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"Feli, have you been with Leonce for a long time?" Enrico's introduction to me.
We're here in an exclusive club which is owned by him, we are always in the VIP because we don't like a lot of people.
"Shut up, you're just jealous."
"What the fudge Richie," he laughed.
Tss! I hate that nickname of mine, women's strength! I was about to stone him with ice, but I did not continue.
"What the fudge too, Eco." I carved him. That's also his nickname.
"Don't call me 'Eco' unless your my girlfriend."
I just let him talk about things, we both have high tolerance of alcohol, way back in high school and college were so naughty that the professors giving up on us. We are not addicted to alcohol but it seems like that. But before that.
He is now talking about the woman he likes, I don't know if we have five bottles here but it looks like the two of us are still not drunk. We can still speak well, still standing but also a little dizzy.
"You know Richie, I have bad news for you!"
I just looked seriously at his behavior, he was open now while his feet were on the table.
"I almost forgot!"
"What is it?"
"I really thought ..."
"Just say it directly!"
I was annoyed because he was really prolonging it. He just laughed and sat up, he stood up and he sat beside me. He whispered.
"Suzette is back ..."
My eyes widened and I couldn't believe looking at him, my heart beats so fast that I feel I'm not totally breathing. No it can't be! This can't be!
"Are you sure about that?"
"You think I'm joking rich?" He said seriously.
"This isn't true ..."
"It is."
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"Are you alright?" I said gently while massaging his foot.
Leonce is now sitting in front of me while her two feet are on my thigh, she was a little tired of dancing earlier because she was still wearing heels. After party because we did it today so we went.
When I met her eyes I can't look back at her because it feels like I'm betraying her. She shrugged and trying to get her stilettos but before she can do that, I pull her closer to me and hugged her tightly.
She hugged me back.
"Don't leave me no matter what okay?"
"Hmmm"
"Even when Suzette is back ..." I harvested softly and weakly and I knew she heard that.
I feel her cold since I said that, I feel like she can no longer look into my eyes, as if she is doubting. And I was scared.
"So for Mr. Ortiaga what can you say about Suzette she's back right?"
I'm slightly shocked about the question, I looked at Leonce who is now also surprised by the question, I did not expect about the question, I did not prepare It.
"Welcome back?" I laughed falsely.
The show ended and we are now in the car, She's silent and it's scaring me. I am afraid that this time I will lose her.
"Let's eat first?" I ask
"Can you take me home because I'm tired .."
"You're tired, we're just at your house ..." I said modestly.
"You can eat without me right?" Her kind words startled me.
I just nodded and took her to her house, I feel so lost when she entered their house. I sighed before leaving. I don't think if I can live without her. I don't want Suzette ruin us, I love her so much that I can risk my life for her.
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I immediately choose when I can eat for lunch, I'm here in a restaurant where we usually eat with Leonce. That even though I am the only one here, and at least I still feel that he is here. I was surprised when suddenly someone sat in front of me, I went down the menu and looked at who it was.
There I saw Suzette with her shades and Gucci bag.
"Miss me?"
I laughed at what she said.
"After what you've done? Are you still thinking?" I said sarcastically to her.
"So you have a girlfriend huh? And I really look like that? Well ... you loved me too much huh," she said while smirking.
"Loved. Past tense."
I was annoyed with her but I did not notice, I laughed at her because of his behavior. A bark of laughter out in my mouth, coz she's a freak.
This time, I can feel that I love Leonce the most. So many people are already looking at us, I stand up and excuse my self to her but I'm shocked when she stood up too and hugged me tightly.
I was surprised by what happened but later I also hugged you so tightly. I missed her.
"I love you ..." She said softly.
I don't know what to say.
"I can't forget you ..."
"But I don't love you anymore." I said and ended the hug.
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Why did Enrico deliver him? Why are they with me? Why do Leonce's eyes seem swollen?
My heart hurts when I saw her with Enrico, I can't stop blaming my self for being an stupid boyfriend.
Enrico makes her happiest woman in the world, and I can only make her happy.
"What did you do that to me? Then why? Why am I not enough for you to forget her? It hurts a lot ..." she said crying.
My heart breaks when I saw her crying because of me. He saw me with Suzette, I just realized that I was also in tears because of what was happening.
He bowed a little and I tried to face him with my face. Although I do not want to see him crying, I still try to get her eyes.
"Baby ... I'll explain it to you."
"I don't need it ...."
"Baby please .."
I'm begging for her right now, I don't want us to end up like this. I don't want Suzette to be the only reason for this.
"This is what I'm afraid of happening ... because I know he's the first one you're going to."
I said softly as my tears continued to flow. Why this is happening? I can't understand. No, I don't understand. I'm really scared as long as it's like this, I'm afraid it will happen because I know he's the one he's going to.
"Because I know I lost there, I lost when it comes to him, you loved him first ..." I added and sobbed.
"I love you so much Iroul but it hurts so much, the pain when you did it ... you can't see me as me, because in the first place Suzette is still .."
I was surprised when she said, I do not understand her, why? Why is he not listening to me?
"You said you lost? You're wrong, I lost more .." She added and slowly backed away
"I lost to her because I know I have no fight, you still love her ..."
No. You are mistaken. I'm madly in love with you baby.
"That no matter what I think I am the one you love now, that I am the one you will choose ... but there is no denying that I lost, she went first ..."
"Are you giving up with me?" I said coldly and capturing his eyes.
And with each drop of her tears I knew she was having a hard time.
And no matter what I say, he is the one I love, he will not believe me anymore because he no longer listens to me. I got into my car feeling bad, I felt a dagger on my chest when I started the engine and drive fast. It is against my will to turn my back on him but maybe he will be hurt more if I am still here.
This night is the painful night ever in my life. I leave her in the middle of the night alone. Even if he thinks I'm the culprit, it's okay. It's okay. The person i love so much is giving up with me.
This life is a useless without her. I drove as fast as I could, I wish I could die tonight because there is nothing more painful than what happened.
The long peaceful road filled with bright light after I bumped into the dam track coming.
I love you so much baby...as I said I can risk my life for you.
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