Chapter 5 - Last Thought

(POV # 2: Luciel)

"Sorry." - was the last thing I heard before I passed out.

When you are about to die, what do you think about? What is that last thought you have? What do you think about when you are on the brink of death? When you are about to die? What are those last memories of your memory that cross your mind when you are about to die? Tell me, do you regret your sins?

Since I was young, it always caught my attention to know what other people were thinking, perhaps they thought the same thing as me, perhaps they thought completely differently, or did not think.

'Do you think?' - I wondered sometimes in my mind. - 'Or they just live their lives without thinking, without going around their lives and just moving forward without thinking, just acting without fear of the consequences or the dangers of acting without thinking.'

I remember the first time I heard about death, what it meant. - 'Oh, the beautiful death, the final destiny to which every living being awaits.' - Yes, it does not matter your skin color, your religion, your favorite team, your political party, your tastes or your way of being, in the end, only one thing awaits us all, and that is death.

Some fear it and others desire it, some hate it, and others see it as eternal peace.

Being so young, I really did not care, especially considering that no one close to me had died. I was not interested in death, I did not care about dying, but there was something in which I was very interested, and that is what people thought about before they died, that last thought before the end.

Another thing also interested me, and that was what there was after death, it fascinated me and terrified me to think about what was beyond death, maybe there would be more suffering, there would be peace, or there would be nothing, we would just stop exist.

"Perhaps I will go to Heaven, or to Hell." - I thought about that many times. - 'They are perhaps real, or just something that a person invented millennia ago.' - But of course, there was no one who could give me totally true answers.

But I was more interested in knowing what people were thinking just before they died.

'How I wish I could know.' - I thought countless times, but that was something impossible to know, after all, once you die, it is impossible for you to tell someone about your experience, your voice, your thoughts and your dirtiest secrets. they leave this world together with you when you died.

Perhaps the memories of all my life would pass through my head, perhaps I would think of the person I loved the most, perhaps I would think of those moments that marked me, or perhaps of what I regretted. - 'What will be? What will I think about in the end?'

Yes, death did not matter to me, knowing there was something beyond death was something fascinating and terrifying, and I wanted to know what I would think about in my final moments, but ... I would never think that my last day on Earth would also be the last day of the Earth ...

"Do you regret it?"

Yes, that day…. That day would be the end for all of us… it would be the end of the Earth.

On the day that I and my family would go on vacation to visit my grandparents, it was precisely on that day when it happened, the event that completely changed my life and that of all those who lived on Earth.

Just that morning I was so happy, having just said goodbye to my friends, having left a message to my crush, and be very happy to spend time together with my family, to enjoy the holidays and the days that I would spend at my grandparents' house, to see my cousins, and to have fun.

But, it was on that same day when it happened, the ground shook, the buildings collapsed, the mountains exploded, huge waves were approaching, the sky clouded by flames, meteorites falling in different parts, the air that burned you when you breathed, chaos in everywhere, and, above all, the noise of destruction and death that was everywhere. It was the first time I had seen people die in front of me, and I knew it, I was going to die, but I did not want to die apart from my family.

"No!" - I was running with all my might, something difficult considering that the ground was still shaking, even so, I didn't stop, I had to get to them, and it was when I turned down a street when I was finally a few meters away from them when they saw.

I saw my family who were about to die. Yes, I saw the ground below them rise, it all happened quickly, a couple of seconds, but for me it was an eternity.

"NO!" - The end was near, but at least I wanted to be with them, hug my father, my mother, and my sister, and think that this was all a nightmare ...

Tell me, what are you thinking about when you are about to die? - 'That doesn't matter.' - I, I honestly didn't think of anything, my mind was blank, - 'NO!' - my body was shaking non-stop, my eyes were crying, my lungs were burning, my dry lips were starting to bleed by biting them for the helplessness I feel when I could not do anything to save them, and my hands began to reach out towards them as my ears continued to hear the destruction happening everywhere.

'You will die.' - was what my senses told me, yes, this was my end. - 'And without being able to get to be with them together in the end.' - My eyes only saw them ...

What do you think when you find yourself on the brink of death? Who knows, maybe it is really that you do not think of anything, well I… I… I did not think of anything, I did not think of anything, I did not think of anything! I just… I only saw them… I only saw the damn moment.

'Mama.' - the moment when the most precious thing for me was taken from me.

'Papa.' - the moment I lost everything.

'Sister.' - that moment when my life on Earth was ending.

'NO!' - but… was this the end…

...

Did you remember all the memory of your life? - 'I did not.'

Did you think of the spitting image of the person you love the most? - 'I did not.'

Did you regret your sins? - 'I did not.'

Tell me, what do you think? - 'I didn't think of anything.' - The only thing I could do was watch my loved ones helplessly being swept away by the flames of the end.

"Sorry." - and hear a mysterious voice asking for forgiveness ... while a white light surrounded me and, in that way, ... I fainted ...