Tracy gulped hard. She blinked twice and looked at Neit who was looking at her with an expression of love and anger which held so much pain. She looked amazing. Just like those days. Of course Tracy knew that Neit owned this city and she also knew how Who Neit was by now.
"Mommy? Why are you shaking?" Anela looked at her and pouted.
Tracy smiled. "Nothing sweety it's just..." she looked back at Neit and mumbled. "..... a bit chilly." She bit her lips nervously as she looked down and closed her eyes to calm her self down. She was shaking and her whole body felt like it was overwhelming with jelly. She had dreaded this moment since she left the hospital with her parents.
It was the best for them. For Anela and Neit. How can a slut like her fall in love with Neit like this? Neit doesn't deserve her. And Anela can never be Neit's daughter. Who knows what that man has been doing throughout his whole life before sexually abusing Tracy? She couldn't let a pure soul like Neit take care of Anela. And now she's already married to another man who was suggested by her parents. So It wasn't her responsibility. It was Tracy's.
She breathed in and composed herself. She was still shaking but she has to get out of here soon. Really soon.
"Come here sweety lets go." She took one last glance at the one true person she ever loved and then she walked away with her daughter who was happily skipping along with her hair bouncing up and down, totally unaware of the situation she was in.
Neit watched and watched. After all this time besides her urge to go And drag Tracy back home , she could only watch. She felt very useless. She could hear her insides crumble down to sit just like that day where she was standing in the empty hospital room.
She watched as the two figures disappeared from her view and heaved a big shaky sign. Her hands were shaking in anger. She closed her eyes and breathed slowly. Her anger was increasing and she didn't want to stop it. Not anymore. With that thought poisoning her , she left home.
"Hello." Jedi picked the phone and answered.
"YAH!!" Neit screamed. " SHE LEFT ME JEDI!! SHE FUCKING LEFT ME!!" Neit sobbed into her scream.
Jedi bolted up from her seat and grabbed her car keys.
" NEIT!" She raced towards her car and started it. " hang in there man!!I'm coming!!" She drove off.
Neit didn't wait for her best friend to finish the sentence. She screamed and threw the phone away and watched it break into pieces. She shouted again and flipped her table and threw it against the wall. Her whole body was shaking. The anger and the sadness was overwhelming her, blinding her and it made her deaf and senseless.
She growled and screamed loudly and threw everything away and broke them. She roared and sobbed and punched the glass walls until her hands and her cloths were dripping in blood. The whole living room was ruined. She tore the cloths off the windows and threw them. She flipped the heavy couches and ripped off their cases. Her fingers were injured and bleeding. Shards of glass were embedded into her skin. Her whole self was drenched with sweat and tears. She shook visibly and sobbed. She crouched down and covered her ears.
The soft giggles of Tracy and those beautiful big doe eyes of Anela rushed through her head. The memories and the sounds of their laughter and the words Tracy spoke started to haunt her and torture her. She covered her ears tightly and sobbed loudly.
"I would never leave you....." Tracy whispered.
"I loved u too....." she signed.
"Mommy..." Anela happily said and her voice echoed through Neit's head.
They were ghosting around her. It was pure torture. She sobbed loudly and stumbled down. She closed her eyes and sobbed even more. It didn't stop. The memories played again and again. The voices boomed against her head again and again. She couldn't take it.
"No please ...." she sobbed and whispered.
"LEAVE ME ALONE!!" She screamed. "LEAVE ME ALONE!!
PLEASE!!" She roared and bolted out of the house and drove off. She increased the speed until she heard the buzz of the engine of her own car. She was a crying mess. The voices still lingered in Her head. She shook As she she gripped the starring wheel letting more blood gushe out of her fingers. She raced her car into full speed and drove. The city lights and the night sky mixed well with her emotions.
Suddenly her eyes widened. A blinding pair of headlights shone against her. She wasn't stupid. She knew what it was. She closed her eyes. Tears were leaking down her face. She gripped the starring wheel more tightly as she heard the screech of a horn.
"I'm tired."
She increased her speed.