"Hans will work with your papers to U.S, doon ka daw muna mag stay so the enemy couldn't find your track." Nagising ang buong diwa ko nang magsalita sya.
Kumunot naman ang noo ko sa nalaman. "If it's the safety for us, why not?"
Pilit kong pinipigilan ang luha ko na kanina pa gusto tumulo. What if Lucas is truely here but he's hiding himself for us just for the sake of our safety? Or what if he has a surprise then the other he will show himself because my birthday is so near now.
I suddenly missed my brother when he came into my mind. What was he doing now? Is he and Ate are talking? Nawala sa isip ko ang mga katanungan na iyon ng tumatawag si Clarence sa cellphone ko.
[Ate, I'm on my way there.] Bigla akong kinabahan dahi lsa sinabi nya. My mom and Clarence still didn't know about my pregnancy.
"Take care, okay? Ate have something to tell you." I slowly stand up when France immediately stood up to guiding me.
[Why do I suddenly felt nervous/exciting? I have this guts but I wouldn't mind it if you say it now.] I heard his voice with an exciting tone kaya napangiti ako.
"I wish, take care."
[Thank you Ate, I love you.]
I smiled. "I love you too."
Hanggang kwarto ay inalalayan ako ni France kahit hindi naman na kailangan. I decided to wear a grey pajamas and black maternity over sized shirt before stepped out of the room.
"May gusto kapa bang kainin?" Ani France nang makita akong pababa ng hagdan. Why he's so over protective like he's a father of my child.
"Wala na, ok na ako. Mukhang gusto mo na rin maranasan yung ganito sa asawa mo, bakit hindi kapa mag anak?" Nagulat sya sa biglaang sinabi ko kaya nag iwas sya ng tingin bago namula ang magkabilang tenga.
Natawa sya saglit, hindi naging komportable sa sandaling iyon. "Ang straight forward naman, Chloe. We still don't have a plan, marami pa kaming plans for vacation of us bago mag plan ng baby."
Hindi ako nakapagsalita at tumango nalang. Mabuti pa sya, iyon lang ang po-problemahin nyang mag asawa dahil mula ng mag quit sya sa organization bago ikasal ay naging maganda ang buhay nya.
While I'm still here, early pregnant as well, kakaunti pa ang nakaka alam. I just knew I am ready to risk because of falling love again without telling a reason story and his first love from the beginning. I'm still clueless at all, pero kahit kailan ay hindi ko nagawang maitanong sa kanya. Umabot sa ganito, na hindi ko pa rin nasasagot lahat ng katanungan ko. Why so suddenly he vanished without a reason?
What about his first love? What happened to them and when we first met he looked like he's hopeless to move on from her. And why Hans still suspicious him about joining the organization? Why suddenly Hans forget what I confessed month ago? The half truth about his background family and he has an IED.
He is still mysterious for me but I don't have a reason to regret those love from him. But.. I am still puzzled about his character and personality. And why his older sister suddenly vanished too after our last met? Bakit ngayon ko lang din napapansin na isa-isang nawawala ang mga taong nakaka usap ko?
Mabilis kaming napalingon mula sa katahimikan nang may magpindot ng passcode. Sinalubong ko agad ng yakap si Clarence pagkapasok nya. My tears suddenly escaped in my eyes before hugging him tightly.
"I miss you too, Ate." Narinig ko pa ang tawa nya bago hinalikan ang ibabaw ng ulo ko.
Palihim kong pinunasan ang luha ko when I faced him. "Did you not feel anything?" I asked him and he looked at me, confused.
I was pertaining to my baby bump when I hold his hand and placed it to my tummy. I laughed when he's shocked, immediately looked at my tummy before hugging me again.
"I- i don't know, I.. I'll be an uncle soon." Natawa ako sa sinabi nya kaya naputol ang pagiging emosyonal ko. He's so cute when he speaks a baby tone.
"Yes, you will be, the best for me." I fixed his strand hair before pinched his cheeks.
Nag react naman sya at ngumuso. "It's so masakit, come and you need to rest Ate. What do you want to eat?"
He fastly changed the topic kaya sumunod ako sa kanya at hinawakan ang kamay nya. I liked his smell of perfume and hugged him in his back. "Pwede bang dito ka muna, baby brother? Your ate is so lonely and my son too. I don't want to make pahamak my baby, he needs to be healthy." Bulong ko sa kanya with a baby conyo talks. I don't want France to hear it. Of course I know that he's watching us.
"I don't have a clothes, but wouldn't you mind if I came back here after. Aalagaan muna kita hangga't hindi pa rin nagpaparamdam si Kuya." Sabi nya at pina upo ako sa dining katabi nya. Dala dala ang bucket of fries, chicken with rice and full of gravies with brownies and oslo.
Natigilan ako bigla sa kanya nang maramdaman ko ang kirot sa puso ko. He looked at my reaction, starting to panicked when I started to cry.
"I'm sorry, I know he will be a good father, not for now, but soon yeah? Ate please, I can be a father of your child-" Sinamaan ko sya ng tingin kaya hindi nya itinuloy ang sasabihin nya.
Kinuha ko ang tissue na inabot ni France bago sya ismiran. It's sweet but I can't stay here for too long, 1 weeks is enough for me to stay with my baby brother. Alam ko na alam ni France na hindi pwede to malaman ni Clarence, I don't want to involve of my dangerous life. My family is my weakness at all, but thankfuly Hans is doing his best to protect my family while I'm out of town for the safety.
"I'm just hungry, come on let's eat." I said to them at hindi naman sila tumanggi.
I was so happy because my chicken is my cravings too. Especially the balat of the manok, it's so crispy. Hindi ko alam kung bakit nagutom na naman ako kahit kaka-kain ko lang din. Maybe, my cravings started in 5 months.
I eat five rice and six chicken. Natawa ako ng maubusan ko sila kaya umorder pa sila nang maraming bucket of chicken. Hindi ko alam kung maaawa ba ako o magpapasalamat dahil ginagawa nila ang lahat sa akin.
Naubos ko na din ang brownies at bucket of fries. Uminom ang ng maraming tubig becauss I don't like any softdrinks nor Iced tea. Pinagtimplahan muna ako ni Clarence in a minute bago magpaalam para makapag impake in 3pm.
"Mag-iingat ka ha, magpaalam kana ka agad kay Mommy." Kinuha ko mula sa drawer ang sulat ko sa kanila. "Gave it to them." Ginulo ko pa ang buhok nya kaya namula sya sa inis.
"You're so annoying, but by the way." Ngumisi sya bigla kaya tumaas ang kilay ko sa kanya. Ano na naman kayang iniisip nito?
He laughed again before he speaked. "You sound like a Mom now. Take care."
Dali dali syang umalis ng aambahan ko sya ng suntok. I looked to France when he started to laugh but keep silent when I glared at him.
Na concious bigla ako kaya tinanong ko sya. "Talaga bang tunog nanay na ako?" I awkwardly said before he burst into laugh.
Umirap na lang ako at nilayasan sya. Bakit ba kailangan tawanan ang ganoon? Kapag itong lalaki na to nabuntis asawa nya, tatawanan ko rin sya para makita ko kung paano sya mag re react kapag naging ama na sya.
He seems so happy so I decided to take my one bucket of fries and eat it. I'm still hungry and feel tired kahit na ilang minuto lang ako tumayo. I slowly seated comfortably when someone is knocking on the door.
"Who it is?" Tanong ni France nang makapunta sya ng pinto.
"It's hans, can I talk to Chloe?" His voice was in panicked kaya sinenyasan ko na si France na sabihin ang passcode.
"Bakit naparito ka?"
"I can't track your brother Chloe, I'm sorry."