A mistake.
That's what it is and she felt guilty about it.
Alex could not get her mind off from what happened last night. Why did she let it happen again? She had vowed not to let her emotions run its course. The desires that she had were not supposed to be there and yet, she felt it.
The moment he kissed her, she didn't know what to think anymore. There was like a light that instantly turned on. Her body responded accordingly which confused her so much.
She totally felt guilty. Clearly, Robbie was drunk and probably didn't remember anything from last night. Just like before, she was the one who made him feel that way.
Was it possible that he was probably thinking that she was a man?
"Allison..."
He called her with her full name.. something that he did every time they had sex. Funny how he said it clearly even if he was drunk.... and she found it sexy.
It enticed her to continue kissing him... touching him... why? The way he responded to her kisses just excited her. Miguel was never like that. He was always rough and would just let her do stuff she was not comfortable with.
But Robbie was different. He let her have control... and enjoy everything at the moment. She liked how she gave him pleasure with every move that she did to him.
The first time they did it, he was also gentle... and asked her what he wanted to do with her. He followed her lead... making her feel comfortable in every way. He made her feel important... that her feelings were important.
She sighed. Clearly, she desired him but it wasn't right. He might be masking the emotions he truly felt inside. Maybe he obliged because she was the one available. He probably didn't have anybody for years, just like her...
She took a white summer dress hanging on top of the shelf and put it on top of her body. Somehow, she loved how Robbie knew exactly what would fit her. Holding the dress on one hand, she opened the drawers and took a black pair of underwear with laced trimmings.
She smiled.
"What's with the laces?" she thought loudly.
Then she remembered a time when Robbie came to her room.
JM Cosmetics had boomed so much that Robbie was able to purchase his own home at the age of twenty-one. Since her father had been rehabilitated and her sister moved to New Zealand after she got married, he decided to give her a room in his house so she didn't have to pay rent at all.
The room where Sasha was supposed to occupy soon, used to have blue painted walls and white sidings. Bedsheets were of plain blue and had decorative pillows with a huge Yankees baseball mascot stuffed toy sitting on top of the bed. She had always been sporty and the colors resonate her favorite baseball team.
"Alex!" he called her as he walked into her room piled of clothes almost everywhere he went.
"What happened? It looked like there was a huge storm that passed over to your room!"
"I have a date," she stated as she placed over a pair of leather mini-skirt and a skimpy crop top on top of her body while looking at herself in the full body mirror.
"You have a date? With who?"
"Leandro Gomez."
"Are you serious?! The guy was a notorious playboy. He had dated and possibly impregnate half of the women in my company."
She just shrugged. She didn't care. All she cared about is she had to go on a date so Miguel would get jealous and maybe, he will come back to her... again.
Robbie sighed and then something caught his eye. It was laid down on the bed and he smiled wickedly as he picked it up. It was a laced pink thong.
"Interesting choice of underwear," teased Robbie as he dangled it in between his thumb and forefinger.
Her eyes grew wide and ran over to snatch it from him. He was an inch taller than her and he was quick enough to stay it out of her reach.
"Robbie!" and she pushed him as he laughed. "Fine. You can have it. I have more."
"You got more?" and he walked over to her closet and rummaged through the drawers.
"Robbie! Stop it! Get out!" she said as she grabbed Robbie by the arm, pulling him out of the closet.
Robbie laughed. Alex narrowed her eyes at him.
"Give me back my underwear! Don't you know that I can sue you for invasion of privacy?"
"Hmmm... well technically this is my house. So... maybe I should start asking for rent, what do you think?" he teased as his eyebrows wiggled while he waved the underwear to her like a flag.
"Uggghhh! I hate you," and she snatched the underwear from him. He laughed loudly.
"Why do you even want to sleep with this guy anyway?"
"Robbie, I am just going on a date with him. I didn't say I will sleep with him."
She felt insulted. Is that how he see her? A slut?
Robbie crossed his arms.
"Well, then, tell me. Why among all the male employees, handsome most of them, in my company, have you thought of going out with a playboy?"
"He asked me out so... why turned it down? I'm single. He's single."
"He's still a playboy."
"So?"
"What do you mean, so? What if you get pregnant?"
"Excuse me, Mr. Magsano. Are you trying to insult me?"
Robbie chuckled. "Alex, Leandro is a playboy. Do you think he will let the day pass without having a pass on you?"
"So what? Maybe I want it too, and that's okay. I always bring protection anyway."
"So you're planning to have sex with him?"
"Robbie, I'm an adult, okay. I think I'm capable of making my own decisions, don't you think?"
Robbie placed his hands on his hips.
"Why do you always date bad boys?"
"It's exciting."
"Exciting?! What is exciting with having a boyfriend who cheats on you every time? And this, Leandro, he will just make you one of his collection. Like perfume, you will only stay fresh and smelled good for a month after that he will discard you when the fragrance was gone," and he shook his head.
Alex didn't say anything and just continued picking up some clothes from the pile. She knew what Robbie was saying was true. Miguel had not only cheated on her once but several times, and Robbie had always been a shoulder to cry on. Now, he's going out with Leandro which, according to hearsay, had never gone to a date without having a one-night stand with the women he dated.
Robbie sighed. "Why do you let guys treat you so badly, Alex?"
She didn't want to answer the question because in all honesty, she didn't know the answer. She just knew that these guys show her so much attention and that for her, it was enough. It didn't matter if they loved her so much or would take care of her since she knew how to take care of herself. She tried to be strong and independent eversince her mother passed away.
Just stupid when it comes to love...
"You deserve better, Alex. You're beautiful and smart. You can get a good guy if you only look deeper. Sometimes if you look closer, you will see him... you just need to see your worth," he said and walked out of her room....