New school year, new class, new subjects but I still feel at home because we are still altogether except that Sherwin is no longer with us. He left for the States with his family a few weeks before we start this year's class. Although, I know I should be expecting not to see him when we get to the class but somehow I am still hoping and praying for a miracle that he changed his mind and decided to stay.
As this is another school year and students from previous class were evaluated from their performances last year, we should expect there will be new faces to join us and be ready that there will be some of us will be moving out as well. My brother and I were very fortunate that we are again part of the morning and model section because of our good performance last year.
Most of us are welcoming to additions of new students who will be joining us but we are also shocked and saddened by the departure of some of our classmates who are going to move out and join the other class.
At the moment, I am not sure whether it is better to know ahead of time that someone close to you is going to leave or is it better that it will just surprise you on the spot when someone has to leave. I really can't tell the difference because both are painful and sad to bear.
I am still recovering from Sherwin's departure at the moment when I learned the news that my bestfriend – Joseph is no longer part of the class and he was moved to the next section. Apparently, his GPA from last year did not meet the standards and requirements to be part of the model section in this year's class. That is why when I came to the class he was not there. I was not expecting it; actually, nobody is expecting it. Today, I am supposed to be happy and excited because it is the first day of our junior high but I have never felt so disappointed and sad until today.
During the mid morning break, I was in a hurry to leave the room and tried to check on Joseph in the next classroom. Their class was not yet dismissed at that time but Joseph saw me from where he was sitting that I am waiting for him in the door. I waived at him and he waived back as well but he immediately goes back chatting to his seatmates. For some reasons, I can sense that he is pretending to be busy and cannot be bothered that I am waiting for him to finish their class. My friends push me away and grab me in my arms and said to get our meals before the canteen becomes busy. I tried to get Joseph's attention and signal him to see me in the canteen after their class but he was not looking. So my friends and I left for the canteen and I thought I would still see him anyway.
After the break, we all went back to our classroom and I totally forgot that I am waiting for Joseph. It is not that I don't care about him anymore but my friends and I were all caught up in our school break's stories. But before I headed back to the classroom I passed by Joseph's classroom first and see if he is also back as well. I saw him there and having his meal in his desk with his seat mates and asked myself if he left the room at all or misunderstood me earlier that I would like to see him during the break.