Chapter 21
(Mikan's POV)
***Shin's Residence
I just went out from Yuna's house...I saw her, still wearing the same uniform as mine standing outside holding her bag with both hands down, over to her lap.
-huh! She is still standing there. Don't tell me she just waited here all this time?
I walked towards her to approach her.
"Are you still here because you cannot trust me?"
I said teasing her.
She turns around to face me. She looks at me excitedly like she has been wanting to ask me something but her expression change then she turns her eyes away.
"Is she mad at me?"
She asked shyly with her face blushing.
She is so vocal about her feelings to Yuna but when it comes to other things it's really hard for her to express herself properly.
I sigh...
I'm really surprised when she went to approached me this morning to go see Yuna.
***flashback
She asked me to see her on the rooftop of our school. So I went here.
"Why do you want to talk to me?"
I asked a bit annoyed at her.
She looks directly into my eyes.
"I heard Yuna did not return to school after what happen earlier and I don't know where to look for her."
"So...I don't understand why you come to see me? Let me remind you, I am still your rival you know."
I sneered at her.
She keeps her poker face as she looks at me and speaks to me.
"I know you don't like me but I need your help to see Yuna."
She asked without any hesitation in her eyes. I really hate her guts. Does she really think I would want to help her? And did she just forget what she did earlier?
"Don't you have any regrets declaring your love for her? Everyone may not understand and accept your love. Have you realize how much trouble this may cause."
She sighs and closes her eyes then she raised her head to look at me.
"All I want is to be with Yuna. As long as I can be with her I don't really care about other things."
She said with a serious look then she turns her glance on the side.
"I saw her so hurt earlier when her ex-boyfriend declared his feelings for me. The only thing in my mind that time is I just want her to know that she is the only one I love."
She said clenching her fist.
She is so serious about her. She really loves Yuna.
I admit one of the reasons I keep my feelings for Yuna to myself is because I still don't know how will I face Yuna and others if they know. I am jealous that she just made up her mind because she just wants to be with her only.
"Please I need your help, I really need to see Yuna..."
She pleaded while she bowed towards me.
This really surprised me. Where did her cold and proud attitude go?
"Huh! I see how desperate you are so I will help you..."
I said to her crossing my arms over my chest...
Besides I also need to talk to Yuna.
***end of flashback
She waited here for almost four hours to ask how is Yuna. How will I tell her that the Yuna she fell in love with is different to the Yuna now?
"Yuna fell sick that is why she did not return to school earlier."
I just have to lie for the meantime because after all I still don't want to see her hurt. Am I being so nice to her?
"Is she okay? How is she? Is her condition really bad?"
She asked worriedly putting one of her hands in her chest clenching.
"Well, I can say her condition is really bad so it's better to leave her be at the moment."
All of a sudden Yuna got her heartbroken by the only person she loves since she was young. She is devastated. I'm afraid that she will do what her future self told me. She will ostracize herself from everyone because of this.
"Is it really just because she is sick? I feel she is different from before when she looked at me after I kissed her this morning."
Her face turns red then she looks away.
"What? You kissed her?"
I asked to my surprise. Surely Yuna was shocked. Suddenly kissed by a stranger moreover it's from another girl with whom her ex-boyfriend falls in love with.
"We are lovers so It's just natural we do that?" She said in a low voice.
I sigh...
You just don't know how this affects her.
"The way she looked at me earlier is different from before...her eyes are very different...does she said anything to you."
She said looking sad and worried while she still keeps her gaze on the side
"How can you tell the difference just by looking in her eyes? You only know her just for a short period of time."
She returns her gaze on me.
"I don't need to be with her for a long time to tell that the look in her eyes is different. I fell in love with her since the very beginning because she always has those caring and assuring look in her eyes but earlier..."
Now she looks like she almost wants to cry.
"I see... I do understand what you mean with that look in her eyes but do you trust her?"
I asked her straightforward.
She raises her head and looks into my eyes.
"I always trust Yuna. She always comes and finds me whenever I needed her most. There is no one else I want to be with aside on her."
She will surely be hurt if Yuna from the future will not return. This is so complicated. What if she will never come back? How will current Yuna face her?
"Yuna is not on herself at the moment but I'm sure once she gets better she will come to see you."
The Yuna from the future fell in love with you so I hope the present will be too...so that you can save her from her misery and she will be happy as well just like her future self when she was with you.
"Thank you for helping me even after all the things that I did."
Eh! she is thanking me now properly. I guess I have to apologize to her now.
"Sorry if I act difficult towards you but that is because you are also so rude to me. Now you have proven to me that you really love my best friend...Uhm... you earn my respect. I guess it's not bad if we can also become friends."
"I see...this is how you make friends."
She said with a poker face.
"Hey, I'm really trying to be nice to you... So you just have to accept it."
-grrr!
Eh! is that hers?
Her stomach growled. I look at her but she looked away then there is an awkward silence between us.
"Do you want to eat now? I know a place near here that serves delicious ramen."
"I have to go, I have not informed Mr. Seiji where am I now so they are probably worried sick about me."
"I guess it will be a problem then. But I can't just let you go like this. Come with me first and you can ask them to pick you up there."
I grab her right hand and force her to go with me.
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Yuna's POV
I am so confused and still don't know what to do. I sat on my table inside my room where I usually sit to study. I just grab my notebook to look at it but I got surprised at what I saw inside. I tore that page from my notebook then I ran out of my room.
I went to Akira's house immediately to see him.
I can't let things like this.
I worriedly waited outside their gate. The moment he came out I embrace him tightly. I can't stop crying.
"Yuna what is the problem?"
I released him from my embrace and move to distance myself from him.
I wipe my tears with my right hand. While I hid my left hand behind me.
"Are you okay Yuna? You surprised me."
I really love you and I don't want to lose you but is it true?
"Have you ever love me?"
I asked him with tears still flowing from my eyes.
Do I really want to hear his answer?
"Yuna, you came here all of a sudden to asked me that? We already broke up, right?"
We've been together since we are young...so I don't understand.
"Are you not really happy with me? Am I right that you never love me?"
"Yuna... Please don't get me wrong. I like you Yuna. I don't want to hurt you that is why I accepted your feelings."
"Akira you never love me..."
I look at him. I wipe my tears from my eyes.
"Sorry if I came here all of a sudden to ask you this. I just need to have a clear answer from you."
I turn around but he grabbed my left arm.
"Yuna is it true? About you and Lure..."
My eye caught a glimpse of the paper I've been holding since I went here.
I just remember what was written there. It's written by my future self.
(Akira never loves me but I have Lure who loves me sincerely...I really love her as well.)
I look intently into his eyes.
"Akira, I love her..."