Different-Part 28
Jace's POV
I sat down nervously thinking about Selly. Her mind, her touch, her arms, her lips, everything. I couldn't get it out of my head.
Her soul became mine. And mine, hers.
She hadn't eaten for 3 days and I know that it was pwobably my fault. I can't believe I said that she was like my daddy.
She is not.
I was a meanie to her and now she wasn't eating because of me. It was different to how she was with me.
I think I hurt her more than she's hurt me. I thought she was heartless, which I know is impossible but metaphorically I thought. I remember her teaching me that word.
We were sitting on the sofa and we were watching an adult show. They said metaphorically and Selena laughed as I looked at them confused. She bwushed my hair back before giving me examples of what it meant.
I still didn't understand it but she said she metaphorically doesn't have a heart as an example and I nodded.
I didn't agree with it, because she was just good at hiding her emotions.
She was confused just like I was with these new feelings I felt and I couldn't judge that.
"Jay can you try to get Selena to eat something, I'm really worried about her," my mummy asked with a fwown and I bit my bottom lip nervously, looking down with a sigh.
Will Selly even wisten to me, or even wook at me?
It didn't matter. She needed food. If she goes another day with it, then I don't know what would happen to her.
And if something happens to her, then something will happen to me.
"O-okay mommy" I whispered gwabbing a plate of pasta before walking upstairs. I looked down at the fork and remembered back to the time when she helped feed me. She was a wittle angry with me which was scawy but she did help me at the end so it was okay.
I didn't need help but I wanted her cwoser to me. She smelt of strawberries, her hair and her bodies.
I groaned. "Do I need to teach you how to eat as well?" I asked annoyed glaring at him and he jumped at how loud I sounded.
I didn't realise I was being loud but he started crying.
What's with him and crying?
I shook my head mentally smacking it and thought back for eh time where Pattie rubbed his arms when he was crying so I decided to do the same. He stopped and instead looked at me.
He was slightly afraid but I ignored that. I decided to wipe his tears feeling him flinch under my touch.
She gets angry a lot and I wished she didn't but maybe it was my fault. I know I'm a wittle different than some people but I don't mean too be. And because of that, Selly may struggle with welping me. But I know she's twying I guess.
I felt my heart beating weelly quickly as I walked up the stairs but I shook my head getting wid of the nerves and knocked on Selly's door. I didn't know what she would say, what she would do. But I needed to think about her health instead. That's most important.
My mummy tells me that you need to always take care of yourself. She used to make me bweakfast, dinner, and desert. I love eating chocolate icecweam. I wish me and Selly ate icecweam together sometimes, it always make me happy so it might make her happy too. Maybe she'll become more happier with me.
"Go away, I said I don't want to eat anything and I'm sleeping" I heard a weak voice groaned and I opened the door ignowing her. Even not evening for 3 days, she still is snappy. I wolled my eyes actually impressed how she still hasn't changed without food. I couldn't last won day without food. I tried one time cause I was angwy but I saw cookies and I ate them instead.
I looked at Selly to see her laying on the bed, as if she was dead and I whimpered at her state.
Her body seemed like it was lifeless creating a burning feeling in my chest and I let out a shaky breath. She was skinnier than usual. I looked at her hair which was a little messy with a few strands on her face. The sheets were half way in the floor but the other half covered her body.
"Selly, you need to e-eat" I whispered as she noticed me and she looked at me with a fwown before shaking her head causing me to let out a sigh as this was harder than I expected.
"I said I'm not hungry" she gwoaned pushing herself harshly against the headboard and I let out a sigh of fwustration.
"T-too bad cause y-you gonna eat," I said trying to look angry but I felt scwared gripping tightly on the plate and she let out a sigh watching my every mood.
I wasn't scared because of Selly. I'm s-scared that she hates me and she gonna weave me. That she doesn't wuv me. That she never wuvved me. That she's going to forget me. That she's going to die.
"Jay" she whispered looking down and I snapped out of my thoughts as I walked towards her. I bit my lip twying not to get distracted by her dark bwown eyes but it was weally hard. She had pwetty eyes.
I shook my head before she could disagwee to eating and sat next to her.
"Eat" I gwunted twirling the fork before placing it in fwont of pretty soft lips.
I felt my cheek redden remembering all the times we kissed and did s-sexual things.
Where she licked my boy parts at the party when she was sick.
My boy parts were tingling again but then I felt something on them and I looked down to see Sellys mouth on it.
She licked it making my head tilt back and starts wubbing it as well making me let out a small weird sound.
Ugh I must be weelly sick
I didn't know what she doing but I wiked it a wot. Selly then takes her mouth out of my boy parts and I see liquid coming out.
Huh.
I start shaking a little but then Selly put her lips on mine making me calm a little.
I snapped out of my thoughts as Selena let out a big sigh and I wiped the side of her mouth my sleeves as I accidently got a little sauce on there.
"What are you thinking about?" Selly asked and she groaned at me causing me to let out a sigh as well.
I was thinking about you Selly. You're the only one that's been on my mind since the day I met you. And you've also been on the mind of my boy parts as well. I looked down and gulped, twying to ignore my feelings that were not needed right now.
"N-nothing, just eat" I whispered ignoring the pain in my boy parts and placed the rest of the pasta in front of her lips again.
She shut her lips tightly making me tilt my head at her confused.
"I don't wanna" Selly scoffed laying her head back whilst closing her eyes and I gripped the fork tightly in my hand, trying to not get mad.
"I said I was gonna force you" I said with a groan and I opened Selly's lips with my thumb as I didn't want to hurt her and shoved the spoonful into her mouth.
"JAY" Selly squealed swallowing the pasta and I let out a smile as she looked at me angrily before m-moaning at the taste.
She couldn't resist food. An especially very tasty one.
I want her to make food again. I liked it.
I remembered her making spaghetti Bolognese which was the first meal she made me. That was nice. I shook my head realising I never said thank you to her which I should've. My mummy always told me to say please and thank you all the time but with Selena, I couldn't ever.
I felt as if I ever said thank you, she'd laugh at me and say thank you all the time to annoy me.
She looked at me and I stuck out to make her laugh but she rolls her life instead looking forwards.
She did something I guess.
"You having more?" I asked even though I was going to feed her more either way but she let out a sigh, looking back at me before glancing at the small piece left and she nodded causing me to smile knowing she was eating.
I placed another spoonful in her mouth.
"Mmm" Selly moaned as I fed her and I bit my lip as my boy parts beggwd her touch it.
"Selly" I whispered wanting her to know what she was doing to me but I stopped as she was eating right now.
"Jay" Selly moaned again and I looked at her.Well her lips.
"I finished eating" she looked at me with a smile, pointing to her now empty plate and I felt blood rush to my cheeks before nodding, placing the plate on the table.
I got up and went downstairs to the my mummy with the empty place. She looked at it and let out a breath of relief.
"You're a life saver Jay" she said and I let out a smile before placing the plate in the sink and grabbing a water bottle.
I wuickly ran upstairs and looked at Selena to see her closing her eyes but she immediately opened it once she noticed me.
I titled my head in confusion to how she was still tired eventhough she was in bed for 3 days.
I sighed as I walked towards her and sat back in the chair next to her.
"Here" I said giving her the water bottle as I loosened the cap and she nodded drinking as much as she could.
My eyes wandered back to Selly as she let out a breath before looking back at me with her hands rubbing her neck.
She's in pain.
"Should I?" I said pointing to her neck as she winced a little bit and she nodded sitting little forwards so I can sit behind her.
I crawled to her and placed my legs around her hips.
My hands went to her neck and started massaging it.
She let out a moan tilting her head back and I closed my eyes with a gulp. "That feels so good" Selly moaned again and she placed herself in my lap making my eyes widened but my boy parts happy.
I'm glad I'm making her happy. That's what I need to think about the most.
"Okay" I whispered brushing my nose against her left ear and she grunted letting out a breath.
"Jay, I know what you're doing and I'm not scared to do the same to you" Selly groaned and I tilted my head confused before she moved her hips on my boy parts and I let out a groan.
"Plz touch me sel" I pleaded with a moan and she turned around biting her lip making me groan again.
"Okay but I'm gonna more than just touch you" she smirked making me shiver under her.
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