I wasn't expecting to be having these dreams I mean I haven't had them for awhile now. It's been years since I stopped going for therapy too. What was happening to me ? Is this because of too much stress or something? My be it's nothing, but my in my heart ....it doesn't feel right. It feels like something is missing or ..someone. I felt my gut telling me there's dangers lurking in the shadows, dangers that I'm not aware of or I could be just paranoid, making this seem like something when it's nothing..... Yeah let's go with that, me just being overwhelmed.
I feel restless after the last few months of being so happy with how things are going. I don't have many friends and I'm a loner, I like it that way because I'm so used to being on my own. I'm not sure why I'm feeling so uneasy about this vacation now, nowadays I'm just getting more depressing than usual, I'm just so tired and overwhelmed with everything that's been happening in my life lately. Currently all that's in my mind is college, although I'm not even sure if I'm ready to go and continue the next semester anymore. I just finished my Diploma in business...I know so common and a little boring for some people but I liked it but now I'm just not motivated enough and I have been thinking about a Career change. I just happened to be a very good listener and observer and to top it all I'm an Empath which is a crucial part of being a psychologist. I have been in an out of therapy a couple of times and my therapists usually tell me that I have the potential to be a really amazing psychologist or a therapist and a counsellor. If psychology so intriguing and in that world I would get lost in it for hours, doing researches and assessments and just learning about all of it. It's so interesting and there's so many things I can relate to and understand so well such as understanding why I react to certain things certain ways or how and why I have different reactions to different people and problems as well. I think changing my course to psychology major would be better for me, in a way it's basically helping me shape who I actually am as a person and improving my mental health by helping me understand myself better. After vacation I have decided that I'm going to start afreash. A brand new start, totally changing my major to psychology and counselling. Oof ....this is actually a huge deal, a really big decision for me. There's no going back now because next month I'm going to send in my applications. Right....there's just a few days for this vacation to end.