"I'm- I'm not hungry..."
Your voice sounded so small and broken. You go in your room and are about to close the door behind you when he holds it. You don't make eye contact, simply stall to your bed and sit on it, your head facing down.
"Y/N... talk to to me.."
He mutters. You stay quiet for a bit before speaking, only the sound of you snuffling taking over the place.
"Talk about what...? About what, Kookie...? How- How I couldn't save my best friend from committing—"
"Don't blame yourself."
He merely utters, cutting you off.
Again, you don't say anything, just sit on your bed with your head down, your tears still rolling down your cheeks.
Jungkook kneels down in front of you and looks into your eyes, but you don't take yours off the floor, instead you shake your head.
"I-I'm fine, Jungkook oppa... Don't worry about me.. go and eat.."
You mumble and he sighs, bringing his hand to your face, cupping it.
"Y/N... look into my eyes and say that.."
He softly declares. Slowly your puffed eyes meet his, you could only gaze at him for a few seconds before you burst out crying, falling on the floor and hugging him. He tightly hugs you back, holding the back of your head.
_
Jungkook was able to convince you to have a movie night so you both were going to go outside to the living room where the members had probably gotten the theater theme ready.
The room was dark, only the tv light brightening it a bit. Jimin taps on the couch next to him and you go and sit down, smiling.
Hobi brings 4 big bowls of popcorn which makes you chuckle even though it was a fake.
Jimin lays down, resting his head on your thigh and you caress his hair. Yoongi, Hobi and Taehyung sit on the carpet, on the floor and jin and Namjoon sit next to Jimin's feet. Jungkook sits on your other side.
Namjoon plays the movie and it doesn't take long for you to realize that it was a scary one. Taehyung did not look happy, he wanted to watch a funny movie to cheer you up but the members knew you liked scary movies the most.
The movie goes on and soon Jimin ends up sleeping on your thigh. A smile forms on your lips as your hand goes through his hair. Jungkook puts his head on your shoulder, putting his arms around you and you feel so loved. Taehyung comes and sits in front of you on the floor, grabs your legs and put them over his shoulders, hugging them.
You giggle as Yoongi gives you all the "what on earth" look, but then looks away grinning.
Jin clears his throat looking away from the screen, which makes you look back at it... and you wish you hadn't. Namjoon rubs his temples, Hobi looks at yoongi who looks back at him, smirking. Taehyung stares at the popcorn ball, avoiding looking at the TV and immature Jungkook trys and control his laugh by moving and hiding behind your shoulder. A sudden, loud moan is heard through the screen and Jungkook, behind you silently laughs, childishly.
You feel Taehyung's hand slide down your leg which all of a sudden makes your body tense, making you tingle. You bite your bottom lip, getting what Taehyung was doing.
Being the only girl in that situation makes you nervous even though you've known the members for a long time.
Swallowing hard, you wonder why no one was skipping the steaming scene, but then understand the awkward atmosphere. No one was moving.
"Is- Is it gone....?
Jungkook whispers in your ear, making you get a shiver as his hot breath squirms on your skin.
𝘰𝘩- 𝘰𝘩 𝘸𝘰𝘸... 𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘐 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭.. 𝘸𝘦𝘪𝘳𝘥..
You murmur out "no" and Jungkook shakes, quietly chuckling. On your thigh, Jimin moves, going up to your inner thigh and your breathing gets heavier as you bite your bottom lip.
Out of habit, without realizing, He rubs his face on your inner thigh, like you would do to a pillow, and slowly gets up, looks at you and smiles. But his smile goes away when he looks at the screen, turning into a terrified one.
"WHAT THE FU— WHAT ARE YOU GUYS WATCHING?!?"
He shrieks, turning his head away. And just then the scene changes and you take a breath out. You get up and head for the kitchen, wanting a break from what just happened.
Opening the fridge, you take out a drink, open the can and take a sip before putting it on the counter. You couldn't be bothered turning on the light so you just stood there.
Behind you, in the dark, you hear the drawer slowly opening. Your breathing stops.
Hearing a giggle, you jerk your head back.
[ 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝙱𝚃𝚂 ]
They continued watching after you almost sprinted to the kitchen, flustered. Yoongi grinned.
"I think that scared her off.."
Namjoon nods while Jungkook puts a hand on his mouth to cover the snigger on his face.
A sudden yelp is heard from the kitchen and they all share a glance before quickly getting up and running to the source of the scream.
Jimin turns the kitchen light on to find you on the floor, sitting, your back pressed against the cabinet, as if someone pushed you.
Your hand was bleeding and in front of you, a kitchen knife laid with supposedly, your blood on it. Your one hand was holding the other, bleeding one and you just stared at the knife, eyes wide, your mouth slightly open and breathing heavy. The drawer was open.
Jin and Hoseok run to you.
"Namjoon, bring the first aid kit."
Jin quickly demands, and Namjoon quickly listens, opening the cabinet and bringing the kit to him.
"What— what happened Y/N?? How did this happen??"
Hobi inquires, but you don't answer. You looked traumatized. Your breathing wouldn't get stable and you just couldn't get your eyes off the knife. Just as Jin and Namjoon hold you up, you fall back to the floor, passing out.
"Y/N!? CALL THE DOCTOR!"
Jin yells and Namjoon pulls his phone out, doing as the oldest member says. Jungkook makes Jin step aside as picks you up bridal style, running to your room.
"HYUNG, DO SOMETHING ABOUT HER WOUND, SHE'S LOSING BLOOD!"
Taehyung shouts, following Jungkook.
"Jimin, bring some ice to stop the blood flow."
Jin alerts and Jimin nods, running back to the kitchen.
Jungkook places you on your bed and then looks back at the way he came from, seeing red drops on the floor, following him.
Jin lifts your hand up and keeps it there so its harder for the blood to reach out. Taehyung takes his place and holds the hand up instead so Jin can take care of it.
"Its.. so deep.."
He says, as he puts ice on it, referring to your cut. Yoongi brings tissue and wipes the blood that is sliding down.
_
"Shock"
The doctor, simply says.
"Physiological shock... she had a severe drop in blood pressure and her heartbeat went to rapid shallow, rapid than usual. You said that... she was on the floor when you went in?"
Namjoon and Jin nod. The doctor takes his time to think.
"There was no one else in the kitchen with her... how could she... has she got through any appal lately..?"
He asks and they all share a glance with the manager before Namjoon spoke.
"She... she found out that her best friend took his life earlier today..."
The doctor sighed, understanding.
"She is in mental trauma. Things like this are usually bound to happen when one loses their loved one. Its depression phases, Your brain can fog and you can end up harming yourself, completely unconsciously-"
Taehyung is about to open his mouth, denying on what the doctor says because he knows that you're strong enough to keep yourself from falling into these things, when your eyes flash open and you sit up.
"Miss Y/N... its fine... you are fine now. You just need to rest... Can you tell me... what happened...?"
The doctor asks as Jin puts a arm around you, sitting beside. Your breathing goes back to how it was when they found you in the kitchen, as your brain recalls.
"I- I went in the kitchen- I got a drink and then... the drawer opened- someone- someone was behind me-"
You describe, tears blooming your eyes.
"Who was behind you, Y/N? We all were in the living room.."
Yoongi queries and you slowly shake your head as you try to breath.
"She— She tried to stab me- with the knife— I screamed and tried to save myself but got hurt on my hand— She'll kill me— try and understand— SHE WON'T LET ME LIVE!"
You wail out, trying to explain. seeing the doctors unconvinced, concerned look, your mind recalls another memory. You yank your head to Taehyung and grab his hand. He notices how how yours hands were shaking and cold sweat drenched your face.
"TaeTae— you've seen her.. right? on the tower... YOU SAW HER! PLEASE EXPLAIN TO THEM I'M NOT LYING! I KNOW WHAT I SAW!"
You burst out crying and you can see Taehyung trying his best not to. He hugs you, sniffing, not being able to see you like this.
"She's mentally very disturbed... Trauma can cause hallucinations... obviously finding out that your best friend committed-"
You cut the doctor off.
"He didn't"
Muttering, you comprehend.
"She— she killed him... He would never have done it... She killed him... and now she's after me... I deserve it... I couldn't save him.."
You burry your face into your palms, Jimin rubs your back. The doctor sighs, going out of the room, Namjoon and Your manager follow him.
"She's deeply stressed.. I'll give you some medicine... she really needs to rest and take a break... I understand that you guys are idols.. but you are also humans... try and take her mind off things if you can... keep any harmful objects out of her reach... maybe give her some time by herself. She'll cry but that is what will recover her.."
With that said, he leaves.
Shortly after the manager goes too after making sure that everything was okay. You had calmed down, when the guys told you what you said, you stayed quiet, Not knowing what to say. Honestly, you didn't remember saying anything like that. But.. hearing that you did say it... you wanted to believe it.. that Seong-wu didn't really kill himself.
The members force you to sleep, leaving you there in your room, commanding you to call them if you needed anything.
The night went on and it slowly started pouring, outside.