*glitches* I am Lucy. Lucy Zeffodir. Twenty two years old, a black belter and an actress.
"glitch* No. I am Lucillia. Lucillia Sigrlux.
*glitch* No, my name is Lucy. My name is Lucy. You're not me. *glitch* *glitch*
*glitch* I am you. You are me. We're the same. *glitch*
*glitch* No. I am me. I am not you. *glitch*
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"Lucy? Lucy?!" I hear someone calling my name. My head aches, my body aches, everything is painful. I tried to open my eyes, and I saw two faces.
"Friela? Vaness?" I wanted to sit but my body aches.
"Is that you now, Lucy?" Vaness asked and I got confused with her question.
"What are you talking about? It is me, Lucy." I said.
"Luce, you really don't remember anything?" Friela asked me, she looked terrified.
I tried to recall what happened. I fainted on the interview. "I— what happened to the interview? I fainted, right?" I said as I realized that my voice is hoarse. Friela and Vaness looked at each other.
"What?" I asked.
"You really don't remember?" Vaness asked the same question.
"Remember what? That's the thing that I remember. I fainted, and then here I am." I was looking around. This seems to be a hospital. My body calmed a bit, I tried my very best to sit so I can face them properly.
"Luce, that was yesterday." Friela said. I didn't knew that a whole day passed already.
"What did the doctor said? Why did I fainted?" I turned to Vaness and ask for a cup of water as well.
"We don't know. You just fainted, but the doctor says you're fine. They think it's fatigue, but the moment you open your eyes you acted weird." Vaness handed me the cup of water and I gulped it.
"Yes. The way you speak, your gestures, your words, they are all unusual. It's like it's not you who's talking to us." Friela added.
"What do you mean? I don't know what you both are talking about. If this is a joke, please. I've no time for joke. Just tell me what really happened. What happened to the interview?" I tried to act like they're joking, but I know deep inside me that something happened. I just don't know what, how or why.
"No, we're serious Lucy!" Vaness shouted at me.
"Why are you shouting? Is it that serious for you to shout?!" I shouted back. I hate being shouted at, I really hate it. They knew it, but maybe it really is serious for her to shout.
"Y-yes. You hurt us, Luce. You really don't remember? Is it really not you?" Friela was about to cry at that moment.
"I— what? I did what?" Was I totally out of my mind. I hurt them? Why would I do that?
"Yes. The moment you open your eyes, we asked how are you. You said you're fine. We hugged you and you suddenly pushed us." Vaness said. "After that, you asked us weird things again. Just like what you asked Friela on the market." she added.
"Tell me the whole story." I said. Friela went to the refrigerator to get some fruits and put it on the table. She started peeling the apple.
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"God! Finally you're awake!" Yui said.
"Lucy? Are you alright? How's your feeling?" Vaness asked.
"I feel fine." Lucy said.
They hugged Lucy, but she pushed them away.
"What's wrong with you?! Who are you, huh? Where's my staff?" Lucy shouted.
"What? What stuff? Your belongings are there in the table. Do you really need to push us?" Friela was trembling, her voice is shaking.
"I don't know who you are. I don't know if you're enemy, but nonetheless don't touch me, or I'll kill you both." Lucy said while drawing something in the air.
"Are you nuts?! Hey Lucy, we' don't have time for a joke, alright?" Vaness went to grabbed Lucy's hand, "Let's freaking go home!"
"Fuck off! Let go of me!" Lucy shouted at her.
"No. We. Are. Going. Home!" Vaness shouted, but Lucy pushed her again and started strangling her.
"When I say let go of me, let go of me!" Lucy shouted.
"Stop it, Lucy!" Yui shouted as she saw what was happening to the three of them.
"Miu?" Lucy turned her head to Yui.
"Who's Miu? Did you shake your head or bump it when you fainted, or you really gone crazy? I'm Yui!" Yui shouted at her.
"You know I don't like being shouted at, right? Do you want me to kill you, right here, right now?" Lucy said. Her murderous aura lingers in the room.
"I just wanted you to stop hurting your friends." Yui said. "I am your manager, and I don't like what you're doing. Whether you wanted to be shouted at or not, stop when you need to stop, Lucy!" Yui shouted again.
"Lucy, Lucy, Lucy! Why are you all calling me Lucy? I'm not Lucy! Have you forgotten my name, Miu? It's me, Illia." Lucy said.
"You really are acting weird, Luce. Just like what happened when I saw you at the market." Friela finally spoke.
"I don't know what you're talking about. This is my first time seeing the two of you. I have no relation to you." Lucy said.
"That hurts, Luce." Friela said.
"Put that aside, who are you? Where am I? What kind of suit are you all wearing?" Lucy asked.
"You knew who we are, I am Yui, this is Friela and Vaness. They're your friends, I am your manager. How come you don't remember us?" Yui confusedly looked at Lucy, "By the way, you fainted while you're getting interviewed. Have you forgot it as well?" Yui explained and asked.
"I have no memory of what you're talking about." She suddenly put her hand on her chin, "Perhaps, do I look like your friend? The way you speak, the way you dress, I feel like this is not my world." she added.
"No, you really are our friend. Here, look." Vaness brought her foundation make-up and opened it to have the mirror and gave it to Lucy.
"What kind of tool is this? I can see my own reflection." Lucy said.
"Seriously? That's a mirror." Yui said.
"I do look like your friend. But my name is not Lucy. I am Illia. I have no knowledge and memory of your friend. I also do not know this stuff," Lucy pointed the things that she's talking about, "Mirror, your suits, your names." Lucy— Illia said.
"How come you became Illia now, and not Lucy?" Friela asked.
"You really believe her, Friela?" Vaness asked.
"But, come to think of it. Lucy would never hurt us." Friela looked at Lu—Illia.
"Well, you're right." Vaness looked at Illia as well.
"I have no knowledge whether how I came here, but I'm sure that my consciousness is of Illia. Me, and not Lucy. The possibility might be, my consciousness was passed on this body of Lucy." Illia explained.
"You're..." Yui hold her temple and tried to analyze what was happening, "I guess you're tired?" she asked.
"No, I am not. We are trying to pick up some fruits when I suddenl—"
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"That was around twelve midnight. The Illia is telling the story when you— Illia fainted. When you woke up, it's you again as Lucy, now." Vaness finished her apple.
"That's what happened?!" I don't know what to react on the story that Vaness told me.
"Yes." Friela finished eating her apple as well.
"Sorry guys." I feel guilty.
"Why are you saying sorry?" Vaness asked.
I sighed. "I hurt both of you, but I can't remember it. Still, you're here. You both stay." I put down half of my unfinished apple on a plate.
"It's okay, Luce. I feel much better that you came back." Friela said.
"I don't think much of the story was actually real though." Vaness said while looking at me.
"What do you mean?" Friela put all the trash on a black plastic bag and return to her seat.
"I think your mind's playing at you, Lucy. Worst, there might be something else, like mental problem." Vaness said.
"I guess, you're right." I hate to admit it, but I'm also afraid of what I might do next if it happen again, "Can you find me a good psychologist or psychiatrist— whoever or what field it is, for this kind of case Vaness?" I think it is the best thing to do. I don't want to hurt anyone while I do not know what I am doing.
"Roger that." She said.
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