The first I saw was his dark eyes, he looked so worried. I smiled and sighed. Should I tell him? I know that I have to, but it's so hard. My heart starts to ache badly, my scars reopening again. My tears slide and disappear in my hair. Noah's expression changes. He looks hurt to see me crying so quietly without making any sound. I try to say some words but they disappear in air. Then I give up and open my arms.
-Will you..
He cuts my words and hugs me tightly. I start sobbing quiet, but in my mind it's so fucking loud. He pats my hair and says comforting words.
-It hurts... so much...
I say sobbing and hugging him more tight.
-You can tell me whenever you want.
I try to stop sobbing so hard. After couple minutes pass away, I start to talk quietly.
-I was seventeen, when I met him...
I take deep breath, his long fingers reach mine and he takes my hands, kisses them and then places them near his heart. I can feel his heartbeat, it's similar to mine's. I smile and close my eyes for a bit.
-He... tortured me physically and mentally... I have scar...
He wanted to say something, but then shook his head. He placed me on his legs and hugged me.
-I'm sorry Alisa... I know that words can't heal you, but I'm helpless...
-Your presence is everything...
After twenty minutes of silence he starts humming some song. He has beautiful voice. It makes me sleep. But he stops. I open my half-closed eyes. His face is so close. Both of us smile and he quietly giggles as I start to giggle myself. I roll at the bed. He looks me with smile. I smile wide and hide my face. He leans and takes my hands out of my face. I stare in his dark eyes, which are sparkling.
-Give me a hug.
I say smiling. He laughs and shakes his head, leaning to hug me.
-You're such a baby.
-I am.
-Your duality will be the reason of my death.
I giggle loudly, which makes his smile go wider.
-You're such a drama king Santorini.
-Oh. I don't like when you say my name like that.
He pouts so cute that I hug him more tightly, that he acts like he is choking. I giggle more and more at his drama actions. He is so good at acting.
***
After dinning with Jayden and Sapha Noah takes me somewhere, not telling me where we are going, I start to whine. Noah is in such a good mood, that every time I ask him he patiently says no and smiles every time I sigh. After fifteen minutes I am tired and stop asking.
-We came.
I see a beautiful wooden house near the lake. It looks so cozy. I stare at it so long that Noah drags me himself. It's so warm and beautiful inside that I make childish sounds and jump from happiness.
-We will meet New year here, if you want.
I jump at him excitedly, he giggles and catches me.
We watch some films. I start to fallen asleep.
-Hey Alisa, lets go home.
-Okay.
I say yawning. He comes near me and points his back to me. Noah gives me piggyback and carries me in our room. When he places me on the bed, I say that I want hot chocolate. His eyes gets wide.
-Now? At this hour?
-Yes.. Let's go. I know that you love it too.
I jump out of bed and run downstairs towards kitchen. He comes in and shakes his head.
-If you wasn't asleep why do I carried you?
-You offered and it would be impolite to not take it.
I say with smile and he rolls his eyes. I start to take out ingredients, he helps me too. When we finish. I childishly try to sit on the cupboard, but fail each time. It makes him cry because of laughing so much. I pout and cross my arms, as he tries to calm himself. He comes to me and places me on it easily in seconds. He lays his cup next to my leg. He stares my eyes with smile.
-I haven't forgotten strawberry my lady.
-Your duality is insane as well Santorini. How you dare to complain about mine?
I say with raised eyebrow and he smirks, his hands sliding on my butt.
-So where we stopped at last time?
-You were crashing my ego.
I say pouting and crossing my arms.
-Oh... Did I? My bad. I'm sorry strawberry. Should we start again?
-No. Lets continue where we stopped.
-Where we stopped?
-Why are you so mean? Just shut up and kiss me already Noah.
I kiss him angry and he starts to giggle. I become so angry that I try to escape from his grip. He smiles and carries me in one hand. I scream and murmur quiet to let me down. He isn't listening any of my words. He opens door and slightly throws me on the bed. I try to escape one more time, but it finishes him gripping my arms in his hand.. I scream and murmur quiet to let me down. He isn't listening any of my words. He opens door and slightly throws me on the bed. I try to escape one more time, but it finishes him gripping my arms in his hand. His gaze is exploring my body. Then he let my hands go on his hair. I love his fluffy soft hair. He kisses my collarbones, slightly biting them. My eyes close and moan when his long fingers touches my belly. He takes my shirt and pants as well. I take his shirt and touch my six babies. When I say loud he giggles. I grab him and place him under me. He smiles and gives me space to explore his body. My eyes catches his smirk and I look at him gulping. I want him so freaking much. I see desire in his eyes.
-I want you my lady.
-I want you to Santorini.
I kiss him deeply, his hands slightly grip on my ass. I start to mark him. My hands reach his pants and unbutton it. He moans as I slide my hand in his pants, touching him outside of boxers. I want to tease him a little bit. I start to move my fingers so slow that I hear his annoyed groan. He grabs my hips, placing me on top of him. I moan as he starts to move my hips and kiss my neck, biting and sucking it. I got more needy and ask him to give me more. He takes of my underwear. His gaze stops at my scar and I look away. He notices and kisses my scar. He starts to put all his emotions in his kisses. He stops to take off his pants and boxers. Then leans to his nightstand to grab condom. He kisses my collarbones again and grabs my hips close to him. I smile at him as his eyebrows raise at my tattoo. He looks so happy and surprised. I place my hands at his back, leaning him to kiss me. He kisses me and slowly enters.
***
-I am losing my mind over my lady.
He murmurs it in my ear, making me smile. I love him desperately. I hug him as I fall asleep listening to his heartbeat.