'This is the greatest taboo of all times!' Olivia thought as she covers her eyes and prayed to God that what she was seeing was just a trick her head is playing with her and that it isn't real, that the man she had high hopes of the meeting isn't looking like a bloody god-forbid

After some seconds, she felt she was stupid, she felt that it couldn't be possible for him to look like that, after all, he has a very nice voice, a voice to die for, and his Instagram account is full of beautiful images that bring peace to her mind even if she isn't seeing a man's face so she decided to open the door once again and the sight before her made her close the door once again

"Fuck no!" she said out loud before she started pacing, what are the people who would watch the tape she's making say if the man enters and he isn't up to their expectations? She couldn't do it, she couldn't let him into her house so she opened the door for the third time and did the most stupid thing she has ever done in her life

"Hey there!" she said as if she didn't just close the door on the poor man twice, and before he could speak up, she continued "hmm, you see, I was very busy before you came, I mean yes, I knew I was the one who told you to come but then something came up and now I can't host you, I am very sorry, I'll text you later, I promise," she said and without hearing his reply, without even hearing him say his hello or hi or whatever is it he wanted to say while he had a smile etched on his face, she closed the door on him for the third and last time

"I am never going to do this shit again! NEVER!" was her promise to herself as she stomped up the stairs and into her room in both anger and disappointment even though the latter took more portion of her feelings

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Every day is just like today, that is what Olivia Milan always says when she gets up, she's had her morning set up even before she sleeps and she wakes up performing the act of the perfect lady who sleeps beautifully and wakes up beautifully, an act which is now a reality for her.

She's currently shooting a video of her daily life for thirty days and it hasn't been easy keeping up with the task and routines and it also hasn't been easy staying on camera for over twenty hours, in fact, she doesn't explain the situation with any verb other than worse and that is because it is what it is, it is the worst situation ever

One thing she couldn't understand though, is how people got to like her, yes she knows she's pretty, has a bot body and everything is about her, at least the ones they see online is perfect but then she always questioned if that is all people needed to see to like her or if there is another reason behind it because that reason is so not enough to have over twenty million followers, it just isn't enough.

Picking up her phone, she took a selfie and posted it on her Instagram story with the caption 'another day waking up to the same routine, when does life get easy for beautiful girls? PS: I can't wait to show y'all my tape, it is amazing, I tell you'

She isn't lying though, she has always wondered when life would get easy for beautiful girls, it isn't easy, and she knows she's not the only one thinking that being just an influencer who was luckily scouted by many brands, she couldn't afford a moment away from the internet, after all, she has to work to earn, money doesn't come from the trees do they?

Sometimes though, she wishes she was a celebrity, like a singer or an actor or something related to that, she feels like if she was in that career lane, she wouldn't have to go through so much stress but then she knows she knew little, or close to nothing about people like that, yes, she has been privileged to meet some popular actors and actresses but then she knows nothing about their work life and also she knows that no work is easy, not even the work of those people who write what they think and do.

Within seconds after she posted the picture, tons of messages were already disturbing her phone, messages from purely fans, messages from friends, families, and people who are interested in her personally, people who wanted to get to know her, and people who wanted to get into her pants, when it comes to those last set of people she mentioned she always gets confused. It is hard discerning between the ones who are really interested and the ones who just want to do you, and it is harder to be sure of which choice she's making

The best thing for an influencer to do is to get his or herself a good-looking partner who would make them stand out whenever they are going on the red carpet, a partner who would give them the title of power couple and who would be able to keep the title for a very long time and when they are tired of one another, would be capable of easing the relationship in the best way possible so no one's life would get hurt by it

She has been privileged to be with men over the years and every experience only thought her more, opened her eyes to see what is beyond her normal reasoning, and made her smarter so whenever she sees men who have influence already, she shies away, not for any reason other than those kinds of men uses women with fame as a stepping stone to a higher place, she didn't experience it once or twice, it had happened to her more than three times and she knows better than to let it happen again so when those men enter her direct message and tell her how beautiful they think she is, she accepts the compliment with a kind heart and then draws a perfectly straight line, one which would be so hard for any being to cross

The only type of men she allows in her life are ones with less fame, ones who she would help grow and them hold as trophies, ones who are obsessed and would do anything she wants and says, and above all, ones who are good-looking, Olivia isn't a body shamer, in fact, she loves it when a guy has an average look, that way, the competition wouldn't be too high but then she knows she can't go for average, at least that's if she's still interested in the fame and money she's getting so most times, she's nicer to good-looking guys with low fame and makes sure to give them the impression that they could be more, they just have to work hard enough, and that is exactly what they all do, they all work their ass off every blessed day to make sure they are the ones who brings the brightest smile to her face and that is the most beautiful perk of being who she is, she could choose who she wants to be with without being judgmental about how she did it

But then, no one could compare to one particular man, the funniest, corkiest, and most fun to be with a man she has ever met online

Olivia isn't the type of girl who chats with people for more than three days, and she made sure she always established that rule, the only thing that could make her talk to someone online for more than three days is if she forgot the day count, or if the person is too fun to chat with and that is exactly what this particular man is

He is everything Olivia could ever want in a man, even her friends know that, he is funny and knows exactly what to say to keep a dying conversation going, he is quirky and sometimes feels like a nerd to her but she knows he is nothing close to being a nerd, if anything, he seemed like the playboy of his time when he was in high school, at least that was how he made her think, what got Olivia most is his love for nature, beautiful things, and beautiful quotes, she always finds herself going back to his page every time she feels down or tired, there is always something to make her keep going there, either something she has seen before or something she's just coming across and to top it all, he has a nice voice

She didn't regret giving him her number and she loved it more when he didn't because of that change in his attitude towards her, in fact, she could say the present attitude he showed to her was way better than the previous and that made her feel safe and secure in his presence and sometimes it made her feel like she's found the man she wants to spend most of her time with

But every good thing always has its flaws just as every dark cloud always has a silver lining, even though the man has a very good personality coupled with a very good voice, she hasn't been privileged to see his face, no matter what she did, he never let her in that much, sometimes it made her feel like he's human after all and that he's just like her, doesn't want to share too much but most times, she hates it, she hates the fact that she never gets to see his face when he's seen hers a couple of times, a couple of times doesn't even measure it, he's seen her face more times that she could count, that is if she could even count it

The man who tickles her fancy, David Field with the username @D.A.V.E__, apparently doesn't have a face and Olivia Milian with the username @oli_mi would do everything in her power to make sure she sees his face, even if it's just once