πΎππππππ‘π 21
Afraid
Bitbit ang baril, galit na galit akong naglalakad papasok sa apartment ng mga Fajardo. My jaw clenched as I gritted my teeth in so much anger I'm feeling right now. Diridiritso ang pasok ko sa apartment ng mga Fajardo, not minding those shrieking people inside the apartment because of my sudden entrance. I was like an angry beast, ready to attacked anyone who'll block my way, or even try to stop me.
Pagdating ko sa sala ng mga Fajardo, bumungad sa akin ang larawan ni Kerarah na nakalagay sa frame at may mga kandila sa tapat nito, it makes me more angrier than earlier. May nakasabit pa dito na garland na para sa taong namatay na, na mas lalong ikininit ng ulo ko. Without even thinking, hinablot ko ang garland at tinaob ang mga kandila dahilan para mamatay ang mga iyon.
"Ang lakas rin ng loob mong pumasok sa pamamahay ko at guluhin ang larawan ni Kerarah!" dumadagundong ang boses ng ama ni Kera kaya hinarap ko agad ito. Isang marahas na buga ng hangin ang ginawa ko.
"Don't you ever dare try to put that fucking garland and candles in Kera's picture again!""singhal ko kay Mr. Fajardo.
Galit rin ang mga mata nitong nakatitig sa akin, but I don't give a damn!
"And what if I'm not? You will kill me? Huh! You criminal!" Kera's father mocked me. I point my gun on Kera's father, making Mrs. Fajardo tremble in shock.
"C-Cadu---" Kera's mother's shaking voice as she called me. But I don't pay her my attention.
"Don't try my patience Sir. It's too short to be tested by you. I'm warning you, even if you are her father, I won't hesitate hurting you once I saw her crying again," may diing saad ko rito.
Tho, Mr. Fajardo just mock me, but I didn't show how I was in so much trouble right now. It's for Kera. All of this was for Kera.
Matapos akong bumili ng pagkain nito sa canteen ng hospital ay agad akong bumalik sa kwarto nito. Tinawagan kasi ako ng nurse na nagbabantay kay Kera na inatake na naman ito ng sakit sa ulo at hinimatay.
I was so devastated while looking at Kera's pale face. She looked so sick, and it breaks my heart.
"You can't stop me from putting a garland on Kera's picture! She's dead!" may pinalidad na saad nito. Di man lang ito natinag sa baril na itinutok ko.
"Sir, if you put that garland again to Kera's picture, I'll just hope Kera will forgive me. Because I'll surely be back here and shoot you," may bagsik na sabi ko.
"Coz I'm willing to kill, and died for her! So stop cursing her! She's already suffering!"
I left in Fajardo's apartment with a heavy heart. I just prayed that Mr. Fajardo will not put back the garlands, or else, hindi ko na mapipigilan ang sarili sa kung anoman ang magagawa ko.
"Hey, stop messing your IV!" puna ko kay Kera, habang kinukulikut nito ang IV na nakatusok sa kamay nito.
"This IV is itchy," reklamo nito at panay ang kamot malapit sa karayom na nakatusok. "I just want to go home," Kera heaved a sighed, making me stare at her.
"No, you're not yet okay," agad na kontra ko.
"I told you, I'm fine. I can go home," she even pouted her lips as she sashayed her hair.
"You're not fine. You need to rest."
"But-----," agad kong pinutol ang mga sasabihin pa sana ni Kera by assuring her.
"It's just a few more days. Then, I'll take you home," I assured her, kaya kahit nakanguso ito ay unti unti na rin itong ngumiti.
I keep on glancing to Kera's side while I'm drinking my coffee at the sofa. Seryoso kasi itong nagbabasa ng libro, kahit na kanina ko pa ito pinapatulog dahil malalim na ang gabi. Ilang minuto pa ay nakita nalang niyang bumagsak na ang librong hawak nito, at medyo nakanganga itong natutulog. Napailing nalang ako bago naglakad palapit sa kama at ayusin ito sa pag tulog.
My mind is wandering about what happen to Kera's father and me. I don't want to tell it to Kera. Ayaw kong magalit ito sa akin dahil sa pagbabanta ko sa buhay ng ama nito. But I can't just sit there, and let Kera's father curse her over and over again.
I'm afraid. I was so afraid, that her father's curse will happened. No! I can't deal with it. Not with Kera.
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