Ciara could not understand how she felt. She had witnessed Alexia getting killed right before her eye and she hadn't felt satisfied like she had thought she would.
Instead, she had felt pain. The pure and strong sting of pain. It tormented her. It disturbed her. She felt sad about it. She had thought that she would rejoice. She had thought that she woild be happy watching Alexia die. She had thought that it would bring her peace. She was wrong. She only felt bad. She only felt sad.
She had to keep telling herself to forget it. It was already done. The deed was done. She had fufiled her heart's desire. She had finally taken away all the obstacles that stood in her way. She could finally have Damon all to herself. When he saw her, he was going to welcome her in without hesitation and she would help him through this phase.