Like what I said, I never wished to go stable in a relationship. I never even had a girlfriend before. But not for long. This Yang girl just claimed me as her boyfriend? What the heck is she planning? I didn't even know why I didn't even complain about this… I'm shock that I don't know how to respond in everything that is happening. I should have said 'Boyfriend? In your dreams' or 'bitch please, you're too ambitious' but I just can't. I was in front of her father, what do I suppose to act? Obviously the 'Angelic Adam who can't even spare a fly' character.
First, I mistaken her as a poor girl who can't pay, next thing is that I found out that she's the only heir of this school. Second, I thought that she's a thief, now I found out that she was just working to gain the school to greater heights. What wrong accusations can I even throw now?
For three hours, I was forced to stay inside their mansion for the celebration of what Jeanny accomplished for the school's sake.
'She's celebrating, I'm mourning. Unfair' I whispered as I, feeling out of place, looked at the crowd.
'And hell she's so damn fucking rich' as I examined how big her mansion is. Maybe as big as Versailles, I don't know… I haven't seen Versailles yet. But duh, who knows.
'Adam!' Jeanny called the moment I was acting so childish as I harassed the mansion's wall saying 'don't worry. I'll have one of you someday'. She sent me a confusing look.
'uhm—Dad's looking for you.' She said and gave me a cup of drink.
'Why?' I asked emotionlessly like I'm not afraid but deep inside… dang~ it's world war III!.
'I don't know. It's you to find out' she said and walked away but I hurriedly grabbed her by arm and turned her around to face me.
'You… Why did you say that I'm your 'boyfriend'?' I don't know what got into me why I asked her this question but I was just curious to the bone. She was obviously stunned by my sudden question but she still managed to act cool.
'I don't know. It's you to find out' she answered. Like what? Your actions, my problem to find out the reason?
Before I can even protest, she had succeeded to break the grip and run out of sight.
Being inside the study area of Mr. Yang gives me a creep. It's seems that it's strangling me from one point to another. It's too serious and boring opposite to my life, fun and colorful… with the help of girls of course.
'So, Mr Jung…' he started. I was trying to hide my hands between my thighs because it was uncontrollable trembling.
'Adam' I dared correcting him without looking in his eyes.
'Adam. My 'BELOVED' daughter said that you're his boyfriend?' he emphasized the 'beloved' word like she's so precious and all. I just nodded to minimize any verbal interaction because you know who I am… I'm very cursive and I don't want him to know that his 'beloved' daughter is dating a disrespectful guy. I'm starting to get a hang of it.
'Do you love my daughter?' If I could express my feelings at the moment. I would be laughing hysterically. Love? What does that even mean? Surrendering yourself to the one that your heart desire? Bitch, I don't do such things. I don't feel it and I can't feel it.
I was drowned by my thoughts that I haven't notice that he has asked me the same question again.
'Y-Yes?' I never intended it to be as a question but I was so unprepared. I wasn't oriented to what character I should be acting. After hearing my answer he gave me a dangerous look.
'Mr. Jung, you don't need to lie to me' I heard him say. It made me think that I'm a bad liar.
'I know that Jeanny and you have no relationship…' he said as he wrapped his fingers together and leaned to the table.
'I know that she lied' he added. I just stayed silent but my thoughts are all so confused. So? Why am I here? If he already knows that we're not dating. Why am I still here talking to him?
'But as what I can see… My daughter likes you' Ha! Like Haha x100. Jeanny likes me? HA! So fucking funny! Is this a prank? Where's the hidden camera here? What a laugh. But even how wild my inner thoughts are, I still managed to stay calm and quiet in my seat.
'I know who you are Adam or do you prefer being called the 'black hole' Adam?' he said and stood up in his seat making his way beside me. I was stunned on how wide his facts are. Has he been stalking me or something? Plus, if he already knows who I am, why am I still forcing myself to look respectable? So confusing! Also, how shocking how popular I could be, even in this guy. Wait... does he want to hook up with me? Yuck! Don't he dare come near me!
'You're quite popular in school. Playing with girls. Honestly Adam, you don't have a good record on my list…' He added, and every step he takes makes my heartbeat speed up.
'I warn you. If you hurt my precious daughter just one time. If I see her cry because of you…' his voice started to get scary. It was stabbing me invisibly.
'You know what will happen' I can feel sweats running down my face as he gave me a deathly glare.
Was it just me or have I really undergone rehab? It seems like Mr. Yang's words have made a great impact to me. What am I supposed to do now? My conscience wanted to do what he said but I just can't let them control me like I'm some kind of a doll. I just can't change in one swish of a wand. For 21 years of existence, no one had dared change me and who are they that they think they can? It's already in my system. It's what I believe. Not because I was blackmailed doesn't mean I would comply.
He's asking too much. He's asking me to love her daughter. It's not that he said that 'love my daughter' but his words seems to be pinpointing to that idea. As what I said, I don't want to get stable between girls. I don't want anyone even how angel she could be personally or in bed. Maybe if he's asking to have sex with her daughter, I would probably fulfill his wish but he's asking more than just it. Shit, so depressing.
For almost two weeks, I tried being a good Adam. I tried acting like what I see boyfriends do but of course, not when we're alone. I'm just nice if Mr. Yang's around. And for these elapsed time, I realized how fucked I am. She's starting to get too 'clingy' to me. And I don't like it! As what I told you, I love variation and staying beside this girl is totally not my style. In school, everyone knows. I can't easily ask a girl to make out! And it made me frustrated. Here's the thing, even if we are now as so called 'couple' I can't touch her and I don't want to. Time after time I have planted the thought in my mind that I hate her so much.
When I entered the bars one night, I saw the other boys in our usual chair. I decided to seat with them even though I planned to party alone. I made my way to them hoping that they haven't heard about the news but duh, that would be impossible. Yes, it was three weeks already when I got the status of 'in a relationship' I was definitely spacing out.
'Adam! Yo baby! Long time no say' Henry called that made me relieved because they hardly talk to me earlier because of what I did.
'Hey~' I cheerfully replied trying to hide anything from them. I hurriedly grabbed Henry's shot and drank it abruptly.
'So, how's Jeanny?' James asked as he wrapped an arm around my neck.
The reason why I went to bar is that I can clear up my mind. To not think about anything that happened earlier. I have realized that Jeanny had been occupying mostly of my mind and I do not like it. She had caused me enough burden that it already sickens me to think about it.
'Jeanny? I know no Jeanny Is she another girl you played with?' I said as I continued drinking hard liquors. I badly want to get drank.
'Yah! Stop joking around' Henry sent me a playful smack in the head.
'I heard that you're dating her?' James said that made the other boys looked at me. I heard Henry clapped so loud that it sounded like he was making a cheer.
'The great black hole just got stable!' Henry cheered happily. All of them were smiling at me like the whole act was real. But they don't know anything.
I decided not to share my plans to them anymore. I don't want them to have any say to any of my future doings. Jeanny had gone too far with her actions so I need to make my major comeback. But before that, I want to make my night wild. I want to return to the young, wild and free Adam. The Adam that went missing three weeks ago.
When the boys can't control me anymore, they have started to be a pain in the ass for me. They are forcing me to go home but hell, this is what I want! They are yelling at me like a child but I can't understand what they are saying and I don't care what they say. I want them to leave me alone since they can't support what I want at the moment. And so they did. I was quite disappointed but in the same time happy. My head is throbbing in pain as the alcohol took effect inside of me.
As what I got used to, I'm looking for some girls to hook up. Since my hormones were starting to get uncontrollable and my body is heating up, I stood up and walked to the girls whom I noticed had been eyeing me since I went inside the bar. I managed to have a few steps before I felt hands pulling my arm. I turned around and saw her face.
"What are you doing here?' I asked half mindedly.
'The boys called me. Are you drunk?' she said. I don't know if it was just me or the alcohol had brought my hormones to a different level because I was turned on by her soft voice.
'Drunk? No, I'm not… drunk' I answered but I can feel my body wobbling. Moments later, I found myself in her arm.
'We should get you home' She was obviously panicking but she stayed calm under the pressure. I can feel her soft skin and smell her feminine smell that was making it hard for me to control myself.
'Go home yourself. You're not needed here' I shouted and pushed her away. I realized that the more she stays near me, the more dangerous she can be. Adding her gaze under mine, even I myself am in danger.
'But-' she said and tried a hold on me but I just shoved her off, violently. She landed on the floor obviously.
'Bitch! Can you fuck your shitty ass off my life? You have bothered me more than enough! I'm tired of you fucking the hell out of me!' I was about to turn my back to her but when I saw tears rolling down her cheeks, I can't help but to feel conscience. I tried helping her up but she just shoved me off.
'You don't need to fucking tell that shits to me' she said and run off.
Since I was really frustrated, emotionally and sexually, I hurriedly took the opportunity to hook the girl I was saying earlier. She was willing to surrender every little bit of her. Even how rough I was, she didn't complain. I was so drunk that I didn't notice whose name I was calling in pleasure. Jeanny.
I dreamed an unfamiliar memory of the past. My first love. She was a childhood friend but a total stranger. She has no name for me to remember. It was nothing special but I felt my innocent heart skip a bit every time I see her. There was no skin contact, I can't even consider that she would remember me but all I know was that I remembered her. I remembered her as my first love.
The moment I opened my eyes and found myself in an unfamiliar room, I thought about Jeanny and what I did last night. You can then tell what happened next. Or should I still state it for you? Well, one thing I can tell you… I just found myself knocking in their front door, screaming her name.
'Jeanny! I know you're in there!' I screamed knocking hard in their font door. There were already guards grabbing my arms and pulling me away. There was a commotion already but I don't care, I just want to see Jeanny at the moment. When the door cracked open, I suddenly felt that all air was taken away inside my lungs.