My thoughts on my future seem to just get thrown up in the air
All I have to say is I don't care
I gave up on that back before I turned eighteen
But still, it seems like the ones I love push all these tasks on me
I walk around all day with all these tasks on my shoulders
Not to be rude but why am I the holder
Of all their pain
Guess they don't seem to see that I do carry pain of my own
But still, these tasks and problems just keep getting thrown.
Look at the ground around me
And all you'll ever see
Is the person I want to be
But it seems to get harder and harder to see
That perfect life is the one that I had to delete
But the people around continue to stair
And don't seem to realize that life's just never been fair
But they keep asking what happened to the old life
I look them in the eyes and say that my life is always changing with a price
Why don't yall understand
I'd be willing to give you my plans
Just to see you smile
Even if it puts me in denial
But soon it catches up to real-time
When that happens seems like I just committed some sort of crime
Why don't you look at the ground
Don't you see the blood all around
I don't think y'all see these words come out of my mouth
I'm trying to tell you that my lights about to go out
The blood that you see
Its the blood of that perfect me
The person I'll never be
But still yall think that I'm perfectly fine
And living a life that's so defined
Well that's all a fake
When all I seem to do is break
If you could see my heart
You may finally understand why it falls apart
Most of yall don't seem to know how to take this
The words that I say can be harsh and I hate it
But that's from the years of life that were extremely dark
That's what happens when your life falls apart.