26.
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"Even if Suzette is back.."
I could not sleep because of what he said, I was dumbfounded looking at the food in front of me. Mama herself was wondering about my actions, she said I ignored them last night.
Did she comeback? The one who i afraid returns. Those memories are coming back.
"Leonce! What have you been up to when your phone rang!"
I realized my mom's voice, I kept looking at my phone. 11 missed calls from Iroul, I immediately called him and he also answered.
"Hey..are you okay?"
"A-Ahh yes, my head just hurts a little ..." I explained
"Still hang-over huh?" He was still laughing
"Yeah?"
"I'll pick you up, we said we had an interview on the famous talk show."
"Oh okay..bye take care,"
"I love you baby."
I still wonder if I will answer that or not, as if I am hurting that there is nothing wrong with us.
"I-I love you too." I end the call after that.
I took a bath immediately after I ate, I probably finished there but I was too emotional. I just can't really understand myself, why am I scared? Eh for as long as these days Iroul is taken away and taken away from me.
I went down, I was wearing only a white fitted dress and with Chanel belt, I was also wearing Chanel sandals. Sponsored by Chanel, Charot.
"Even if it's just a simple dress, it looks so elegant to you." He introduced me.
He opened the door for me and there I saw what he was wearing, he was wearing only a long sleeve dark blue and pants, with matching top sider.
When I sat down he was still by my side and blocking my door. I looked at him, he just looked at me and me as a whole. I swallowed repeatedly and he laughed because of that, I slapped him on the arm because I was counted.
"Why!"
"I can't take my eyes off you."
"Eh that's a song eh!"
He chuckled a bit and got in the car next to me, he was still teasing me as if there was no problem even though something was bothering me and that was what he told me last night.
We have reached the set where we will be interviewed, I am a bit less nervous now compared to before as if I was still urinating.
The staff even took care of me until our manager called us. Iroul's manager is my manager first because I haven't found anything yet.
"Let's welcome Felionce !!" The host shouted so we left immediately.
I smiled when I looked at the audience, they were shouting and someone was shouting my name. Felionce, that's our love team.
The interview has started so I prepared myself, I feel a little bit nervous but fortunately I was next to Iroul and he held my hand even though there were so many people.
"Are you two in a relationship?"
"Yes." Iroul's pride that made me smile, my heart pounding because of what he said.
I nodded looking at the host who was still stomping, I looked at the audience that was now filled with shouts and screams of the crowd.
"Lastly ..." I looked at the host again when he spoke, Hays thank you and it's too late.
I smiled to face the audiences while waiting for his last question.
"For Mr. Ortiaga ... what can you say about Suzette. She's back right?"
I stopped at the question, I was stunned looking at the audience but I smiled looking at Feli so that my nervousness was not too obvious.
Feli looked at my behavior and looked into my eyes, I looked at him and nodded. I smiled hard while waiting for his answer.
"Welcome back?" He said jokingly.
Everyone laughed so I just kept up. The interview ended after that, we left after we said goodbye to everyone. I immediately got in the car because I seemed dizzy with what was happening.
I do not know how I feel, I can not face him now. He also entered and started the car, I am a bit quiet now.
"Let's eat first?"
"Can you take me home first? It's tiring ..." I explained
"You're tired, let's just go to your house ..."
"You can eat without me right?"
I help you He looked at me because of the tone of my speech, I immediately avoided seeing him shaking because of that.
When I got home I went down immediately, I did not wait for him to open. I was about to enter the gate when he suddenly grabbed my arm, he looked at my eyes in surprise.
I don't want to face him now, I don't know. For as long as one of these days I will lose him.
"Are you mad?"
"No ... I'm just tired," I explained
"Okay..I'll text you afterwards." He smiled but was still not satisfied with my answer earlier.
He kissed me on the lips and he said goodbye to me, he even teased me as a baby. He also mouthed I love you for me, I cried when he left. Why am I crying? I was crying for no apparent reason.
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I woke up because of the repeated sound on my phone, I immediately searched for it and it was only in the gc that Rieza and Ricky and I did it. Rieza all sent a picture, I would not have looked at the case I was shaken by what Ricky said.
Ricky: Shit! I thought that was Leonce!
Rieza: me too!
Ricky: why did they meet? Oh my god!
Rieza: i don't know, bye for now. We're going..
Ricky: wait? Who's with you?
Rieza: secret.
I immediately looked at the pictures sent by Rieza, my heartbeat was getting louder and louder. Until the picture was loading, I closed my eyes.
There I saw Iroul with Suzette? What are they doing? In the picture I even saw Suzette's laugh. Iroul turned his back on the picture but I knew it was him because that was what he was wearing earlier.
In the restaurant we actually ate. I fell silent and just cried, I hugged my pillow and poured all the tears there. Her laugh at Suzette is different, different from mine.
I cried even more because of the thought. I thought about going, I wore the one I used to wear while I was not an actor, just wearing pants and a simple T-shirt. I immediately started the car and hurried to the Resto.
I took off my shades and went to the Resto where they ate, I saw them talking. They are still talking but it hurts a lot in the chest, only now have I seen him that you are so happy. Though, happy with me.
I sat on the second to the last before them, I could still hear what they were saying. Their laughter kept ringing in my ears, I can't even watch them. I turned my back on the two because I did not want to see them.
"I love you Feli .."
I was moved by what Suzette said I forced myself to look at them because I wanted them to see what they were doing.
Then I saw Suzette hugging tightly Iroul, they both stood. I would have stood up and had a scandal, but it might still be an issue. So even though it was painful I chose to stay. My tears flowed when they repeated to me that they
hug. Suzette still loves him, is it Iroul? Does he still love Suzette? I shook at my own thought. No he can't be.
I looked at them again, Iroul was facing me, I saw his eyes in shock. But I don't think he tightened his hug with Suzette even more.
"I can't forget you ..." He said seriously and tightened his hug. I don't know what to feel..
Those were the words that shed my tears even more, I got up and ran away from the resto, I didn't hear much of what he would say next because I was already far away from them.
I cried when I cried in my car, I don't know how I feel but because it hurts. Why is he doing this? Am I not enough to him?
I called everyone but no one answered, damn! Where I need them, Nothing! About a few minutes later, there was a knock on my car window.
Enrico? Don't tell me I called him? I put him in my car and then I started crying again.
"Hey? Did Feli do anything?"
I could not answer what he said, he just hugged me and somehow reduced the pain in my chest.
"The fuck Feli!" I was shocked by what he said.
"Cry Leonce ... you're in your crying shoulders."
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"Thank you for the day Enrico.."
"Always welcome! I'm going home now!"
"Stop crying..." He added. Like he made me a child again.
When I noticed that there was a car parked on the side when I parked, did it belong to Iroul? I immediately walked closer to him.
He was inside, shut up and came out like a roaring lion. Is he still the one who wants to get angry now?
"How many times have I called Leonce!"
"My phone turned off ..." I said softly.
I bent down because I could not look at him.
"You killed it so you wouldn't be disturbed." He said angrily.
I faced him with all my might because of what he said, so am I still wrong today?
"Can you hear yourself?" I ask.
"There are no problems but there I saw you with that guy!" He shouted.
"Why do you still seem angry with me? Are you the only one who has the right to meet your ex?" I angrily spat.
"What?"
"Am I the one who should ask you that?"
I shed tears that I had been holding back.
"What did you do that to me? Then why? Why am I not enough for you to forget her? It hurts so much ..."
I wiped the tears that kept pouring. He was surprised at me, he forced me to look at him. I saw him now crying, I saw the tears that kept flowing towards his cheek. It hurts me more to see.
"Baby ... I'll explain it to you."
"I don't need it ...."
"Baby please .."
I turned my back on him but he pulled me and hugged me tightly, as he had done to Suzette earlier. I cried and cried when I heard his sobs.
"This is what I'm afraid of happening ... because I know he's the first one you're going to."
I sobbed and my tears continued to flow. His long sleeve can already be read in my tears.
"Because I know I lost there, I lost when it comes to him, you loved him first ..." He added and his voice dropped even more.
I let go of his embrace and backed away. Until we were far away from each other, I saw him wipe his tears and his eyes swelled.
"I love you so much Iroul but it hurts so much, it hurts so much when you did it ... you can't see me as me, because Suzette is still in the first place .."
"You said you lost? You're wrong, I lost more .." I added and my face hurt with tears.
"I lost to her because I know I have no fight, you still love her ..."
He cried even more and shook his head, he would have approached me in case I told him not to.
"That no matter what I think I am the one you love now, that I am the one you will choose ... but there is no denying that I lost, she went first ..."
"Are you giving up with me?" He coldly said
That was his question that I did not know the answer to, I felt like I was going crazy crying. His tone changed, I knelt down and continued to cry. I knelt in pain, I felt the rough road but I was still facing him.
My vision blurred until I realized he had gotten in the car and turned it on quickly. Farther and farther away.
And in this moment, the stars we promised before. Now the witness of our separation.
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