ELLA ....
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You became my life, my goal when you appeared in front of me. When I first saw you, you became my love at first sight. I know love at first sight should never be trusted but you became my passion when I saw you again. My passion and love isn't obsessive. It just is a motivation for me to continue on. I didn't had any goal before you. You gave me an aim to achieve.
But I can't do this to you; you will be running away for your life and probably will consider me crazy. I never thought that I can meet you in my life after that day, but I guess this world is indeed small. I have a feeling that we are bound to meet. But it's a shame that I can't tell you about that day, the day I became your fan, the day you helped me find my passion.
That day is still fresh in my memory.
FLASHBACK...
Like usual it's same boring day no fun no thrill no nothing. *sign*. Life so boring. And like always I decided to go on a grocery shopping. Well it's not that I don't like doing chores but it's kinda boring. I was going toward my bike parked in the parking lot.
As I was entering the parking lot outside of the supermarket, two boys were running toward my direction. It looked like the person at the back is chasing the front one. They both look like they are nearly my age.
The back one finally caught the front one with ease and I was struck staring at the scene unfolding in front of me .
Soon the police arrived and took the person who was chased, I guess he was a thief. The officers thanked the chaser for helping them. As I was near I heard him say that he wants to be an officer like his friend's father who is an officer too and also his inspiration.
I don't know what took over me but that made a deep impression in my heart and I got inspired to be a officer too. That day when I reached home, I decided to discuss about the incident with my family and my new goal of being an officer.
FLASHBACK ENDS...
They refused me outright. They believed that I can be an officer, the profession is not for me. It was a hard task to convince them but I did, maybe I was looking forward to see you or maybe I liked the idea of wearing a official uniform.
The day when you caught the thief all by yourself, I thought you were cool. I still am that teenager who believes that there's still happiness in the world. It has been just few months since I saw you but I was looking forward to our meeting.
I will remember you even if you will never know about me. That day I was figuring out what do with my life after high school. I had no idea what would I choose. I had no motivation or passion. And there were you speaking with such confidence about becoming an officer that I felt the passion in your voice. And just like this, that day became the most beautiful day in my life.
That day decided to be an officer too. Part of it because I thought you were cool but other reason was because I wanted to redefine the definition of being a girl, a woman.
In this men dominant society, people talk about women empowerment, equality, etc... but the truth is even in this so called "21st century" people still discriminates, people still pull women down. They have a mindset that we cannot be better than their worthless sons. They don't think that their daughters are any better.
I am not a feminist but when it comes to take what I want, I strike. I am here for all those women who couldn't because people think that civil service is a work only men can do. Sure there are some parents who support their children in everything but there still are parents who were against this profession.
Nevertheless here I am, in this institution where my dreams will come true. This four years will be my chance to prove myself worthy. I am so looking forward to it. This four years are gonna be tough with lots of training and studies.
It's funny how I was sad for leaving home and my parents one moment and then in another moment I was smiling at the changes that will redefine me.
Well I just hope that the journey to reach my goal will be pleasant from here on.
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