,no work pressure. I miss that time!" Aaliya said talking about their childhood.
"People are still same,if you want you can make this time also memorable as we have made earlier!" Raziya told her while turning towards her observing her facial expressions.
"Neither people are same nor time. Everything has changed." She said with bitter smile on her face.
"It is saying that people don't change,it is the circumstances which obliges them to change." She put her perspective in front of her while talking about Arslan.
"You are saying about Arsh Bhai,right?" Aaliya asked her not looking at her instead focusing her gaze in front of the window.
"You know him from childhood,don't you even understand him a little that if he had done something it must have had any reason behind it!" She tried to give some hints to her.
"I feel like he is now not the one i used to know. He is now no more My Arsh Bhai!" She said to her elder cousin sister.
"Sometimes we have to do the things which we don't want to,but we do it for the happiness of our loved ones." Raziya said to her on which Aaliya looked at her.
"Appi, two years. He left without any answer,any explanation. You know how close we were. I was whole-ly dependent on him. He was more important to me than Aaban or even Ayaan Bhai. Than why?" She said telling about her deep down feelings which she had buried under her hard exterior.
"You know after he left,i felt like i had done something wrong that's why he left! May be something was wrong with me. I used to feel like trash when he ignored me for two years,Appi!" She showed her vulnerability to her elder sister with a moist eyes.
"And now he thinks that a mere sorry can give me back my past two years of my life. It's strange that he thinks like Sorry could work like a magic eraser which would erase every bad memories and experience!" She now said in mocking tone to show her how bad she felt due to his ignorant behavior.
"But sorry does also means that,the person gives you more importance than his Ego that he doesn't want to lose you." Raziya again said giving her advice.
"He already lost me appi, now nothing is left behind to gain back." She said in sarcastic tone showing that she doesn't care about him.
"Aalu, you and me both knows that there are still way to gain back what he left behind. I understand that you are angry and hurt due to his behavior." Raziya told her putting hand on her shoulder,on which Aaliya averted her eyes,not able to meet her eyes.
"But that's also the fact that we get angry on the ones which we feel like ours or we feel like we have some rights on them,we have a belief or trust that they will maneuver us." She said again stating a fact.
"I won't say you should forgive him,he did a mistake and he have to repent it! I would just say his reason was valid." Saying she got up and went out from the study room leaving a very confused Aaliya behind her.
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Hey Guys!
So,how do you like their conversation. I feel like Raziya has given some great advices to Aaliya.
Do you think Aaliya would understand her cousin's hints?
Should Arslan now confess it to her about his Feelings!?
Tell me your thoughts on all these.