S U M M E R
*buzz*
*buzz*
*buzz*
My phone vibrates.
I lower my head blushing by our position. We were so close. He was so close. I was so close.
I go to my pocket and pull out my phone to see 7 missed calls from Sami and Chloe including 3 SMS form her and 5 from him.
How the hell have I not noticed them??
First I answer their texts saying I'm alright and not to worry. Then I call Sami first.
"Are you alright?" He blurts out.
"Good morning to you too." I greet with a small weak chuckle.
"Sorry, hi. But are you alright? What happened last night?"
"Don't worry 'bout it. Matt dropped me off home."
"Are you in school right now?"
"Yeah." My voice is low.
"Don't listen to any bullshit they say, okay Summi? They don't know any single fucking thing!" Anger radiates from his voice.
"I know, Sami." Small smile graces my lips from the caring that oozes through his tone.
"You better. I'm guessing Matt is with you."
"Yes, he is."
"Say hi for me and I will see you at break, okay?"
"Yeah. Thanks, Sami."
"No problem." I hang up.
"Sami says hello." I deliver the message to Matt who is leaning against a locker looking like one freaking damn hot model with a fitted denim ripped jeans, a plain white t-shirt and holding his black backpack in one shoulder as well as folding his arms around his chest - his biceps flex making my eyes waver from his face to his arms, so freaking damn hot - he rested his left ankle onto his right.
Hot. Hot. Hot. Hot.
"Hello to him too. Shouldn't you be calling Chloe now?" He chuckles noticing me gawking on him. My face becomes tomato red as I blush.
I stick my tongue out at him and dial Chloe. Childish, I know.
"Where are you right now?" She screams.
"I'm at my loc..."
"I'm on my way." She hangs up on me. I look up to Matt my eyes widen by her.
"What did she say?"
"She is-"
"Have you been crying?!" She shouts as she makes her way to me and Matt. I shake my head denying the accusation.
"Don't you lie to me!" She come to us and greets Matt with a fast flashy smile and turns to me, her whole sweet expression gone now replaced by angry and worried.
"Their all worthless bitches." She engulfs me in a tight hug.
"I know." I hug her back.
"So you want to skip today or...?"
"No. Not for them." I reply looking at Matt who has a proud smile.
"That's my girl!" Chloe chirps.
I swear I heard the same exact words from Matt but in a low whisper. I'm his girl.
:::
Lunch,
"Thank you, Sami." Sam has been telling me non-stop that 'those rumor thirsty hoes don't know any shit that happened, their just jealous skunks who don't have time to do better things than talk 'bout bs.'
I lower my head and munch on my pizza. I feel a tap on my shoulder, I look at Matt who is next to me but he was looking behind me. I turn around to the person that changed Matt's mood so quickly. He is sending a dagger like stares to them.
Drake.
What is he doing here?!
"Drake look-"
"Just let me talk for a chance," He crouches down and looks at me as he explains.
"Why did you run out on me?" His eyes are filled with hurt and curiosity.
"What kinda question is that?!" He doesn't get to be hurt here, I'm the one who got hurt and humiliated, me. Not him.
"Just... please answer my question, please."
"Because you have a freaking girlfriend. And you fucking kissed me back anyways!" I respond furiously.
"Well, in that case, I defiantly don't have a girlfriend. Totally single." He smirks at the last part. I sense relief from him which only makes me confused.
Then why did Kelly yell at me?
"Summer, I really like you." He speaks his cheeks coating with a hint of red shades.
Wait, WHAT?
DID HE JUST...
Oh my gosh!
Drake lowers his face, I hear a small nervous chuckle, "Well, I have liked you for a long time. And last night when we kissed it was really..."
He brings his head up coming closer to me slowly, "I really enjoyed the kiss." He shows me his winning smile, his cheeks still bright and flustered.
I can totally tell that my cheeks are bloody rose red too.
The boy I had a crush on had a crush on me too. We were crushing on each other.
Couldn't this get any complicated now.
But did I really like him?
What about Matt?
"On that note, I would like to ask you on a date. Is tonight okay?" He asks looking in my eyes.
I part my lips to answer but blank. Nothing. I am still shocked. How did this handsome boy have a crush on me?!
"Umm..." Is all that comes out.
I turn to my side to at Matt, but he isn't there. I look next to him, Chloe. She understood my question and tosses her head to the cafeteria's exit direction. I move my eyes to see Matt flirting with Gina.
One of Kelly's squad but she is actually decent and sweet in her own way. She is also may I add gorgeous with a curvy figure and the total package, any guys dream girl. To top it off she is also a flexible cheerleader.
Seeing Matt and her laughing and flirting makes me... makes me feel angry, disappointed, heartbroken, torn to pieces. I quickly look away.
I was jealous. JEALOUS.
Drake might have seen the hurt in my eyes because he started babbling out non-sense and telling me that it was okay if I didn't want to go on the 'stupid' date he suggested.
I put my hands on his making him stop, "No, no, no. I would love to go on a date with you." I smile.
Is it wrong of me to go out with a boy who actually has feelings for me than wait for someone who doesn't feel the same?
Is it wrong:
For me to go out with a guy that I liked? To give myself a break? A chance with another boy?
For me to go out with Drake to:
Experience something new?
Enjoy myself?
See if we could work?
Get my mind off of him?
To just try to let go because it hurt too much?
Because I need a break. And seeing him with Gina makes me too jealous and hurt. Can't I have a choice to give someone, a chance to make me feel special?
I don't want to dwell on something that's not going to happen.
I don't.