I woke up the next morning feeling like I hit my head against a pole.
With the level of hangover I'm having, I had to question the amount of alcohol I consumed last night.
My head hurts like a bitch and I couldn't think of anything except making the ache go down.
Holding my head with my two hands I walked to the bathroom and luckily I saw a hangover pill which I took with greed.
And that was when my brain registered I was the only one in the room.
I felt a little bit hurt that he left without waiting for me to wake up but then it's partly understandable... no one wants to wake up the next morning just to see their one night stand.
It'll be so awkward.
I wasn't really minding the fact that he left until I saw a letter on the table.
I was happy he left something before going, and thinking it's his name and phone number, I quickly opened the letter.
But the content of the letter was a shocking one, firstly it was signed by an A, and also there was no number in the content but that wasn't the most shocking part
He wished he had never had sex with me...
What the actual fuck, who has sex with Olivia Milan and regret it?
I plan on making him regret ever saying that, but that thought only lasted the minute I said it because his identity came rushing back to me...
He was the same grey eyed guy I met in the hallway!
And he regrets having sex me...
I couldn't be more heartbroken at this moment, the guy I desperately wanted as mine has a girlfriend he loved to death and regrets he had sex with me.
And I don't even know his name, it could have been anybody whose name starts with A, or he may even be indicating that he wants to be Anonymous.
How should I even know when he doesn't even want me to look for him.
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After showing the letter to my friends I could tell they were all dying to laugh which boiled my blood.
"What the fuck girl" Ryan said bursting into laughter which made the rest of then follow suits,
This is one of the things I hate about these girls, don't they realize when I'm stressed about a particular thing and when I'm not.
"So basically, he was a virgin and he didn't want to have sex until marriage or whatever is it that 'till I find the one' means" Mia said while laughing making them laughing harder and my blood boiling higher
"And though he didn't regret or hate the sex, he wished he hadn't done it" she said again gaining the same reaction from the others.
"That really sounds like 'I regret it and I don't regret it' to me" Natie said wiping tears away from her face.
"You've got yourself a complicated one babe" she said with a grin, an annoying one to be precise
"But wait, who regrets having sex?" Ryan asked with a devious glint in her eyes and I'm just a bit away from slapping sense into them.
"Well, the virgin boy named A" Mia said and they all roared in laughter, and I couldn't tolerate it anymore.
"Guys…" I started
"I mean you don't even know his name" Natie said cutting me off
"Or anything about him other than he goes to this school" and Ryan completed
"I know okay, so just stop jesting and tell me what to do" I said coldly
"Well, if you ask me, I would say forget about him. I mean, you know basically nothing about him and he doesn't really regret the sex so you basically have no excuse to start looking for him.
And also, this is a huge school, and do you know how many guys with the same fucking description you are giving here" Ryan said in the matter of fact tone and that only made me sad the more.
"I know right? I would just say forget about it, take it as a freaking one night stand which would surely pass" Mia said adding to my misery
'Yeah, a freaking one night stand that makes me want more. I feel like we literally shared our souls, like he took a part of me with him and I don't even know the part of him that is with me, I feel just too stupid in the heart' I murmured to myself.
"Whoa, that's very deep and yeah it's stupid even to my heart" Ryan said with bulging eyes while the rest gave a small smile and I felt embarrassed they heard me.
"Are we sure this is Olivia Milan" she asked the other girls who looked thoughtful
"Guys…" I whined
"I mean, can't we be honest, you were never the one to attach emotional strings to sex so please let's talk our mind out" Natie said with an accusing face, like I just did the one thing I shouldn't have done, and I really shouldn't have done it.
I shouldn't have attached anything emotional to sex, it's out of law, it's a crime.
"But really, I wish I saw this guy, you just disappeared on us and the next thing we saw was you looking like an accident victim with an hospital note the next morning" Ryan said with a small grin, and I'm betting she wants to laugh out loud
"Guys, he has alluring grey eyes" I said and I felt stupid after saying that
"Well aren't grey eyes alluring, they are one of the most beautiful eyes in the world, but then what can we do with this bit of an information" Natie replied
"Maybe look for all the grey eyed guys in this school, how many would they be?" Ryan said with a straight face, almost like she was serious
"How many days would it take again?" Mia said also with a straight face but I knew they were mocking my lack of skill in describing people.
"Well, really his eyes is different, it's like a glass, like I could see through it, I literally couldn't stop staring at it" I said seeing the image in front of me and I immediately felt stupid again "okay, I accept I need help"
"Yeah you do" Natie breathed
"Well little girl, baby doll" Mia said and I gave her the face indicating 'don't call me that' which she ignored
"You have class in thirty two minutes so get ready and get your butt to your class, when you are back we would think of a solution to your complex problem" she said pushing me up while I gave her a glare but reluctantly standing up
"I hate the fact that I share just one class with you guys"
"My next class is in the next 1 hour so I'm quite in the same boat as you are, I'm just a little late for the ride babe" Ryan said standing to go set my makeup and Natie choosing my shoe
"Well, I am glad I have free periods unlike you guys" Natie said going to my closet to pick out a cloth for me
"Can you pick something gloomy, that's my mood today?"
"Well then, I will pick something completely opposite"
"That's why I love you girl" Ryan said giving her a high five
"Whatever, I would go take my shower then" I said making my way to the shower. Since I was in such a bad mood I decided to take a cold shower. I felt like I needed to awaken my senses.
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On my way to class, I started hopping for some miracle to happen.
Hoping that maybe I would encounter the grey eyed guys I've been yearning to see, but none of the grey eyed guys I saw looks like him.
And when I got to class hoping that at least my mind would be erased of him, it wasn't.
I wasn't able to focus in class to the extent that I had to record the lecture; it was hard focusing when all I could think of was a grey eyed, plump lips and straight nose guy who wouldn't show himself to me.
His nose looks so straight that I was starting to now wonder if he has ever got into a fight. He's too sarcastic not to have.
I still can't remember the night completely, but I could remember vividly what I felt, and I wanted to feel it again.
Stupid but true.
And I would have had a little hope that maybe one day, just maybe, he would show himself to me, I would see him and give him a piece of my mind but then I know better.
The content of the note to the sleeping beauty said it all... he isn't ready to leave his girlfriend whom if I remember clearly, is a cheating pain in the ass.
He said he loves her a lot and isn't ready to lose her so I should make sure I steer clear of him since he would be doing the same.
If I should think about this part of the note, my mind just goes back to how he may have been when writing it, did he looked at my sleeping state and feel bad or good that he is doing that or he just penned it down and left without a second glance.
And I don't even know why it hurts me in a strange way, the part where he said he loves his girlfriend makes me want to choke the girl I don't even recognize to death.
I don't need anyone to tell me, I know… I'm now a legit mess all because of a guy named… A.