Hindi ko alam kung anong i rereact ko.
Pero isa lang ang alam ko.
I am mad.
Angry is an understatement to what i am feeling right now.
The scene in front is making me want to slap her face and and kick her ass!
How dare she kiss what's mine!
Nakakuyom na ang mga kamaoo ko.
I am trying to calm myself. I am pregnant.
Breath in. Breath out.
Breath in. Breath out.
"B-baby .. let's me explain okay?" Ani diken na hinarang na ang sarili sa may pintuan.
I just look at him.
Kailan ko ba naramdaman to?
Ah .. kay Lindy.
When i saw them together naked with one room.
"You better really explain it to me. Because i have two things in mind right now diken." Sabi ko.
"Wait -- diken who is this ugly woman?" The woman ask.
Aba't! Hinahamon ako neto ah.
"Ugly?" I ask.
"Yes. Who are you ba? Are you one of his whore?" Tanong nya na nakataas kilay pa
Hindi na ako nakapag pigil.
"Pak!" Tunog ng sampal ko.
She look shocked.
Yes, i slap her. Hard.
Nanakit pa ang palad ko dahil sa lakas ng pag kakasampal ko.
"Isa pang salita mula sayo, i won't hesitate to hurt you. And trust me girl, even diken can't stop me." I said in a very cold and serious voice.
"Baby .. you're pregnant" paalala ni diken
"P-pregnant?" The girl ask, wide eyes.
"Yes. She is. Our baby" diken answered straightly while looking at me.
"But .. i thought we we're about to get married?" Tanong ulit ng mahaderang linta.
I don't know pero parang mas masakit pa sa sampal ko sa kanya ang nararamdaman ko.
"Baby .. before you jump into conclusion, let me explain okay?" He said.
He tried to touch me but i shrug him away.
I don't know what to do.
I feel so lost.
He always say he will explain everything.
But still, I ended up hurting.
"Don't leave me. You won't right?" Sabi nya. Nag aalangan.
I walk through the sofa
And i sit there ..
Para akong mauupos na kandila.
Kailan ba'to matatapos.
I want to escape this.
Ayoko na.
Gusto ko ng sumaya.
Pero pano ba?
Diken is talking but i can't hear anything.
Its like i have my own world.
My pain.
"Baby!" I hear him shouted before everything got black.
But one thing is sure ..
I want to be alone.
ITS been one week since i didn't see Diken
After what happened, we still did not talk about it.
I don't know, maybe its the pregnant thing but i did not feel any anger now.
I just purely miss him.
I want to touch him.
I want to feel him.
I want to see him.
I want to talk to him.
I want to smell him.
I have many things in mind and its all for him.
But when the woman cross my mind,
I feel sad.
Maybe he already chose her? I ask my myself.
But who is that woman?
In our 10 years, i didn't know that he is associated with that kind of woman.
Napabuntong hininga ako.
"Don't stress yourself." I heard my father say.
"D-dad .." Usal ko.
I feel like I'm crying right now.
And i cried.
Infront of my dad.
Kung hindi nyo nagagawa yun, ako din naman. Its my first time to cry infront of him.
"Hush, now Princess." He comforted me.
He hug me. And let me cry into his shoulder.
"Ang sakit sakit dad .." i said.
Beacause it is!
He made me look at him.
"Everything will be alright okay? Trust me. Just don't stress yourself." He said.
"Ahmm, dad .. Did you already know that I- I -'
I can't complete what i want to say.
"Yes, i already know" sagot nya.
Napayuko ako.
I don't want to see his dissapointment.
"And its okay. That bastard is really lucky" he said.
Well, it puzzle me, but i shrug it away.
"Hindi ka ba galit?" I ask.
I am afraid of him, i am afraid of my dad. Not because of he might hurt me, but I'm afraid I broke his trust.
"I am mad. But not at you. And, i also want to have an apo. I am not getting any younger" and it makes my heart filled with joy.
"Thank you dad" nasabi ko na lang.
"You rest, then we'll go" he ssid.
"D-did Diken .. Visit me?" I ask shyly.
"NO." He firmly said.
Means, don't ask.
I know my dad, He's angry.
Maybe this is the best for us?
Or is it really?