I was about get on my car when a hand stopped me.
"What the freak?!" I screamed.
I moved away from the person stopping me. He slammed my car door and then he glared at me.
"Shit! What the hell are you doing Bastien?!"
I was mortified with what he did. I was scared that someone will try to kill me. My goodness!
"We need to talk." he said sternly.
"Just call my secretary if you want to talk to me. I need to be somewhere else. Good day!" I said. I stepped back and then went on my way towards my car. But he gripped on my arm and dragged me towards I don't know.
I tried to remove his grip but it was tight.
"Let me go!"
I screamed and screamed. I tried my best get off with his grip but then I failed.
I don't know how we end up sitting on a bench in a park near the restaurant. I moved away as I massaged my arm. I don't know what his motive of dragging me here but I don't give a damn about what this is all about.
I calmed myself down. I am avoiding his stare. I am still mad with what he did to me just now. He has no right to drag me and be this crazy man.
"Belia, we need to talk!"
I ignore him like he was not standing in front of me. I got my phone and I was about to send a text to Dean when he snatched my phone.
"What the hell is wrong with you?"
"I said we need to talk!"
"No, we don't need to talk! But if you really want, you need to call my secretary and set an appointment with her."
"Just please give me ten minutes then I let you go wherever the hell you go."
I sighed at what he said. This is ridiculous! What does he want from me now?"
"Okay. I'll give you ten minutes. That's it!" I said when I was feeling a little bit calm.
If this was before, I would have enjoyed the scenery that's in front of me. This is what we usually do before. We sat side by side on the bench as we kill our time enjoying each other's presence. That's how we usually do before. But it's all in the past now.
Unlike before, all I'm feeling is the awkward silence between the two of us. I can still feel that he's still pissed off, well I am too!
"Nine minutes left. Your time is ticking Bastien. Speak up now"
I look at him. He is pinching his nose while his eyes are close. A habit he does every time he's pissed or losing his patience. I guess he is both feeling it right now. Well I don't care at all.
Now that we're this near to each other, I can see that he got manlier. His jaw is now more define and his hair is a little bit longer now compare to its usual length. I can see him inhaling and exhaling probably his trying to clam himself. Whatever!
What are you thinking now Bastien? I so wanted to ask him that. But I shut my mouth and just sit there and wait for him to say something.
I look away when I saw him open his eyes and pretend that I did not stare at him a while ago. We shouldn't be here, sitting next to each other, acting like were friends and were ok. But I guess I will let this pass for now. I will try myself if I'm still affected by his presence. It had been years now...
I focus my eyes to the people who are also at the park enjoying the beauty of the place and the peacefulness of the night. We are seated at the back part of the park. Where there are only a few people sitting. Beside us is a damaged lamp post making our surrounding a little bit dark compared to other benches.
I was contemplating whether to ask him why he brought me here but I don't have the guts to say it for now.
If he wants to talk about something he should start and speak up now. I don't want to waste my time here. Dean is still waiting for me and I said that I'll meet him tonight. And also I still have a lot of things to prepare before going out of town or out of the country. I'm still undecided though.
I already asked my parents about it if I can take a leave for let say a week from work. At first my mama was hesitant about it but then I guess my papa convinced her that I needed this vacation. He said I deserved it since ever since I resumed his post I didn't got the chance to experience going to places just to relax, chill and just have fun.
"Are you ok Lia?"
I look at him. I was a little bit caught off guard when I saw that he was intently looking at me. Is he serious with his question?
"Well duh of course." I couldn't help it but roll my eyes at him.
I heard him sigh. And now he's back being silent. I guess I pissed him off again. Who cares though?!
If he's pissed at me then I am too. I can slowly feel now that I'm losing my patience.
"Is this the only reason why you drag me here? Just to ask if I was okay?"
Shit! I sounded so frustrated. Why Lia? Where you expecting something more?
I bite my tongue and shut my lips. Afraid that I might say things that may make this situation worse. Stupid self! Stupid Lia! Stupid tongue! Now he might think that I'm still hoping for him or maybe still waiting for him.
You were already once fooled by him Belia, if you still believe in him then shame on you.
"I'm sorry..."
I didn't react or respond to what he said. I might say things that I might regret later.
If he's sorry about the past it's ok now...it's all long gone. And he's years too late for it. If he wants closure so he can get out from his guilt, I can give him that so he can move on and so that he can stop pestering me.
My brittle heart is aching and hurting knowing that maybe this will be our last conversation together.
I can feel him looking at me or more like staring at me. Probably waiting for me to say something. I'm sorry but I have nothing else left to say. I sound so bitter!
I faked a yawn and pretended to look at my watch before I decided to stand up and look at him.
"No need to say sorry Bastien. It's all in the past now. I already forgave you years ago. If you don't want anything else uh--I need to go now. It's already late."
I walked away from him without looking back at him or wait for his response. That was probably our closure. I didn't realize that my tears were falling until I touched my eyes when I was inside my car. Shit! Why am I crying?! I'm afraid to say this but it still hurts. Damn this brittle heart of mine! But what can we do? Everything has changed now.
I stayed for a while inside my car before going back home. I got my phone and I sent a text towards Dean telling him that I changed my mind and that I was tired tonight. Today was a long day and my body feels so tired.
When I arrived at our mansion, I let the maids carry my shopping bags and went directly inside my room. I heard that my parents were already asleep. And I'm thankful for it. I don't know how to answer them when they saw me looking like a lost and hurt little kitten.
I sat on my bed feeling so drain with all that's happening to me these days. I am tired and I am scared. I think it was useless for me to go to that spa this afternoon. Instead of feeling relaxed, I am more feeling stressed out now. But I can't tell anyone about this or else they will see me as a weak person. And I don't want to see anyone looking at me with pity in their eyes.
I grab my phone and see a lot of missed calls and messages coming from Dr. Duazo. I open and read it. He was telling me that I need to visit his clinic asap. My hands were trembling and sweaty when I read it. My mind is swarmed with different thoughts. Am I getting worse?
I was up all night. I wasn't able to sleep. I was troubled about the urgent calls and texts from my doctor. I also read a text from Dean telling me that it was okay and that we can meet some other time. I felt guilty that I ditched Dean last night but I will make sure that I'll make it up to him.
I was already ready when it was 6:00 in the morning. I already called my secretary to move all my meetings this morning since going to my doctor's clinic is more important now as of the moment.
Before going out of our mansion I also told Milly, our head maid, to tell my parents that I already went to work.
Sitting inside my car. I try to calm my self. Everything will be ok. Maybe Dr. Duazo has a good news for me. Today is another day to stay alive and positive Belia. No need to worry a thing! I marked it inside my head before driving myself.