lex's Point of ViewIt's been two weeks since that thing happened between me and Darren. I don't know how to approach him. That day, I wanted to stay beside him but I don't know what to say when he already woke up. I became a coward. Afraid of every commitment.More than 2 months na rin pala ang aming project. Konting kembot na lang ay matatapos na kami. Makakawala na ako kay Timothy and I can have a time for myself too. I want to move on. We're hopeless.Nandito ako ngayon sa venue ng launching ng aming project kasama si Venice. I want to watch their rehearsal to ensure that everything is going to be smooth. Nakaupo ako sa harap ng stage.Alas nuwebe na pero hindi pa rin nagsisimula. Nakailang mansanas at yakult na ako rito. Pakiramdam ko'y tataba ako kakahintay sa pagsisimula nila.Mayamaya pa'y nakita ko si Venice na naglalakad patungo sa akin."Ba't hindi pa kayo nagsisimula?" bungad ko sa kaniya."We've got a problem awhile ago at the backstage. We just discovered that one of our models is pregnant. So we called a new model. We're just waiting for her.""Okay. No problem. At least, problem solved already.""Yeah. She's here by the way."Tumayo ako at sinundan ang tinitignan ni Venice.At pakiramdam ko'y nawala lahat ng dugo ko sa katawan nang makita si Darren habang nasa tabi niya ang kaniyang little sister na si Natasha. Natasha is a 17 years old girl. Senior high school and she's just 5'2 in height. She's a cutie model in Asia. Cute, wild and fierce. That's her."Waaaah! Ate Alex, I miss youuuu!"Muntik pa akong matumba dahil bigla niya akong dinamba. Mabuti na lang at mabilis si Darren na naalalayan ako."I miss you too, Shasha!"Humiwalay siya sa yakap at tinitigan ako. "Hmmm. . .I've been texting you, ate. Why you're not answering?""I'm just busy, Shasha."Shasha pouted. "Okay, ate. Maybe next time you can have time to bond with me."I nodded. Tumingin naman ngayon si Natasha kay Venice."Good morning, Ven! Let's go?"Ngumiti naman si Venice."Yeah. Kanina ka pa namin hinihintay." Tumingin siya sa amin ni Darren. "Maiwan muna namin kayo rito."Nauna nang naglakad si Venice patungo sa backstage at kaagad namang sumunod si Shasha.Nailang naman ako kaya dahan-dahan akong umupo. Tumabi naman sa akin si Darren.Napahinga ako ng malalim saka pinilit na batiin siya. "H-hi."He looked at me sharply. "Don't try to talk to me like nothing happened, Alex."I was taken aback by his words. "S-sorry. It's just that. . .""I am willing to take responsibility for everything. I don't want to consider it as. . . as one night stand. From now on, I will court you whether you like it or not."Napalunok naman ako. Saka nagbukas ulit ng bagong yakult at tinungga iyon."Look, Darren. You doesn't have to take responsibility for it. Besides, wala namang nabuo. You doesn't needt court me at all. I'm fine. I just want us to be as is.""Alex!"Napapikit naman ako sa bigla niyamg pagsigaw. Hindi ko alam pero pakiramdam ko'y gusto ko nang umiyak dito."What's happening here? Are you two fighting?" Napamulat ako nang marinig ang boses na iyon. It's Timothy.I feel relieved that he arrived. But when I looked at him, my forehead creased. Bakit parang nakakainis ang mukha niya ngayon?Napasinghot naman ako dahil sa malakas niyang pabango. And when I smelled it, I slapped my hand to my mouth.I think I'm gonna throw up. Shit! What's his perfume? It's disgusting.Tumakbo kaagad ako patungo sa cr at naramdaman ko naman ang pagsunod sa akin ni Darren. Naiwan siya sa labas at ako lang ang pumasok.Nagsuka ako roon nang nagsuka habang tinatanong ako ni Darren kung okay lang ako. Hindi ako sumasagot.Nakakapanghina magsuka.Nang lumabas ako'y inabutan niya ako ng tubig pero umiling ako. "I want yakult," I ordered.He looked at me meaningfully and grab me by the hand."We need to go to the hospital," he said seriously while dragging me.I saw Timothy with worried face but I just rolled my eyes at him. He's face is annoying."Darren, I want yakult first. Please. . ." I pleaded.He stopped and looked at me again."Well just stopped by a grocery on our way to hospital."I giggled. "I want many," I said gleefully."No problem," he answered, smiling at me. Then he kissed me on my forehead.