I've loved more than one person but he was the one who made me feel a different kind of love. when he was not around I miss him when he was around I still miss him for he never noticed me. I was in the background wishing for him to notice me I act crazy wear sexy clothing yet he never knew I exist.

I remember I once ask his brother out even though I didn't like him I told myself maybe he'll notice me if I was next to him from time to time. I wish I had said yes when my friends ask me if I liked him not that it would have made any difference.

I was worse than a stalker I took pictures of him when he's not looking I stalk his page I created a reason to get his number I did get I wanted to hear his voice but I could not.

when I heard he was dating lyly I cry like a newborn baby wishing that I was here but I was not from time to time I like at her wanting to know what does she have that I don't then I remember she had everything she was a model I was not well I was but in training. when they finally broke up I was so happy but for what it not like he would ever like me I was wasting my energy on a boy who doesn't even realize that I loved him since day one.

being next to him in class in the hallway and lunch was enough I thought to myself but I was lying to myself I knew it wasn't enough I have his pictures all over my room like he's a celebrity. I remember once I went to a party with my uncle I was so bored I call him on WhatsApp in a group call it was me, him and my friend Kim he orders me a Uber I was so happy but I realize that he probably did it cause I keep saying I wanted to go home.

being close to him stop when I confess to him I didn't want to but did it. I have a habit that when I'm drunk I tell the truth no matter what you ask me I will answer it truthfully, my friend Sarah calls me alcohol Pinocchio because of that. so I was at that party and got drunk and text him everything the fact that I never liked he's brother or his friends that not only that I like him I fucking love him the next morning I try texting him to say sorry but he never texts me back I fucking hate him but I also love him.

if I was prettier and smarter would you have like me some time I wonder?🌺🌺🌺🌺