"In the process of letting go, you will lose many things from the past, but you will find yourself." -Deepak Chopra
I was unable to sleep, my body was so anxious about seeing Matthew in court later today.
I wanted this to be over, I wanted him to leave me alone. I needed to see the back of him. I'm really hoping that this order will give me a peace of mind or at least a tiny peace of it.
I twisted and turned in bed, turning on my side, i peaked at the clock. It's only 5:30 am, my hearing starts at 9:00 am. To say I wasn't nervous, was an understatement. My gut was twisting to the point I felt I would pass out.
I got out of bed and made a beeline for the bathroom. I never made it to the toilet, I had to empty my stomach in the sink. I soon felt warm hands on my back, rubbing on circles.
"It's ok babe, I'm here." Dwight said trying to comfort me.
"No, please-go away." I said, I didn't want him to see me puking my guts out.
"I'm not going anywhere." He said as he continued to rub circles on my back.
After I was finished, I brushed my teeth and washed my face. He then took my into his arms, wrapping me into a tight embrace. I felt his lips on my head.
He stepped away and looked in my brown eyes. "I love you." He said as he took my face into his hands. He placed a tender kiss upon my lips, sealing what he just told me.
I opened my mouth to tell I loved him too, but I couldn't utter the words back, it wouldn't pass my lips. My subconscious kicking and screaming, wanting to repeat the words he said.
"You don't need to tell me just because I told you, tell me on your own. When it's the right time, the words will freely slip from your lips." He kissed me again and I enveloped him a hug.
"Do you want to go back to bed?" He asked.
"No I won't be able to sleep. I going to make breakfast."
"It's way too early for breakfast." He said after a chuckle.
"Nope, it's the perfect time." I said walking in the direction of the kitchen.
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At 8 o'clock, Dwight pulled into the parking lot of the court house. We saw Matthew, his lawyer and Aaron walking towards the entrance of the court house.
He looked over to the car and blew a kiss at me. I turned my head and put my hands over my face. I was now a nervous wreck. My hands started to shake, Dwight noticing my nervousness, he took my hands in his.
"Hey, I'm here. Everything will be ok."
I took a few deep breaths to calm myself. Once I was calm, I whispered a thank you to him.
You're welcome. When you're ready, we'll go.
"Thank you." It took a few minutes for me to gather myself. I grabbed my folder from the back seat- that contained all my evidence against Matthew.
Stepping out of the car, I fixed my blazer. I blew out a breathe and turned to Dwight, I stretched my hand towards him, which he took.
"Let's go, I'm ready." I saw.
Stepping into the court house, we went to the clerk, Elizabeth Bathmore. She looked up from her desk when she saw us approaching.
"Good morning, how can I help you?"
"Good morning, I'm here for my court hearing."
"What's your name?" She asked.
"Amelia Banks."
"Ok, Miss Banks, you can have a seat and wait until your name is called. When it's called you can go into the court room on the right."
"Thank you."
At exactly 10:00 am my name was called. We both got up from our chairs and proceeded inside the court room.
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Matthew and his lawyer was sitting to the left and I sat on the right. The judge: The Honourable John Penny of Crenshaw's Civil Court, address: 21 Maximum Street, Glendale Drive, Crenshaw, now presides.
The judge had salt and pepper hair, he looked to be about 64 years of age. He had a stern look on his face. He looked at me then over to Matthew.
He deep voice boomed across the court room. "The court calls the case of Amelia Banks verses Matthew Gwep. Good morning everyone. You may be seated. Are you ready to proceed today?"
Matthew and I answered simultaneously, "Yes, your honour."
The judge continued. "Will you both be testifying today?"
I answered first. "Yes your honour."
Then Matthew answered. "Yes, your honour."
"Then you both need to be sworn in." Judge Penny said. The clerk got up from her seat and asked if I please take the stand. I placed one hand on the bible, while the other was raised and after the clerk was finished reciting her line. I said I do.
The judge then turned to me and said, "Miss Banks, you may proceed."
"Thank you, your honour. My name is Amelia Banks, I have known Mr Gwep for over 10 years, I total we dated for about 4 years and a few months on and off. We did not live together, but he was frequently at my residence."
I took a breathe and continued.
"On Monday June 3, I called Matthew asking him to come over so we could talk. He got there at exactly 7:00pm. I told him I wanted to break up with him because I didn't see him in future. He cursed and then left. On Saturday June 8, I got home in the night and I found a note in my apartment that said, 'I have my eyes on you Amelia.'
I freaked out because I knew it was Matthew. A few days later I was in my apartment and I found a necklace that Matthew had given me, a few years back. I felt cold and numb because he was again in my apartment after I broke up with him."
I tried not to look at him while I was talking, his cold stare was penetrating my face like a laser beam.
"I called him and told him to return the key to my apartment, he never did. He has been stalking me at work, running errands and when I'm out with my friends. Even when I'm at home, he's spying on me, he can tell me what I'm doing, when I'm doing it, when I'm in my apartment. I had to move in with my current boyfriend, Dwight Pryce. He, Matthew, has been coming to my work, harassing me and he even kissed and bit my lip a few days ago, I had to run and rinse my mouth because it was bleeding. I have photos of my lip, I also have the note and necklace he left in my apartment."
"Miss Banks, you have to show the photos, note and necklace to Mr Gwep first. Bailiff can you please assist Miss Banks." He took the photos, note and necklace and showed it to Matthew.
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