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Tears welled up in my eyes again when he finished telling the story, he showed me the wound on his head. It was also quite large and fortunately he grew his hair again.
He just looked at me without expression in his eyes and I bowed because of that. It's my fault, I didn't listen to him. My make-up was ruined by crying incessantly.
"Why? You just said that?" I have a good question.
"You didn't listen to me then, I don't think you will listen to me now ..."
"Iroul ..."
He just looked into my eyes because I called to him, he averted his eyes. He doesn't seem to want me to call him that anymore.
"I still love you, and I will." I said as he forced me to look at him.
I put my hand on his jaw and forced him to look at me. He looked hard, as if disgusted. My tears flowed again.
"I'm sorry ..."
It was as if my heart stopped beating at what he said, he avoided looking at me and removed my hand from his jaw holding. He really doesn't want to.
He doesn't want to ...
"I love you so much ... then," he said softly.
I'm just so weak but I'm getting weaker when he said that. I fell in pain, I cried even more because of what he said.
Why is there 'before'? Why not now?
"And ... you're begging me right now, you can no longer."
"Do you really love him? That even you can forget me?"
"Yes."
I shook my head while still looking at him. I do not believe in the reason or he answered. I don't really believe, I don't want to believe.
"W-Why?"
"That's bullshit! When you disappeared, she was there instead of you. She was the one who took care of me at the hospital instead of you being the one I asked for. I wish that night that I would have just had amnesia to forget those painful events. I learned that I will love her again, because you are gone ... "his tears dripped a few times.
He is crying now because he remembers what happened 3 years ago.
"Then you will criticize me now? Can you, also think that I was hurt too. I almost died because of you,"
I sobbed and sobbed, I could no longer handle what he was saying. I don't want to hear that he no longer loves me, that I am no longer. He was about to stand up when I suddenly grabbed him and hugged him tightly.
I apologized a few times but he did not speak. I just heard him crying and slowly hugged me too.
"Still I love you.."
"Even just one day ... make me feel that you love me," I added while closing my eyes in pain.
"Even just one day ... after that, I will really let you."
I added again while now looking at him. It hurts to think that this is what will happen. He was still surprised by what I said but his face also cleared up later. I can see myself now that I'm begging.
"Are you sure?"
"Yes .."
"Alright, deal. Just one day pretending that we're together."
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I woke up to the sound of my repeated ringtone sighing with a caller, it was seven o'clock in the morning. Maybe it's Ricky because there's another meeting and I'm obviously going to be late again.
I took the phone from the side table and looked at who was calling, unknown number? Who is this? I immediately answered that.
"Good morning baby ..."
I was surprised when Iroul suddenly spoke?
"H-Ha? Baby?"
"Baby ... I'll fetch you on eight o'clock okay? Eat well baby, I love you."
I was still smiling at first but then I realized that it was all just pretending, my tears flowed at the thought, am I doing it right or is it stupid again? I wiped away the tears and went straight to the bathroom to get ready.
When I went downstairs, the food was served and mama and I were the only ones awake, I ate quietly and mama was not surprised either because I was really like that every day, since the day he left.
My food was cut off when my phone suddenly rang.
Iroul: Baby ... I'm on my way to your house.
Me: Can you just wait around the corner so that mama won't be surprised?
Iroul: Of course.
I quickly finished my meal and said goodbye to Mama, I walked to the corner because that's where we will meet. I was approaching when I immediately saw Iroul standing outside the car door and waiting for me to arrive, my tears seemed to drip again in this incident in case I thought I would just enjoy and make the most of every moment.
He was wearing a black polo and denim shorts, he was wearing shades and a mask. His mask used to say 'don't kiss me.' I laughed at what was happening because after this we will never meet again, though we will meet again but we don't seem to know each other anymore.
I noticed his watch, that's what I gave him for his birthday. Why did he sinout? As I approached he would greet me.
"You good look baby..."
It was nice to hear what he was saying but I still can't forget what happened after that. My smile faded as I looked at him, he did the same to me. It was as if sadness had filled my heart.
He even opened the door for me as usual.
"Maybe I'll get used to it?" I joke when I said that.
He also looked at me seriously because of that. I just smiled fakely and looked at the road. He just calmed down and focused on the road.
He pressed the audio and someone checked it, I just looked at every move he made there and someone pressed a music.
Our love song we used to sing, and now I'm singing alone.
"You sheltered me from harm
Kept me warm,
kept me warm.
You gave my life to me
Set me free,
set me free
The finest years I ever knew
Were all the years I had with you.."
I didn't know that I sang so hard after the last lyrics, he was still laughing because I was still singing.
He is still alive, he looks like he will sing in the chorus.
"And I would give anything I own
Give up my life, my heart, my home
I would give everything I own
Just to have you back again "
"Just to have you ... back again ...." I said emotionally.
He was stunned by what I said, I smiled at him raw. He parked and opened the door for me again, we were here again at the restaurant we used to eat at, I sighed first before he held my hand.
I was still surprised by what happened but I just ignored it and also held his hand and arm. The waiter approached us, there were people whispering but we just ignored it because we enjoyed each other more.
"Oh my god! Is Felionce again ?!" The waiter laughed.
I just laughed and Iroul just smiled at us, the majority will not lose sight of me because maybe we are together now.
"Issue again ..." I muttered weakly when our waiter left.
"That will not go away."
"Are you sure about this? They're talking about us." I whispered to him.
"Hmm, for closure?"
"F-For closure."
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The sun was setting, I was tired today because of what we did, we both enjoyed it. We are here at People's park in the sky, located in Cavite. The sun is setting and and the color is orange or yellow of the sky.
The lands are so vast, you can see them all. There is fresh air and airy surroundings. He parked on the grass, he said he could park there so it's okay, we didn't take a room anymore because we wouldn't spend the night here. We were lying in front of his car, we were gasping for breath because of our conversations everywhere.
"I'm enjoying this you know ..." he laughed while looking at me.
"But this will end." He added that it stopped me.
"Yeah ..."
"You're a good memory of mine."
I just looked at him now very seriously. I looked at him carefully, I looked closely at his eyes in case they were still looking for me, but sadly they didn't. As of now, I knew that he don't love me anymore. I just smiled.
"I have a favor ..."
"What's it?"
"Can I kiss you? For the last time?"
He stopped at what I said and his eyes widened in shock, I was just shaken and forced to forget what was said. I was about to speak in case he suddenly approached me and pressed my jaw and kissed me.
I returned his kisses that now went down my neck, it was getting dark and I was almost naked when he pulled my tube down.
He suddenly loaded me and put me in the back seat of the car. I don't know how I feel right now, fun, pain. Am I doing it right? I lost my mind when he suddenly tightened the rest of my blanket.
The only thing that I knew that night is he thrust deeper and faster that makes my mind wilder. It's a bit crowded here in his car but nothing can stop us now, I bit my lip so hard when our eyes met.
"I'm cumming ..."
"Let's cum together baby ..."
He cum inside that shocks me, We have no protection! He came over to me while panting, we were both tired. I do not know because I am very happy tonight.
"I love you ..."
My heart softened at what he said. I hugged him tightly because of that. I can't believe what is happening.
"I love you too."
"I love you so much Suzette ..."
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