Ken's POV
Kahit gaano ko pang ka-gustong sagutin siya na mahal ko rin siya, hindi pwede. I don't want him to suffer, ako na lang.
I don't know if this is right, but it's all I could think of. I don't want him being so in love with me, then would be miserable when I am gone.
Bakit pa ba ako nagkaroon ng cancer?
Kung hindi lang, nayakap at nahalikan ko na sana ang aking minamahal. No one knows how much I want to feel his touch, his love and his kiss. I really want to be with him while fighting this but it is not that easy.
Slowly, I wiped away the tears on my cheeks, so that he won't noticed. I must pretend I forgot everything, I must show that I am not affected.
After that I let go of the hug, pat him on the shoulder. I flashed a smile, trying to make it genuine. Even though, I know it won't. "I can feel how much you love me. Thank you."
Then, someone cleared his throat and we saw Tito. Chandler spoke, "I'd like you to meet my father."
"... Your father. Good afternoon, Sir."
"Good afternoon, Ken. I was so shocked when I heard the news, and happy." He stated. Chandler touch my hand and I nodded. That's my cue to allow him.
They went outside, Chandler closed the door. I sighed. I'm sick of this already. I am hurting myself, and I know Chan as well but it is necessary.
Ahhh! My heart and mind are having a debate. My heart says that I should tell him the truth, that he will understand, that he'll still love me. While my mind says the consequences, the good idea of hiding it for Chandler.
Why is it so hard!?
I leaned back to the bed and yawned.
Chandler's POV
"I am really glad my future daughter in law is conscious now. I am happy for you, my son."
"Thanks, Dad." Daddy pat me on the back and hugged me. I cried again, and I hate it 'cause my eyes hurts now and I am always crying.
You must be strong, Chandler! You did this! You are the cause of all these! Don't cry, stop being like a child!
"Why, Chandler?"
"Dad, she has amnesia. She doesn't know me nor them. I doubt that I can live with this anymore."
"One thing, my child. Do not give up, there's more to come. Ngayon ka pa ba susuko? She needs you. Remind her the feelings she have for you. Don't give up!" Dad tighten his hug.
I don't know if I could do this but I don't want to disappoint my Dad, and Ken. "I'll try to fight, Dad." He nodded and said that he'll call my sister.
I came back in and I saw her fell asleep. Maybe she got tired by this day. It might be hard for me, but it is harder for her. How I wish I could get all the pains she feels right now.
I went nearer to her, and observed. She's thinner now and her breathing grew heavily. I remembered that only the dextrose gave her oxygen. She haven't eaten. Her Mom just clean her up everyday.
Her cheekbones are more visible, her lips are dry. I reached for a cotton and pour some water on it, then I wipe it on her lips. After doing those, I kissed her forehead, then hand. "I miss you so much. I am sorry for being weak. You need me, especially in a situation like this. I will always be here. I'll take care of you, bring you presents, help you recover fastly, and love you even in tough times. When you can not walk well, I'll be your feet. Just call me and I will be there. Your memories won't be the basis of my love for you. I will help you recall, if not, we'll make new memories. I will protect you no matter what. We'll fight and go through this together. I love you, honey. I always will."