"Sometimes, ignorance is bliss"- unknown
The rest of the drive home had been silent there was no other communication between them only the low sounds from the car could be heard.
The first thing Megan did immediately they got home was to go straight to the bar, took a vodka and started drinking it like she was taking water.
She was trying to numb her pain.
The pain of watching another woman in the arms of the man she loves more than life itself.
Tears spilled down her eyes as she cried silently wondering when things will change between them and if it ever will?
They have been married for some months now but things seems to be going worst.
She stood up unsteady as she heard the sound of the bar door opening.
" Please forgive me, please forgive me", she had cried immediately Jared walked inside but he had bypassed her like she wasn't talking to him and walked straight to pick a glass and a bottle of wine which he popped , poured into the glass and take a sip while sitting on a tall stool.
He sat down there staring at her, his face devoid of any emotion while he slowly unknotted his tie then take another sip of his drink.
Maybe it was because she was drunk or something, she didn't know where she found the courage to go close to him and said sobbing " JT, I am sorry".
"It has been eight years, I beg you to forgive me please", she said her voice going hoarse from the tears she was shedding.
" Eight years, you say", he had asked through clenching teeth as he stood up angrily while she nodded looking tense at him, not knowing what he will do next.
" I remember it every day, the scene has never left my head and it had become a nightmare every fucking night", he told her slamming the glass on the table, causing some wine to spill and make her fidgety while she muttered " I am sorry" over and over .
"You broke your promise to me", he had said quietly but you could hear the pain in his voice... His head hanged staring into nothing but probably lost in his thoughts.
" It is not .....what ...you.... think", she said gasping speaking through her tears. " Just let me explain", she continued saying.
What she got was a harsh laugh from him before he said " do you think am a dunce? I saw everything".
He made to walk away while she drops to the floor and held his legs to prevent him for walking when she noticed he was going to.
" Let me explain please", she pleaded tears spilling down her eyes as she wondered how a person can be so close by but yet so far at the same time.
" It is too late for that", he said as he pulled away from her with force which made her fall flat on the floor.
She felt as if her heart has been ripped apart as she watched him through blurred eyes walking away.
He had never granted her an audience to at least hear what she wants to say. It is like he wanted to erase all that happened from his head while she wanted them to talk so that they could go past it.
She pulled herself up unsteady after crying for over an hour , she walked slowly to her bedroom with heavy heart. As she slowly undress removing her gown then her earrings when her phone rang.
She saw a number which was not stored on her phone so she left it to ring thinking it was a wrong number but when it rang twice she reluctantly decided to pick it.
" Hello", she said lowly as she tried to keep her voice clear from showing she has been crying.
" You are happy to be in his arms , right? ", The voice on the other end said to her.
" What do you mean by this, Mel?", She asked as she decoded from the voice that the caller was her sister-in-law and ex bestie Melissa Macallam.
" You don't have an ounce of shame for your deed at all", Mel stated angrily.
" Jared and I have gone past all that , why are you doing this Mel? Why are you always tormenting and humiliating me?", she questioned her tears cascading down her eyes and pain evidence in her voice.
She knew she hated her but this was just too much to bear.
Every giving opportunity she finds, Mel has been a torn in her flesh and she couldn't even tell Jared as he would never care .
" Because you deserve every single bit of the humiliation", she hears her say on the phone while she flinched from her word.
" You cheated on a man who loved you because of money and you think it is okay to come back and be with him, to enjoy his wealth now and act as if nothing happened ", Melissa continued on the phone.
" I am sorry for everything but iiiii..", she stammer as she tried to explain to her but Mel cut her short.
" Do you know he tried to commit suicide several times, do you?", She said now with pain in her voice as she end the call.
The words " he tried to commit suicide " echoes continuous as she slowly slide down to the floor.
She was stunned that she didn't even notice that she had ended the call.
Megan stuffed her right fingers into her mouth as she cried silently.
Now she understands why they hated her so much.
She hated herself too for causing him pain and depression, she hated herself for being the reason Jared almost killed himself several times and she wished that, she had not gone to that hotel that very day years ago.
"Oh! If she could turn back the hands of time", she thought as she cried.
She had lost track of time when she stood up and undressed fully and went into her bathroom and took a shower before going to bed with a heavy heart.