Part 29
Selena's POV
I pressed myself against Jace as he looked up at me with lustful eyes causing me to gulp and I brushed my hand through his hair.
I got lost in his eyes as he got lost in mine.
Sometimes a little bit too easily and a little bit too quickly.
His honey-brown eyes were just so innocent. So raw compared to mine. Actually there's not anymore because of me. And the pron he's watched.
They were a little bit dark right now due to the fact that he was pressed against me. The list in his eyes travelling through mine.
It would be so easy for him to say one thing to me and I'd get giddy feelings inside. Giddy feelings I could never have with anyone else. Feelings that I didn't even think that I could have. Especially someone like me.
I sighed ignoring the emotions running through my brain and nuzzled my face into his neck breathing in his scent.
He always had vanilla, soapy smell which I loved. And kind of made me want to eat vanilla ice cream right now.
"Selly bear" I heard Jace whimper, causing me to instantly stop what I was doing and caress his cheeks in fear as I watched his eyes.
"Why are you whimpering, are you hurt?" I asked in confusion checking if he had any bruises of such and he quickly shook his head looked down at me.
Jace placed my hand over his crotch and I looked at him. "My boy parts hurt" he whimpered again and I shook my head with a giggle knowing it was because of me, he had a boner.
And he still doesn't know how to fix it. Or he just wants me to fix it. I didn't mind to be honest. I liked feeling this power over him.
"Don't worry baby" I giggled before my lips attacked his.
I felt electricity pump through my body, stronger than before it happened.
I felt like it was the last time we were going to see each other again which scared me to death.
"Selly" Jace moaned tugging on my dress and I let out a breathless moan before turning us over until he was on top. "Take it off then" I whispered rubbing my nose against his as he let out a breath.
"O-okay" he stuttered and his hands touched my thighs caressing them, squeezing them causing me to bite my lip to hold back a moan. "So soft" Jace whispered as his hands reached my hips pushing my dress up leaving my black laced panties.
I moaned arching my back wanting the urge of his touch.
He made me feel so vulnerable but I loved it in the same way.
I just hoped he knew that.
I should tell him how he feels and I will.
But I guess I'm still getting used to this. And I appreciate the fact that he respects that.
It's hard having to have your heart guarded for so long and now having to learn how to be vulnerable.
His fingers moved their way to my breasts causing my dress to reach my neck and finally he pushed them over my body and onto the floor.
"I-I'm sowwy Selly bear" Jace whispered placing a kiss on my stomach and I tilted my head in confusion.
"What for?" I asked placing my hands on his cheeks, pressing his body against mine and I frowned wanting to feel his skin touching mine.
"I-I compared you to daddy and I shouldn't have. You're nice and he's not. You're funny and he's not. He hurt me and you don't" Jace said as his bottom lip brushed over my nipples on top of my bra.
I sighed.
Yeah, it did hurt a lot when he said that.
But I've said worse to him.
I guess we're both getting used to this all lovey thing.
We've both had to go through shit. Really tough shit.
Like people might think we're toxic but I think we've been grown up toxic and now we're starting to let out to get that toxic waste out.
And that was only because of each other.
"You love me and he don't" He whispered silently.
So silent that I barely heard it.
But I did.
I looked at him and he stared back at me like he was trying to figure me out.
Like I was a dream or something that couldn't have been real.
He didn't believe I was real, did he?
His brain probably believed that I was just another illusion his mind has created because his father made him believe that.
His father made him believe that he can never be loved and Jace believed it as well unless any time he was happy, it was a dream which he was waiting to wake up from.
I think I was finally starting to understand his mind.
His fingers slid from my arm to the side of my face and I shivered at the coldness.
"I-I'm here baby," he said as I wrapped my legs around his torso and he gulped before wrapping his arms around my neck pressing his body tightly against mine.
It was like he was scared to let go.
Like he was scared to let me go.
"Can we make a baby?" Jace suddenly asked and I coughed choking on my spit.
What did he just say? "A baby?" I asked looking at him like he suddenly turned crazy.
Has he?
What porn was he watching now?
Okay, I definitely didn't teach him about babies.
Man, I swear if that clown looking drug dealer had been around Jace again.
"M-mommy said that a b-baby happens when an m-man and a lady make love together" Jace sais raising his eyebrows and bite his lips as I looked at him with my eyes widened. "Can we make l-love?" he asked rubbing my cheeks and I blinked
"You wanna make a baby?" I whispered thinking about it and he nodded rubbing my stomach like there already was a baby in.
I let out a breath, I didn't realise I was holding.
He wanted to have a baby.
With me.
As in a real baby.
Where I would need to carry for 9 months and then pop it out after that.
Then take care of it.
As in breastfeeding it.
And make sure it sleeps.
And doesn't well get lost.
I LOST JACE 5 TIMES AND HE WANTS US TO HAVE A BABY.
"Jay, I don't know," I said honestly looking down at my fingers not wanting to see the disappoint in his eyes.
"Selly, I know you scared but I will teach sports. Buy a car and we go round the world. I promise I'll be the best daddy in the whole wide world" Jace smiled and I looked up to see him with a sincere smile.
I lost Jace 5 times.
With one of the times ended up with him smoking drugs.
Babies mean no more friends because they're all mostly drug dealers.
Actually, I hate all of them so that's okay.
And I have 2 amazing mum's right now who would definitely be helping me out.
I let out a sigh before making my decision.
I mean me and Jace as parents.
Have a baby with the risks of being surrounded by drug dealers.
Leaving the baby alone.
Accidentally forgetting the baby in the shops.
Accidentally forgetting the baby after I've given birth to it.
Accidentally forgetting that I was pregnant.
Okay, I may be a little bit exaggerative.
I sighed. "Okay" I whispered nervously and Jace bit his lip knowing he was genuinely scared for this but in the same way, it looked like he wanted to jump off a cliff in excitement.
Well, an imaginary one.
"Wets make a baby?" Jace asked rubbing the back of his head nervously and I nodded with a giggle.
"Let's make a baby" I whispered processing what we going to do and that's exactly what we did.
.....
A year later.
Okay, so I and Jace had a baby.
Her name was Emori.
She was only 2 months old but she seemed like she was growing every day.
And we hadn't lost her anyway yet.
Well except for that one time in the shops where Jace was carrying a lot of bags and was putting them in the car which I was in.
But he didn't realise he had put Emori down for a second to grab the other bags until he realised that second was not a second and was 10 minutes.
Luckily one of the security officers had watched him through the camera and had quickly picked her up before giving her back to Jace.
I scolded him which caused him to frown but I knew he had felt bad as he kissed Emori about 100 times and repeated he would never ever do that again.
And he was right because he literally never left her side after that had happened.
Literally not during her bath times, food times, even potty times.
Daddy goals I guess.
And we were actually doing pretty well though with our lives.
We had bought a new house which was actually a couple of houses away from mine but I would be screwed if I didn't have my mum not being my side doing everything for me.
But a couple of months after me and Jace had talked about having a baby, we had asked Pattie and my mum if that would be okay.
As we were both 18 and ya know that's kinda an awkward age for a baby.
My mum was obviously a little hesitant at the idea. As she had walked out of the room and had made a huge clatter in the living room after we had asked them.
We weren't allowed to go in there for a couple of weeks.
But Pattie had engulfed us with a hug and told us she couldn't wait to become a grandma.
And I couldn't wait to become a mother as well.
I was terrified but I was also in love with the idea of having children with Jace.
Pattie had asked if we were to get married before we were to have children and I had thought about it but I also had thought about the idea of having our first child be in the presence of our wedding.
And so we put a hold on the idea.
Until a couple of months later, I had found out I was pregnant. I told Jace while we were laying in bed together as he was telling me about his dream baby.
He didn't care too much if it was a boy or a girl, but he definitely wanted to reach them everything he possibly could.
Which wasn't much ngl.
But he wanted to make sure that they had a choice to be able to do everything and write what they love doing and hate doing so that they can look back at it in case they ever lose themselves mentally.
Which I pray never happens.
But after I told him that, he had immediately got out of bed and cried in excitement, kissing me everywhere.
And then once I knew it, he had gotten down on his knees and proposed.
He didn't have a ring or anything but he wanted to marry me.
And that's all I cared about.
And I obviously said yes.
But he definitely told me that we would wait to get fully married till our first child was old enough to know we were getting married and seeing the look on her face.
And now I have a fiancé and a daughter who I love deeply. And I couldn't wish for anything more.
THE END
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Honestly, I have just written this off the top of my head so yeah. lol.
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