I saw around me how everything passed slowly, the people, the night and when the rain fell. Heaven knew it, felt it, he cried for me.
I felt that it ceased to exist that I was not me, that I was only watching a movie where the male character leaves the girl in the middle of a park, with her heart in a thousand pieces and a thousand questions after having said "I don't love you anymore, goodbye. I'm tired of pretending. " And I said "Goodbye, see you never", and silently I wished him to be happy, to find love, that which he lacks so much and that I have left over. And then I asked God for him, but more for me, because I was the one who needed him the most.
Without knowing how, I got home, our home. I ran to the room, I don't know how long it would have been since he left me in the park but his things were gone; He was gone, without even giving me his face, took the cell phone, look for his number and write the following:
"You are the love of my life, thank you for loving me, I can't see myself without you. I did my part, it seemed that it didn't matter to you, I think I was no longer in your mind, you were with me but it's over. I knew it from you and your attitudes, it was what hurt me the most. Maybe I forget you, maybe never. I swear to you my life that you surprised me with your decision, because of the time together I think it deserved an explanation, maybe you have new plans in your life And there are dreams that you still do not fulfill, that you aspire to a great high, if you were not going to stay, why hurt me? I love you, Matt and who knows when I stop doing it. I don't mean to make you feel bad, I just want you to remember that in me you will find a good friend, that what we have does not influence. "
Seen✔✔
That emptiness in the chest, and knowing that you have nowhere to go, that you do not have arms that hug you and tell you that everything will be fine ... to feel like little by little your heart breaks more and with it your soul. We were one, he is my everything. Karma came back to me, maybe not in the same way, but there I was crying and feeling insufficient again for not knowing where I failed or what I was missing to make him happy. What would I do from here on? He had no friends, no family he was all that.
We had a thousand things to do, a thousand things that drag me along with him. Everything indicated to me that we would be eternal; But our love was as fleeting as that star to which you make a wish without really knowing if it will come true. And this was my end, or maybe it's just the beginning ...
I'm new around here, I've been writing but on another platform. I hope you like it. By:Maria.H, kisses