Naiwan kami ni Diken.
He looks so bothered over something.
"Ah h-hon, l-let's eat?" He ask.
Pinangliitan ko sya ng mata.
He's hiding something
Or ..
He's avoiding something.
Hindi sya makatingin sa akin
"Oh! Nga pala where is the CCTV?" I ask. Bigla kong naalala.
I need to see that para matahimik ako.
"W-what C-CCTV?" Utal utal nyang sagot.
Oh. Tumaas ang kilay ko.
"You know what i am talking about HON!" I smirk at him.
"Hon you don't need to see it." Sabi nya.
"And why is that?" Tanong ko pabalik
"Because .. cause .. " he can even said the word completely.
"What did you do back then huh diken?" I ask.
I am getting mad every passing second.
May mga naglalarong scenario na sa isip ko.
At nakakapang ngalit ang mga yon!
Napabuntong hinina ito.
It looks like he really did something.
Parang hirap na hirap sya
"I don't get the point why are you so persistent to see that CCTV! maayos na tayo ngayon eh!" He said.
Aba ang loko!
"I need to see that. Because honestly right now, i have something in mind." Sagot ko.
He looks afraid.
"Andaming pumapasok sa isip ko. At sana lang mali lahat ng yon" pagpapatuloy ko.
"Dahil kung hindi, i don't know what to do anymore" i said
And left him with the kitchen.
Pumasok ako sa kwarto.
I started thinking.
Gusto kong mag isipan ang mga desisyon na gagawin ko if ever ngang mapanuod ko yun at may makita akong hindi maganda.
Please, self. Just this once, be matured enough.
Nakakapagod na kayang masaktan.
What did i do to deserve this?
And i feel that something is falling from my eyes.
Its wet.
My tears, its falling. Again.
I don't know know why i am so being emotional these past few days.
Hindi kaya .. ?
Oh god!
ITS been days since hindi ko sya pinapansin.
Ayaw kasi nyang ipakita sakin yung CCTV.
Pinagpipilitan nyang hindi na kailangan.
But i felt like i really need to see that.
At saka ewan ko ba, ayaw ko syang makita ngayon.
Naiirita ako! Naiinis ako!
Pero i miss him. Kahit ang lapit lapit lang nya.
I also start vomiting every morning.
Actually may idea na ako kaya gusto ko sanang i confirm.
Nakapag bihis na ako.
I want to go outside and buy a pregnancy test.
"Saan ka pupunta?" He ask in a cold voice.
Inirapan ko sya.
Nainis na ata sya saken.
I was about to open the door when ..
"Don't ever try to open that fucking door!" Utos nya.
"Minumura mo ba ako?" I ask.
Hindi sya nagsalita.
He looks mad.
"Teka, bakit parang galit ka? Inaano ba kita ha!" Tanong ko.
"Fuck! Wag mo akong artehan!" Sabi nya.
And it made me stilled.
"Artehan?" I smiled bitterly.
"Yun talaga ang tingin mo sa ginagawa ko ha?" Sarcastic kong sagot.
Hindi sya nakaimik.
Parang ngayon lang nya narealize ang sinabi na.
"H-hon .." he said.
But I was on the other hand, get hurt of what he said.
Tumakbo ako sa Guest room kung saan ako nag stay ng ilang araw na.
I know he can't open the door because i lock it inside.
And i cried.
Maarte naba talaga ako?
Umiyak lang ako ng umiyak hanggang sa mapagod ako.
Inayos ko ang mga gamit ko at nilagay sa maleta.
I call daddy.
"H-hello d-dad .." sabi ko pagkasagot nya.
"Are you crying Leigh?" He ask in a soft voice.
"I want to go home .. please." Pag mamakaawa ko.
"Okay. We'll talk here okay? Ipapasundo kita sa helicopter" sabi neto na pinatay ang tawag.
Maybe this is the best for the both of us.
I will confirm the truth, and tell it to my parents.
Kakausapin sila.
For now, ayoko muna syang makita.
Gago sya!