When you look form your window you see so many people going here and there. When some disappears some appear. The constant change of colors and the busy vibes. It's too familiar. I look at the streets and wonder what Tracy would be doing now.
Happiness had finally resided in my soul. Namely that happiness is Tracy and the little blessing. The sense of darkness , the freezing chill of loneliness. The tingling feeling of sadness and the burning rage of anger. They all are no where to be seen now a days. It's been five months. It's been the best days of my life.
The smile the voice the presence of hers make me feel at ease. My tired exhausted bones find refuge in her tender eyes. I don't know how happy I am. I don't know how overwhelming this feeling of sunshine and gold is. My world was cold. Tracy colored it in gold.
The days where I would spend my time thinking wether I love her or not came to an end. Why? Because I had finally decided to love her. Yes. I said it.
I love Tracy.
She's my blessing. My life. My happiness. My everything. She's my first priority and my sense of comfort. I find rest in her smile. I feel relaxed when she talks to me. The small touch of the hands and the little coincidental skin ship makes me close my eyes and sleep at peace.
Seated on my chair. Tapping my pen on the graphite desk I gazed at the city to the direction where my apartment was. The place where my life resides. I wonder what she's doing now. How adorable is her little self. Her tummy has grown big and she wobbles slowly and her oversized T-shirts and sweaters are so cozy.
Another half and hour only. Then I will see her. I want to hug her. Kiss her. Cuddle her. Make her happy just the way she did to me.
How can I be this happy? I can't imagine myself without her.
I will see you soon.
My love.
Neit heard the door open with a click and she grinned widely and stepped in. The sight in front of her made her drop every single thing she had.
"TRACY!!" She shouted and ran towards the figure that was sobbing on the floor.
"Tracy what HAPPENED?!" Neit spooned her up and hurried over to her bed. She sat on it and placed the shivering person on her lap and cuddled her in a tight embrace.
"N- Neit it's ..... so cold.... and..." Tracy sobbed. "It ... hurts!" She whispered weakly. She clutched onto Neit's chest tightly and sobbed against her.
"Shhhhh..... baby I'm here." Neit blurted out forgetting the fact that she just called Tracy - "baby"
"B- baby?" Tracy sniffled and looked up at Neit who didn't look surprised.
"Shhhhh..... Tracy. I will make you feel warm." Neit soothed the shivering girl and her whole body engulfed the other.
"Don't talk. Don't move. Just... stay like this." She whispered.
Tracy nodded lightly and snuggled against the warm embrace a little bit more. She closed her eyes and took some deep breaths. The pain was still there. She felt really tired and nauseous. She felt Neit's hand pat her back softly and it calmed her down.
Slowly she drifted into sleep.
"When I said that word...." Neit was interrupted by a timid sound of small snores. She looked down at Tracy who was cuddled against her still clutching at her chest cloth. Her lips were puckered up and her cheeks were squashed from the embrace.
Neit slowly moved a strand of hair from her face which she thought was disturbing Tracy's sleep and kept on staring at the overwhelming sight in front of her.
She slowly lowered her head and kissed Tracy on her temple.
"I meant it." She whispered.