fast forward 4 years!
It's my birthday! we're at nana's (grandma's) and dads late! i start opening presents my step moms handing me! first was a coloring book collection. then was new crayons and colored pencil's. then the next present is a journal!
i ask mom what its for! she says for me to start writing how im feeling, dreams whatever i feel like! SWEEET! just then i hear dude going berserk! i go to get up! mom pushes me back down as shes smiling ear to ear! close your eyes she says! so i shut my eyes!
5 minutes later i hear this girls voice telling dad make him stop! i hear dad yell dude lee down now! barking stops! moms still covering my eyes! i hear foot steps one set of tiny one set of dads! then mom moves her hand and says open your eyes alex! i open my eyes and realise its cassy my sister! i look at mom confused because i hadnt seen her for so long! hows she here? wheres gloria (my real mom: id stopped calling her mom 2 years ago)! mom(sherri) says your dad was at court n won custody from your mom(gloria) and now sissys home!
me angrily "shes not my mom no more you are" which pisses cassy off and she runs outside dad had to chase her!
couple hours later we're all finally calmed down and eating cake cassy wont talk to me! so i ask mom why and she says cassy needs time like i did to adjust and understand!
i start crying for its best birthday present ever ! yet i wanted to break down because my sister who i protected as long as i could till i was abandoned wanted nothing to do with me! i crawl into nana's bed and pass out todays been a roller coaster!