S U M M E R
My mood completely changed after I sent that message.
I'm out at a dinner with Drake. He was sitting across from me when Matt called. I couldn't pick up because him my mom has called four time before him and I picked them all up - annoying the hell out of me - and I felt like I was ruining the date.
Now, Drake has excused himself to the bathroom leaving me alone with my chocolate milkshake.
I phone Matt, he picks up on second ring.
"Hey." His voice radiating warmth.
"Hey yourself, sorry about the call before."
"Nah, you were busy with Drake, I think." His voice becomes distant when he mentioned Drake.
"Yeah." I drag.
"So why did you call, everything okay?" I question.
"Everything's fine. I just... um.... never mind."
"Are we keeping secrets now?" I lightly tease.
"Nothing like that, beautiful. I'll just talk to you later."
"Okay then, I'll text you when I get home."
"Yeah, bye beautiful."
"Bye."
"So where were we," Drake approaches with a smug smile on his face.
I got to know about his parents. His mom is a nurse and his dad is a businessman who is very successful. His big brother - Jackson - is in uni at Denmark and his little sister, Valeria is an 8 year old little 'angel-devil' he said.
They sounded lovely. He told me that Valeria wants to meet me sometime which brought up a smile on my face. He showed me a picture of her - she has the similar facial features as Drake. Her eyes crystal blue, she was so cute and adorable. We also talked about where we wanted to go, our future plans, embarrassing moments.
Every now and then he would complement me making me flustered every damn time. All in all it was nice.
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Drake threads our fingers together as we sit in his car in front of my house.
"You are amazing." He says for the hundredth time.
"Thank you and so are you." I respond back with red cheeks. They don't seem to get tired of being red.
"I really like spending time with you." He brings our hand to his lips and kisses the back of mine.
"Me too." We have been sitting in his car for some while now, looking at the time that reads 9:11pm.
"I better get you inside so that I could take you out for late night date sometimes." He just gives me a simple sweet smile which mushes me inside.
He is thinking of taking me out on late night dates, that's so sweet.
His smile is so beautiful. Those pearly white teeth but... Matt's they are like white crystals.
The fuck you doing Summer?!
I bring out my head from that wishing well located deep inside my hopeful heart.
No good of a heart, it just wants what it can't get - Matt.
STOP. STOP. STOP. STOP IT.
We walk to my front door, he gives me a heart filling good night kiss and I get inside as he drives home.
"Mom, dad I'm home." Walking in the living room. I see dad watching the news whilst mom is on her laptop, both cuddling together. So cute.
"Hey hun, where were you?" Mom asks looking up from her laptop.
"I was with Drake." I answer with a low voice.
"Oh, you mean Drake Flynn, that cute football player?" Oh my god, mom!
"Yea, Drake Flynn." I confirm, I give her a too sugary sweet smile.
"Wait a minute," Dad's voice booms.
"Oh c'mon honey, don't over react. She is 17, she needs to have fun and go on dates. Loosen up." She lightly smacks his shoulder.
I straightly dash to the stairs giggling along the way because of my dad's reaction. I don't want his lecture right at the moment.
"Summer, we aren't done yet." I shut my door a bit loud so they can hear.
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"So how was it?" Chlo asks all happy and bubbly wanting juicy details.
"It was..."
"C'mon spill." She eagerly asks.
"We were talking and flirting and then... Matt called." I tuck my strand hair behind my ear.
"I didn't pick up because Drake was having this look, a little irritated I guess. I sent him a quick message. It's just after that I felt... I don't know, I always pick up his call no matter be it day or night, but," I explain myself but at the same I can't explain myself.
"Are you doing the right thing, Summi?" Her eyes hold softness in them, "I know you have feeling for Drake but I don't want to see you torn up between them."
"I don't know!" My voice sobs.
"I just want to, agh!" I sign as I get up from my bed and pace around the room.
"Summi, you just have to talk with Matt. Tell him the truth and trust me even if he says no he won't let your friendship break." She gets up as well and walks right up to me then gives me a tight hug. I hug her back equally, thanking for the support.
Would he though? I think to myself.
Would he let our friendship continue as if nothing happened?
Would he be the same?
Would we be the same?
But what if he loves me back? I just can't put out the hope which burns in my heart. That small glimpse, flickering light of hope which gets me going.
Can I tell him?
"Tell him when your ready, love." Chloe pulls back look at me.
"I just want to let it go, put it all on the table."
"You can." She hold my hand, squeezing it, "Whenever you're ready."
Whenever I'm ready. When will I be ready though?
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