After apologizing Neit thought that Tracy would loosen up a bit and she always imagined her talk to her and interacting with her on a daily basis. She imagined them two being close and filled with care. No more quarrels no more bitter words. But ... WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON!?
After the small incident Tracy was the same. True she smiled and was always taking care of herself and Neit but she wasn't that close and she would always just ignore the little things like the worried expressions Neit had and also she would always keep a certain distance between them.
It has been a month to be exact and her tummy has grown big too. She would slowly wobble around with her cute oversized T-shirt and shorts. When Neit looked at her she would look back and smiled weakly and when they were eating she would sit next to her. But if they were too close or too cozy and if it seemed like they were somehow being a little bit friendly, she would quickly apologize and ignore the other.
Right now tracy was doing the dishes and Neit just stood there ready to go to school and work. She wanted the little bean to finish it up quickly and look at her. Finally it was done. And a small smile crept over her lips.
"Tracy." She spoke.
"Yes?" Tracy answered while smiling at her.
"Umm... I'm going to work. Stay safe. If you feel any pain please call me. Alright?" Neit instructed and in return Tracy nodded happily and smiled wider which melted someone's heart immediately.
"Imma go now." Neit waited. She wanted to hear a certain thing from Tracy but it didn't come. She cleared her throat and looked at the girl who was staring at her in confusion.
Of course she wouldn't she's probably scared of me still.Neit signed and nodded at Tracy and walked away.
"Yo you should really calm down." Jedi chuckled at her best friend who was currently breaking the fifth pencil into pieces.
"Do I look that scary?" Neit hissed at herself angrily. She pouts and looked at her friend.
"Dude!" Jedi exclaimed. "Who told that? She's probably unaware of your feelings towards her."
"I- I don't have feelings towards her I just want her to say goodbye and just hold my hand at least." Neit whined.
"I ain't buying that." Neit glared at her friend who was grinning like a mad man.
"Help me please. Not roast me you dumb fuck." She huffed out.
Jedi rolled her eyes and drew closer.
"Listen if you want her to do that, then there is only one way." She said. Neit looked at her with utter Hope.
"Go and tell her that you feel lonely and sad when she doesn't do it. She would understand you. Tell her that you want some warm affection from her. You want her to care for you right?" She asked and Neit nodded willingly.
Jedi chuckled.
"Then go for it dude. Do what you feel like it's good for you and Tracy and the baby. Don't forget that little buddy." She said.
Tracy cleaned the apartment and showered. She was feeling a bit tired since her body weight was a little bit overbearing. She changed into a long oversized sweater and exited the room. Just when she was stepping out of it she flinched at the sight of Neit in front of the main entrance.
"You... didn't go to work today?" She asked softly and wobbled towards the other.
"Umm... Tracy I want to talk with you." Neit bit her lip and shifted from one leg to another. Tracy giggled softly and walked towards the nervouse baby giant. She raised her head to look at Neit since she was really shorter than the other and smiled.
"Why do you look... nervouse?" She asked.
Neit gulped hard. Damn those plump lips. How could her eyes shine so brightly like some blinding headlight? How could those cheeks grow so full and fluffy?She looked at the little figure in front of her and gulped again. Her body was so fragile and soft looking and those legs .... OH NO!!! This is the end of me!! She screamed internally.
Tracy puffed her cheeks out and pouted. "Are you sad?" She poked Neit on her right bicep with her baby fingers and giggled.
A sudden force was latched in the back of her upper thighs and she was lifted up. Tracy yelped and held into Neit's shirt collar tightly. She widened her eyes in shock and looked at Neit who was staring straight into her eyes. She could feel Neit's strong arms around her exposed legs and her whole body was laying on the other. A little blush crept onto her cheeks.
"N- Neit?" She stuttered and blinked.
"Can you please care for me?"
The sudden question took her by surprise.
"Umm.... I - ..." she bit her lips and looked at Neit.
"Can you please care for me like you do for the baby?" Neit looked at Tracy with sad eyes. She really hated the loneliness she felt. She wanted to feel happy for real.
"Please Tracy. I.... I feel so sad and mad. I - don't know what you call it. I feel.... smad." She mumbled the last word only to herself but heard a soft giggle and looked at Tracy who was having visible tears hanging along her eyes.
"Neit... why are you so...." She couldn't tell it. She was afraid that she would be left alone again. She was afraid that she wound he hurt again.
"I'm what?" Neit asked. "Please answer me Tracy. Who am I to you? Why can't you care for me?"
She felt really angry.
"Why can't you hold my hand and say goodnight?Why can't you smile at me and say good morning? When I leave why can't you tell me to take care of myself and that you are waiting for me with dinner or lunch? Why can't you be more close and comfortable with me?" She asked.
Tracy widened her eyes and blinked hard. Was she dreaming or not? Was Neit drunk? Was she sick? Why is she hearing things that are supposed to be impossible to hear?
"I want you to care for me. I want you to grow close to..." Neit's rant was interrupted by a soft kiss on her nose. She gasped lightly and froze. Her lips were apart slightly. She couldn't comprehend the things that happened.
"I'm sorry if I ever ignored you. To be honest I was feeling lonely too. And I used to hurt you. I ..... thought that maybe you still hated me. That why I ignored you and just let things be the way it was." Tracy looked at Neit.
"But from now on I don't think that I would ever be able to ignore you. You're so sweet and innocent. I just can't believe that I once hurt you." She sighed.
"So you will take care of me!?" Neit asked like a hyper little kid who got a new set of toys.
"Of course. I would always make you my first priority." Tracy giggled at the behavior of the other.
They stared at each other for a few moments. Tracy was busy admiring Neit.
"Can you kiss me on the nose again?" She widened her eyes at the sudden words which came from Neit. Surprise turned into giggles and she drew closer and kissed Neit on her nose softly and rested her head on the other. Their faces inches apart and the warmth generated form the happy cozy feelings they both had illuminated the whole apartment.
Neit remembered what Jedi said. And she came into a decision.
What's best for me tracy and the baby is this. The warmth we both have. The bond we both have.
The happiness we both have.