Chapter 22
Yuna's POV
"Yuna is there anything wrong?"
"Baby you can talk to us..."
I just came home crying after meeting Akira. My mom and Dad asking me while continuously knocking from the outside of my door.
The pain in my heart became so unbearable. I just want to cry it out. Since I was a child I've been dreaming a life being with him. Be his wife and have his child. It's my life long dream since the day I became close to him. He is my best friend, my first love, and the one I cared most in this world. I thought when he became my boyfriend....finally my dream has come true. I don't know how will I go on now. I love him so much...
I've been crying for hours now. I feel my head is beating in pain and my eyes are swollen but my tears still continuously dripping from my eyes. I sat in my bed and embrace my pillow tightly.
I want to forget everything. I want to run away from this place. What if I ask my parents if we can leave this place? We only stay here just because I asked. If not because of my scholarship and Akira I won't enroll in my school now.
I move my head around my room and I saw again the notebook I just tore earlier just on top of my table. I suddenly remember my last words to Akira before we separate.
"Akira, I love her..."
Those are just words to spite him. I throw my pillow at my bedside.
What should I do now?
My eyes reverted back to my notebook.
My future self wrote to me in that notebook...and now I just want to know more about what other things she wrote for me.
I force my body to stand and walk towards my table to grab my notebook then I return to my bed and sit there. I stare at my notebook. There is a message on its cover.
"Please read this!"
I did not notice this earlier. I slowly lift the cover and continue reading what my future self wrote for me.
"Hi, my past self...I don't know where to start. If you are reading this it means I am back in the future. I don't know when this day will come but I just thought to write to you because I know from where I start taking over your body there is a big change now in your life.
It surprises you right? Me too I never imagine to re-live this time but the time I stay here is the best moments of my life. I will never know what I missed if I haven't given this chance. My life was full of misery after highschool. That's because I was too focused on moving forward. Wanting to forget the past. Keep on running away from everything, thinking that starting over again will make me happy.
I realize all that I did are all meaningless and very wrong. I learned a lot while I am here.
How I just wish I could stay in this time and continue my life here but I still can't stop worrying... what if I suddenly return in my own time...I'm sure it will hurt so much to the person I love now.
This is why I am writing this letter hoping you will be able to read this and understand why I love her.
Have you met her? I hope not so sudden...but I also hope you get to know her more.
I haven't told her I love her because I'm afraid that things will only return to how it is...
What if I told her then suddenly I return to my time. I wish that time will never come but one thing I learn in re-living this time...I will never know what will my future be, so I just have to hope for a good one. Running is not an option. Still, the best way to move forward is to face what I am feared of...
I paused for a moment...
The next page here is the one that I tore. I already lost it.
I think I dropped the page somewhere when Akira grabbed me.
I haven't finished reading that page yet because I was so hurt when I found out Akira never love me.
Can't do anything about the page I lost. I will just continue reading...
"I know what you feel now. It's very hard to forget him. I've been there. It took me more than ten years to do that.
I know it may seem impossible but you will be able to move on, just please...don't be stupid again and choose to run away like what I did.
Please face things no matter how painful they are because that is the only real way, you will be able to move forward...
You have good friends on your side. Mikan will always support you no matter what and Lure if you will know her more I'm sure you will like her as well as much as I do.
Please, please, please don't hurt her..."
My future self might be so in love with her...
She wrote this to help me accept what is currently happening.
I hope it is as easy as that...
***Next Morning
Mikan's POV
(At school)
She's still absent today...
I just stare at her vacant seat.
This is not good for her. If she fail she will not be able to attend the National Karate Championship. She will lose her scholarship at the same time. What should I do to help her?
(Hallway...)
"Waaah seeing them standing together side by side is amazing. The president and most all the beautiful top student ***(eyes sparkling)"
"Oh man, they are both too great in beauty and lots of things. For two of them to exist together is a fantasy for all men. The strong, smart, and ever-impressive president who manages to lead our school since her first year and the very beautiful and also super smart, super-rich top student. Since she enters our school no one can take the number one spot from her."
"Yuna is so lucky to have both of them in her side...now I feel so down just by thinking about it!"
"I wonder what they see on her? She is just an ordinary girl."
I accidentally bump to Lure in the hallway.
Hearing what these other students are saying irritates me...
These guys are so shallow. I can't take it anymore.
"Excuse me for a moment..."
I said to Lure standing in front of me.
I turn around and approach those stupid guys talking about us.
"Hello, Miss President..."
They greeted me with their face blushing.
I flipped my long straight red hair in front of them. They are all mesmerized by me.
Then I glare at them...
"Who said Yuna is just an ordinary girl?"
I asked with my face darkened and with a sharp eyes.
They all get frightened and began shaking...
"Tell me who said that?"
Two boys pointed to the other boy on their right.
I turn my sharp eyes on him and look at him so intensely.
"Those are all lies. Yuna is so beautiful both inside and outside. She has this overflowing cuteness that no one can equal and Yuna is also very strong...so how can you say she is just an ordinary girl."
The guy took aback.
"But guys don't like strong girls!"
He exclaimed.
"But do you think girls will like a weak and airheaded guy like you? You are just so insecure that a very cute girl wins over the girl in your fantasy. Just live with it. Yuna is far greater than you..."
I stressed out bending towards him with both of my hands holding my hip to make sure this guy get my point.
"Is there any problem Mikan?"
A familiar voice called so I straighten up my back and look behind this guy.
It's Aoi and who is this huge guy behind him again? I forgot who is he.
"I am just teaching other students to respect others."
I glare back to that student I'm talking with.
"Do you have any problem with that?!!!"
I said to him with a threatening look. This guy looks so startled.
"Why what they are talking about?"
"They are badmouthing Yuna..."
-Thud! (Punch...)
The huge guy punches the locker behind the guy I am talking with. He is so strong. His punch went through there and left a-hole...
"Tell me who badmouthed my Yuna. I will make sure he will no longer be able to say any words again."
The guy I'm talking with earlier turned white as a paper. He looks like his soul just scapes out from his body.
"You idiot! You should not break the school properties. How many times do I have to teach you to control your strength."
"Sorry Captain!"
The huge guy bowing towards Aoi.
Hai! I tap my head with my palm. Then once more I glare at this guy.
"I will let you go this time but the next time I caught you talking anything bad about Yuna I will make sure you will experience hell..."
I said intently looking at him and then flipped my hair as I turn around.
***
Akira's POV
"They are making a scene again."
Toji said looking to both Mikan and Lure.
Toji and I standing a bit far from them.
"Such a waste for Lure to fall in love with Yuna... And I don't understand why she falls in love with a girl...tsk!"
I was surprised last night when Yuna went to see me crying.
She acted strangely again from before. I never imagine things will end up like this for both of us.
I abhor her much more than before. Lure should be with me...
I pull up a crumpled paper from my pocket and look at it