4 years before.
Katte.
I was in the "best" stage of my life, I had a great boy by my side, he was perfect, our relationship was only 19 years old, but in college I am the most envied. I love him and I know that he loves me, maybe we will have a future. Soon we will be one year old, I have never gotten this far in a relationship. And despite not having given myself to him, he is still by my side. Being with him I forget everything, my breast disease, the fact of knowing that if my mother dies I will be alone, I know that he will be there for me. Josh, I only think about him and that's why he's love. Today I will go to his house at night, there are only days until our anniversary and I am sure of my decision, I know that he is my right boy. I get home, mom waits for me in the kitchen with her nurse, every day or rather every year since her illness was known, her physical appearance has been getting worse, she always tries to let me know that she is fine but her image says so . I am the opposite.
-How is my girl? You already have that title of artistic drawing and plastic arts.-
-Soon, mommy. You will see me on stage with both titles and you will feel enormously proud of me- I hug her and give her a kiss on the cheek- I must go up to get ready, I will go out with Josh. A date before our anniversary, I wink at him before going up to my room.
I felt nervous, ecstatic, in the nebulae. Today would be that day, I know it was not the way and maybe it was not the time but he wanted it to be with him. I took a shower, got ready when I got out of the bathroom, put on some leggings, a somewhat loose blouse, ran down since Josh had written to me saying he was outside my house, I said goodbye to my mother and I went out to see myself with my perfect love.
-Hello Beautiful. Ready for the movies-I hug myself planting a kiss on my lips. -Oh, of course Mr. Josh- I laughed and we got into his car heading home. We arrived, and her house was alone. She told me that her parents had gone out to visit relatives. That made my plans even more perfect, I felt like I was acting like a high school girl who was carried away by the desire caused by her hormones, which was not a lie. In high school I never gave free rein to my hormones, I only thought about studying and getting a scholarship to study two majors at the same time, for me it was not difficult, it was not so desired or coveted by boys my age and I only focused on That, until I got here a year ago and I met Josh, he looked at me in a way and spoke to me things that nobody had said, we got to his living room and he put the movie that we would see "Love Rosie", I had wanted to see That movie months ago but with the exams and jobs that I had, I never had time, and because of things like this, I loved him. We were watching the movie, both of us lying on the couch. At the end, I move on to the next "If I decide to stay" that I had already seen, it was time to make us move on to the next face of "watching" movies. I was shaking and my heart was pounding so hard I felt like I could sculpt it at any moment. I was afraid of ruining it at any moment, I had planned and imagined it so many times in my mind that I was afraid that it would not happen like in movies or romance novels; After a long series of kisses that gradually increased in intensity, he took me by the hand guiding me to his room, he walked by himself I don't know what force was helping me to climb each step. We arrived and just closing the door with a lock launched itself towards my lips devouring them as if there was no tomorrow, the next thing happened very quickly.
It was magical and beautiful, not as planned but it was done. It was the next day and he took me home, he was very cute ... as a newly married bride, in the nebulae. I felt that I was radiating light and I felt like the most wonderful woman in the world, my classes went by quickly. In the library I met a nice boy, his name is Matt, he asked me to show him what I was doing I felt strange since Josh had never asked me that. I did not care and went looking for my boyfriend, he was in the university garden with several girls and boys around him, he had not been with his friends for so long. I approached them, when I went to greet him with a kiss on the lips, he turned his face and those who accompanied him suppressed their laughter, I felt a little small before that gesture, he had never done it. I asked him if he would leave me at my house and I only answer with "I don't know, I'm very busy" I just said goodbye with my hand and I left there with a very small heart, what happened to him? Why had he changed in that way with me? Had he unconsciously done something that night? Just wait for check out, he always left me at my house. I went to the parking lot and his car was gone, I didn't think "being busy" was serious. I went to the bus stop, got on it and on the way I sent him a message asking if everything was okay, to which he only replied "If I'm only busy now I can't talk" I left him alone, I didn't want him before our anniversary got upset, I got home I shared the rest of the afternoon with her and telling her about the boy she had met today; evening came and Josh hadn't written to me yet. I just hoped he was too focused on his studies not to bother to send me a single message.
Here I go with the first chapter, I hope you like it! little kisses. By: Maria.H