As Mr. Yang walked in front of me, he was wearing a face that obviously looks pissed and disappointed.
'Where's Jean—' before I could even finish my question, I felt throbbing pain in my cheeks. I was expecting it to happen though. I was expecting him to punch me in the face. I understand that he has the rights to hurt me. He's acting as a father who loves his daughter so much not as the owner of the university I entered. I know I was notified for this but still I was shock.
'I have warned you once not to make my daughter cry!' he shouted 'I told you not to hurt her!' he added.
'I-I'm sorry' I tried apologizing but he was deafened by anger.
'She don't want to see you so leave' He said and turned his back against mine. 'I don't want to see you elsewhere' he ended and slammed the door.
'I warn you. If you hurt my precious daughter just one time. If I see her cry because of you…' his voice started to get scary. It was stabbing me invisibly.
'You known what will happen' he said as he returned to his table and grabbed a folder. 'These records of yours are enough for you to be expelled…' he said as he reached the files to me. It was full of my bad records that I didn't even know was a foul action. It made me feel small under my seat, knowing that there are people who perfectly know what I've been doing.
'But she managed to save you every time I'd reach the decision' he said 'if you just can see her face every time she begs for your sake' he added but hurriedly shut the moment his door creaked open. It was Jeanny.
'Dad, what are you doing?' she asked a she walked near us. Mr. Yang hurriedly wrapped an arm around my neck and hid the folder.
'N-nothing dear… I was just talking to him. You know, getting to know what my girl has' he smiled. 'Right Mr Ju-, I mean Adam?' I was under great pressure under his grip that was slowly getting tighter every second that passed without me giving an answer.
"Y-yes, yes' I answered hesitantly.
She was in love with me even before I met her. She saved me a couple of times already even before I saved her. Does that make me the ungrateful one in this story? I feel confused, not because if why she felt that way towards me but why I felt this way towards her. It has come into the realization that I have developed this feeling that I tried to hide for years already. I'm not used to it but I want to feel it.
I tried looking for her anywhere. I've tried looking for her inside the school campus but the guards won't let me in because of my suspension. It was because I beat one of the students inside the campus. He was mocking me about the issue and I grew frustrated that it causes my eyes to darken. For one week, I was not allowed to enter the school for one whole fucking week. I had no choice but to wait outside the gates of her mansion. I see her sometimes but she refrains to talk to me, even to look at me in the eye.
When my suspension ended, I was glad to lay foot again inside the campus. I also missed the boys even though I always see them around. But the feels is different if I'm again walking to the halls beside them. Yes, they were disappointed to me for the nth time but as what friends are, they were always there no matter what happen.
They were the once who help me find a way to meet Jeanny and to talk to her. She set her up one day to the rooftop. When she stepped foot up the location, she abruptly stopped in her tracks when she saw me waiting for her. She hurriedly backed off but I grabbed her by the arm.
'Jeanny, please talk to me' I begged. It has been a while since I last saw her up close; maybe it was already been two weeks. And I realized that I have missed her so much.
'Don't touch me!' she shouted and shrugged my hand off. I was hurt. She acted that I'm a disgusting brat which I was at the moment.
'Jean' I softly called again.
'Oh, are you talking to me?' she asked while she looked around, mocking.
'Ah, okay… now you see me' I missed her. The way she talks to me without even a hint of fright. The way she acts unlike any other girls.
'Just hear me out' I begged as I looked at her sincerely in the eye. But she just gave me a disgusted face
'I've been too blind for so long Adam so fuck off'
One day, after the entire incident, I was called to the dean's office in line with my expulsion. I was expecting it and honestly, I was glad. I badly wanted to stay in this school, it had helped me develop into the Adam I am today, the dancing machine, but a part of me was telling that this was a right action as a consequence. If this is what makes her happy, I'll do it for her. If this is what makes her forgive me, I'll make no second decision for this. If this is what she wants, I'll give it to her.
When the judgment day came… 'Expulsion cancelled' was all Mr. Yang can say. Explainable.
Earlier. I was an hour earlier before the scheduled time for me to meet Mr. Yang and I saw Jeanny went in his office.
'Dad, can I talk to you for a sec?' I heard her say behind the door.
'What do you want, honey?'
'Are you going to expel him?' she was definitely talking about me.
'Jeanny, we talked about this a hundred times already'
'I know, I know but…' I then heard her sobs. It was the first time I heard her cry like this. Crying with no restriction.
'Honey, you have done enough to this guy… I have suspended his expulsion a hundred times already just for you' but all she did was to continue crying. I can feel an undeniable pain under my chest. I didn't know that she was this weak. That she did all this things for me.
'Can you do this for me for the last time?' she managed to say between the sobs.
'You love him that much?' Mr. Yang asked. There was silence. I was silently praying she is.
'I do' I heard that made me smile under tears. 'and I regret it'.
Regret. We are feeling the same thing.
I tried not to bother her after that. That maybe this was all I can do to her. I've been a shit myself to her. Realization just came into me. She was all I can think about. The way she walks like she's asking for a fight. The way she talks and how she perfectly uses cursing words in her sentences. The way she flips her hair and places it into a dirty bun. The way she looks at me without me noticing it that she was sparkling. The way she touches me roughly and sorely every time she's pissed off. James was right, she was different.
I thought I totally moved on after a week of not seeing her. If I was forced to change the moment we were dating, this time I willingfully changed into a good Adam. Not because I want to show her that I'm a changed man already but because I realized that girls are not for me to play. But I realized it too late.
When I saw her going out one of the school's classrooms, I can't help myself not to hold her, and so I did. I hurriedly wrapped my arms around her.
'Let me fucking go you bastard!' she shouted as she fought her way out my tight embrace.
'I missed you' is all I can response that caused her to stop her struggles. She looked at me in the eye for a couple of seconds and I found myself drowned by her. It's been a long time since she laid her looks to me and I totally missed it.
'ha, 'missed you' your face' she mocked and pushed me away. When I was about to get near her again…
'Jeanny? Is he bothering you?' I heard someone said behind her. It was a male voice.
'Um- no..' she said as she turned around making it to see this guy better and I hurriedly recognized him. It was Kris Do, the son of one of the largest company in the country. He gave a look and turned to Jeanny.
'We should go' she said to him. Kris gave her a smile and grabbed her hands tight. It made my blood boil that Jeanny didn't even shove his hands off, instead she held it tighter.
'Jeanny' I called when they passed by me. They stopped.
'Talk to me, please' I begged and tears are warning to fall already.
'No' she coldly answered and tried to continue walking but I hurriedly took her hand.
'How about us?' I asked her as I look for ye contact but she won't look at me. She gust looked straight opposite my direction.
'There was never an 'us' Adam' at that made my heart cringed in pain. I can't help myself but to kneel on the floor as she walked hand in hand with Kris who was comforting her.
I didn't know that this is how painful she felt when I pushed her off the cliff, and she did the same thing to me. That even how strong I thought I was, I was as weak as she is or worst. When I heard about a wedding the boys were talking about, I found myself crying in my room for days.
Did she move on than easily?
Why Kris?
Doesn't she love me no more?
There were a lot of questions running in my mind. I really can't help myself but to wonder why she reached such decision. Does she badly want to forget about me? That easily? I'm not as rich as Kris. I don't own a company as he has. I'm not as popular and well-named as he is. But one thing I'm trying to make myself believe, that Jeanny loves me more than she could love him. Maybe Jeanny was just forced to be in that marriage? That maybe she was unwilling?
'I should save her this time' was all I can mutter.
When the wedding day came, I dressed the most exquisite tux ever. I tried to look as a respectable man even under my bad records. For days of being drunk and sleepless nights, my face was a total mess but I tried to cover it up.
I haven't heard of her for weeks, all I know as how extravagant was their preparation for the wedding. How Kris personally chose the church, how he planned the designs and all. He was, as said, hands on to the wedding like any other loving groom. And seeing the entrance gate of the church, I heard everything right. The white roses that decorated the pathway, the red carpet that looks like from the Oscar's awards night, the profligate lighting of the place, and the venue took my breath away.
I heard that that the wedding would start at 10 but when I landed my foot inside the church, the bride and groom are already in the center aisle. I didn't know what else to do but…
'Stop the wedding!'